Autumn Blessings

Just lately, I have reverted to writing lists of what I am thankful for. There are things about my life that haven't been ideal, including the fact that I have had a number of manic episodes, but I am quite stubborn about not letting it get me down.

That's where lists of blessing come in.

September 22, 2008

I made a note about the beautiful flowers still blooming in August since, for me, that's a blessing. Then I expanded and wrote at greater length as follows:

My life is still a work in progress and, since I find myself here, living on this earth, I may as well keep working on self improvement. Sometimes, I feel flat and tired (that could be the Lithium) and life is not as exciting as when I was young. But I am basically well and concentrating on staying positive and avoiding cranky feelings and behaviours. Quite minor problems can made me panic or cause a trantrum, but lately that doesn't happen as much. I believe in the strength of my will but there are times when weakness does overcome me.

There is much to occupy my days. I have Allpoetry (reading poetry and writing quite a nice one this evening about my memories of Spain), flyers to post, sitting and talking to passersby every morning as I drink coffee at Reither's Deli. It's important to get enough people contact even though people can be annoying and hurtful.

I have my catsitting work and I am reading a Jane Austin novel. I am always pursuing various courses of study, even if it's not for long. Right now, I am waiting for Robert Burton's Anatomy of Melancholy to come in for me at the library.

I take naps when I get the chance and attempt to control the eating that I love. I drink the odd glass of wine, watch television and talk on the phone with clients and friends. I visit the cats I care for and I am making a study of the big old cat who recently bit me twice. My own two cats are a delight.

September 26th

When I woke up this morning, I wrote some notes in the book beside my bed:

1. The bad feelings always go away. (They always come back too but at least they do go away as well.)

2. I started a list to be filled in tonight of what I accomplish today.


Those are the blessings of my life, briefly accounted for. What are your blessings and joys? Please feel free to share them.