~ Soledad's Analysis of Peace..

On a dark road to Peace..

It has been 70 days and 70 nights, if I make a rough estimate.. I think I have gone through quite a lot to call myself "Me" anymore.. It seems like each and every night that passed by brings a brand new change to who I am, and who I used to be.. This variation in my own personality desturbs me a lot.
Going through darkest of tunnels, coridoors of terror, I've felt like a ten year old kid who is too afraid to enter a dark room.. At times I had felt so alone and so fragile, I felt I would break at any moment.
Ever since I've been able enough, to look around me, to know who I am, to see where I am going and where the world around me is going, I have always felt like lagging behind. But, for me, my thoughts and dreams have always been the biggest support. I stumbled, I fell, I got up again, and carried on on a brand new road.
My experience might not be very "grand" I have lived 20 years on this planet, but I think they are more than enough for me to know what is right whats is wrong, what am I supposed to support and what not.. Isn't it?
And I think through days and night of long solitary moments of thinking, I have finally found my way, and where I want to be.. Now I can say with pride that I have a "Destiny" and that I am ready to learn more, to face the world..
I have looked around me, and the first thing I noticed was: "hatred"
I have seen and felt hatred in the hearts of people, I have felt the grudge between nations, and in those long hours of darkness at nights, I have wished for peace, I have longed for love.. I have longed for a perfect world.
I have seen the good and evil, the prevailing Evil.. I have seen the disguised and hooded figures around me, walking talking, ruling.. Leading.. And when I tried to search for their names, I was informed that these creatures were known as "Politicians"
I think world is largely divided between "Humans" and "Politicians"
I have seen racists, I have seen religious extremists.. I have seen craze of "War" And I have seen rest of the world in a trance. I have seen them hypnotized.
There was yet another thing I discovered in this world, I saw mechanic robots, that can destroy a laughing, happy and lively nation in a second. I came to know they were called "Atom Bombs" and they had children called "Misiles"
I have seen people idolizing these robots, which I think in nearby future will rule this planet.
I have seen the greed in the nations. I saw the greed for "liquid" I saw people hungry for each others blood for some sort of liquid. Later I was told that the liquid is known as "Oil"
I saw massacre going on in the name of "Religion" I saw people blowing the world to make happy their "God" I saw them in a trance too, I saw them getting pumped up and used by superior powers to fight for the religion, although they were fighting in real for power. I saw these innocent minds made evil, I saw those minds used as puppets.. I saw it all, and I felt it piercing my heart..
I have seen the people wanting peace, yet going for war. I have seen the terror in each and every heart, I have seen the terror in the eyes, I have felt it, I have felt the terror of war. Yet I have seen the people wanting it, people fighting each other, people being spoiled, filled up and ready to be sacrificed, for no good.
As I am, currently living on the edge of a War, who else can feel it all better than me? I have felt it, I am feeling it, I have prayed for better days, I have prayed for the end of this war-talk, I have had sleepless nights, thinking about where we are going?
And I have found my answers, I have made my conclusions.
I have concluded that we are "One". We may be White, Black or Brown. We may be Muslim, Hindu, Christian, Jew or whatever, we are really one. We have similar emotions, similar fears. Their is disguise on each and every one of us, a limit to our minds, the border of Hatred. We all think below it, and those who will manage to come out of it will realize that the battle going on in the world is not our battle, it is the battle of some bad pennies. It is the political war, the extremists war. We, we are just being used. and we get used so easily. Don't we?
I have friends all over the world, and I know they love me, I love them. And I know we can all live in peace, if our leaders will want us to. I believe that if all of us stand together, we can bring an end to the endless fears in our hearts. We can say NO to war. we can love each other, break the mountain of misunderstandings between us, and be One.
I know, it will take an age to make each and every one of us to cross this border, but its never too late, nothing is done yet, we can say no to it, we can put an end to it, if we join hands.
And I will always keep on believing this, I will always struggle for peace, for killing the hatred in the hearts. And no one can stop me from this.
I will go on.

Peace to you all
Soledad..