Have you ever felt so miserably alone that you don't know what to do? Every where you look there are relationships. Friends. Families. Lovers. You'd do anything to be a part of them. But me? I'm a strange person. I don't really have those kinds of connections.
I have friends, plenty of them. I love them with all my heart, but none of us are really close. The ones that were, moved. The ones that aren't stand still seemingly.
And I know that's partially, mostly, my fault, because I am very different.
And family. You'd figure with nine other people under one roof, you'd find one to connect with, right?
No. I'm much older than the younger ones, and more sophisticated in many ways. As for my parents in the vice verse sense.
A lover. I don't even have one because I'm so incredibly awkward.
The ones that like me, I don't like back. As sad as it is to say, I'm very picky. I want some one I've known for a long time. Also, some one who is generally quiet, but can be spontaneous and is often. Some one smart, funny, practical, sweet.
Sophisticated. Some one of my own nature. But even then, I'm still different from them. I'm loud, opinionated, ignorant, and over talkative. I'm too unattractive to be that annoying and get off scott free with it.
So those people find it difficult to even stomach me on most occasions.
I just want love.
Of any kind.
I feel so helpless, drowning without it. No one to be close to, no one to talk to. No one to hold and tell how incredibly perfect they make me feel. Life without companionship is not life.
It's merely existence without meaning.
My most latest thoughts about me and life in general. I would really like some feed back. Not only on my situation, but on how I wrote this. Enjoy.
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AND YOU"RE NOT AWKWARD!!!
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Bryan.. this is incredibly nice, it reminds of myself A LOT, but when i was younger ... and you're VERY right. Life without companionship is meaningless.. Its NOTHING.. it's hell.
About the way you wrote this, it's gr8.. i mean that a good write needs honesty, and that's what you made me feel. You made me live that situation for that small period of time(in which i read this)
I hope things just get better in any way.. and that you find LOVE whether it's family love, friends love or lover's love.
and always remember that there are always ones like me (and my preceeding comentator)
who are there whenever you need them.
you deserve a c l a p bluberry!!!
sherry
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Bumble-B!!! You are NOT UNATTRACTIVE!!! I forbid you from saying that! As for finding love, you will, but I think first you have to love yourself. Hard for any of us to do. But you know you can always vent to me if you want to, or go gay if you want. I'm good for that too!
Love you B,
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Am too, J Bizzle x.x
I do love myself, as much as I should (that sounds weird.) it's just that I'm not too fond of how I look.
Hahaha, if I ever do, you'll be the one I turn to!
Much love back!
And thanks!!
Bumble B
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babe,
i will loves you!! rawr, hun, if you hurt as much as i do, i totally understand. i dont wish this pain upon anybody else, and to c that your going thru it, makes me wanna hug you untill the sun comes up..
i will always be here for you
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