Going Away

I doubt anyone will read this but goodbye to those who do....

For the past few months I've been feeling that poetry hasn't been helping me as much as it used to, I used to write almost every day to get my feelings out and to make myself feel better, but lately that just hasn't been working for me....
For people who used to read my poetry, you may have noticed I haven't added a poem in months, and this is why....
Also I haven't been commenting on others poetry anywhere near as much as I feel I should....
I'm sorry to everyone who I promised to be here for and I'm neglecting, I really am sorry....
But there is just so much going on in my life, although nothing at all really, I'm going crazy, school has become too hard for me to handle, I think I'm failing most of my classes, maths especially, I haven't passed a single test this year....
There's nothing going wrong in my life really, but it also seems like nothing is going right either....
I've lost a lot of friends this year, we changed schools, most of us moving on to the same college, but with all the new people, there were only 150 in my year in high school, now there's like 1000, we've just all seemed to be moving apart, which I hate....
I have 3 sisters, and they've all moved out of home, I'm the youngest and my oldest sister is only 5 years older than me, all of us were always really close, and now one lives only 20 mins away but is always working when I'm out of school and the others live 2 hours away so I rarely get to see any of them....
So, I don't know, none of this probably seems like that much, especially to all those people who have real problems, but my passion for writing has just disappeared and I have no way of handling stress, I want to write and get it all out so much, but I just can't....
So I'm really sorry to all those people who I've been neglecting lately, I'm sorry I haven't been talking to you as much as I should, and I'm sorry I haven't been commenting....
I'm going to try to continue judging contests, I'm going to try to come up with the points somewhere, to see if I can somehow get back into the swing of AP life, I really hope I can, because I love the AP community and I've made some awesome friends since I joined, so I really hope that soon I can join back in the way I want to live here....
And I really have no idea why I wrote this, but yes I will leave you all for a while, I have no idea how long, and maybe when I come back I'll feel better, I really do hope so....
But if anyone on here wants to contact me before I come back, I doubt anyone will but anyway.... My email and msn is giraffe_girl99@hotmail.com
And I'll be back in a couple of days to clean up some things but then I'll be gone for I have no idea how long....
Hopefully when we do poetry in English next term my teacher will help me find myself again....
Talk to you all soon hopefully, thanks for being such awesome people, love you all so much!


xxx