True Friends

Just my own little rant/questioning on what true friends really are. May be offensive.

What are True friends?

Do they stab you in the back?

Do they turn against you because another friend and you are in disagreement?

Do they ignore you?

Do they forget you...?



Lately I have been pondering on the true meaning of being a friend, a true friend. THis has been brought on by several disagreements of the past, and of the current.

I once was accused of saying something I didn't say, and this one girl and I didn't speak for the longest time. another friend, one I grew up with, turned her back on me because of this other friend. Another seemed to drift away, clinging to the other two, and leaving me alone.

I am now friends again with all three. but are they true friends? I wonder...

Another one, a girl, we had been friends since I was in the 8th grade. Crazy girl, I wanted to be just like her. Now I'm glad I'm not. B/c of what she has done, b/c of who she has become, we are no longer friends. She would drag me down, with her problems, and leave me to ponder and solve hers and my own, and never lent an ear to help me with my problems. Now she and I don't speak, purely for the fact that I am dating her ex-boyfriend, that I am engaged to her ex-boyfriend, and now she can't have him. add to that the fact that I've finally gotten myself and my priorities in order, I now can have a real life, the real experience of life.

I look back on high school, and I think of the memories I missed because of her. If not for her, I probably wouldn't have had that time when those three friends ditched me. IF not for her, I would probably have had more memories with the people who count the most.

I do, however, have to thank her, for if she hadn't hurt this boy I love so much, I wouldn't have met him, we wouldn't have fallen in Love. so I get a thank-you is in order. But she won't receive it. If she hadn't hurt him in the first place, but had stayed with him, then I would still be her friend, possibly, and I would still be stuck in the mud, under her thumb.

I feel like I haven't been a true friend to my dearest and most treasured friends. You both know who you are. I know that I have ignored one at times, and I feel horrible, especially today for being so moody, although I do believe I have good reason. I love you, girl, and I know you will read this. I'm sorry for all of the things you've been through that I wasn't there for, and for all of the things that I don't see. when you're in pain, when you are sad, I am afraid at times to broach the subject, to ask you if everything is alright.

as for the other most treasured friend, I am sorry, so so sorry. I feel as if I've been the cause of your pain. Just standing there, on the sidelines, watching you get hurt...It killed me, but I am sorry, because I was a coward, and unable to tell you that i love you. with all of my heart. also, I am sorry for this trial we are going through, I feel like I have caused this. But God knows, I couldn't have waited a second longer to tell you how I felt, for I was afraid you would reject me, think me weird, and now that I've told you, we have been able to be together, until my foolish mistakes got us caught, and now we cannot see each other for awhile.


I am sorry.







Now, you might be wondering, those of you who aren't my friends, what this has to do to help everyone out, why I am making a column for this.

I'm not sure. I think I want to go through what I believe the signs of a true friend are:

trust, loyalty, honesty, integrity with one another.
having the power of choice, so that when one friend has an argument with another, you can still be friends with them.
Loving them, for your friends are who get you through the world, who help you in your darkest hours, your scariest nights.
Not stabbing them in the back, and spreading the seed of doubt.
being able to tell them anything.
caring about them enough to listen to their problems, and not drag them down with your own, but willing to share your problems nonetheless.



there is no better thing in the world, than a true friend. A friend will fall off the edge of the world with you, they will hold the candle up to your nightmares, they will protect and defend you, shading the evils of the world.

to steal from Charles Dickens "a tale of two cities" and change it a bit...

"It is a far far better thing I do, than I have ever done, when I show kindness to a friend"


-Twitchy
--VoT
---Allie-Catt




So now, where has this gotten us?