panic attacks, anti-depressants

I dunno, it's about something I found out about my panic attacks, wanted to write about it so I won't forget it. don't mind the grammar faults

okay, so since last week I take anti-depressants. and of course there are some effects on ad's. so I get a really fast heartbeat, and when I'm really concentrating it's like I'm in my own little bubble. so when someone calls my name, it's really like that bubble gets destroyed so I get like real panic-attacks. first I didn't know why I got so afraid when someone called my name or when someone suddenly stands in front of me, but now I know it's just because I can't get really focused on two things.
which really sucks because I hate to do one thing at the time, usually I do three things at the time, so everything goes SOOO slow! so yeah I'm on antidepressants. because I can't control myself. sometimes I really think I have Borderline. IDK really. but I really need to tell you this, if you consider going on ad's, you really have to know that the first weeks, you feel sooo much more depressed and lonely! so if you already want to kill yourself, you should better just go talk to a psychologist or something.