Firstly I'm sorry
Secondly I'm going to make excuses.
Recently, my head is everywhere. I'm not me. I'm someone else possesing a body that I can't control, can't grow to love. I can't feel. I'm a demon in the shape of a girl. I'm not here in my own right, I'm just placed here and right now I want to find my feet.
I can't breathe.
So, now I have it in writing. For a while I will be leaving allpoetry. My words are dry.
The people I will miss most, are the people who are most special. They write not because it makes them look deep. They can feel, they are saving allpoetry with beautiful words and making the world blessed to have their words. Seriously guys, you people are special.
I refer to;
Wendy, my beautiful aunt. You are so special to me. You are my NAD in respiration (Can you tell I'm doing higher biology
)Kendal, you're one of the most beautiful spirits in the universe. I'm crying now, just thinking of you.
Con. You're a million times as special as you think you are.
Billie-Jean; you have something special. I will always admire you.
Lilac thoughts; you're so special. A strong and inspirational woman. I admire you, and aspire to be someone like you one day.
Desire; another woman of POWER!
Paul, you've alwasy been an amazing friend to me!
EVERYONE in the Lair. Tim would be so proud (And now I'm crying again!)
Cherie, Jeanette and everyone else I've never gotten incredibly close to, you still inspire me. Every day.
I love allpoetry. I've met so many amazing people. Lilac, my mum. Wendy, my aunt. Kendal, my friend. Tim, you were such a beautiful soul and in Jesus' cradle you still are. I miss and pray for you every day.
I guess this is just me saying, I love you all.
I might be on myspace, not a lot though. DROP ME A MESSAGE ANYWAY! I WILL REPLY!
It's not goodbye. I'll be back.
Why am I crying? I don't know. Is anyone as silly as me? Probably not. Poetry will come back to my veins one day.
Adding your comment:
loving you from afar but will always have a special place in my heart, Paul aka your loyal Tiger companion =)
I can relate my dear, and it seems as though many of your words here are something I myself have said here lately. You are an amazing person, you know. I say that not to boost you - because if I didn't think so; I could not say this. I love you & when you are ready, I shall be here - you are always in my heart and on my mind. Even from the thousands of miles - I feel you, your pains... Just take care of yourself. Find YOU, and try and learn to love her for me - she deserves it more than anyone.
there are no words sweetpea.
