Nothing hurts more, yet nothing brings more happiness. It's like the ultimate addiction; even though it messes you up you still want more.
For over a year I've been crazy over one guy; Danny. While he claimed to love me, in truth he was only crazy about one girl--not me. Usually I like roller coasters, but the frequent ups and downs of that ride made it one I never want to experience again. But here's the thing; while he was the one directing the ride, he's the one who got off. His parting words--"I'm tired of the same old thing."
That... That hurts. To think we were once so close and then he suddenly decides I'm boring him... He's not the same guy I fell in love with, that I know. I'm afraid I've lost that Danny forever.
But now the addiction. The burning desire to feel loved has caused me to move forward. I wanted to just stay. Cry. Not do anything. But what's the point of that? Crying accomplishes nothing. Giving up only makes things worse. I'm not getting Danny back, so why should I give him the satisfaction of breaking me? I'm nowhere near getting over him yet, but I've at least taken steps to get there. And the major step I've taken...is ask someone out.
Jordan. He was my best friend in 7th grade, two years before I even met Danny. There was a big misunderstanding in 8th grade and we stopped talking, but last year we started again. After Danny I truly think he's the only person I can be happy with. All I can hope for is he doesn't make me cry as much.
.....I still love you, Danny. Always will. But it's about time I moved on.
--love.
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You breaking down wouldn't satisfy me, it would guilt trip me into staying with you. I always knew you had something for Jordan, even before you said it. That's one reason I got tired of you. Once you started talking again, I could just tell. But just remember what side of the fence he stood on when you were trying to date Frank. Remember which side I was on when I found out. I hope he does make you happy, because you two deserve each other. And no, I wasn't just in love with Sophie, I loved you too, once. But you're not the same girl I started dating either. You changed too, you became overly clingy and everything had a reason, you thought you had medown pat to where you always knew what I was doing and that pissed me off. Way to make this column seem like it was all my fault. See you in 5th Period tomorrow. Peace
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i would suggest that you get a reality check, then come talk about how she became "overly clingy." Is that not what love is about? Is love not knowing each other to "where you always knew what I was doing?" Obviously, you're not thinking of love..whatever you felt, it wasn't love. If you truly loved Ellen, you wouldn't have given up when she started talking to another guy. Your arguments don't make sense...
And Ellen, your a fantastic writer. I love it. The metaphor was very appropriate to this situation. And it doesn't seem like your ridiculing Danny. Just telling him how you feel.
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