Releasing some of my heart... mind...

I wanted to write about what has been in my mind, but I don't know if I can be really opened... cause the heart/mind can change their own switch. We'll see what I'd create!

I'm trying to learn a better way to get myself out of my old feelings, but it still stays there. I want to show who I am to others, but I don't want to trap myself with saying something wrong. It sucks, cause I can say a little but then I'd feel like I said too much or something.

Ehh, I've been feeling that way for a bit and especially, like I'm the only one that likes one person. Man, I'm not a joke.. I'm not a player.. I'm someone that no one don't know about! I hide myself, and I've been hurt plently of times which is sad but what can I do.. it's in the past!

I don't want to go back to how I was with guys or what not. I keep on saying things I don't want and shit, but... I don't do the action to stop! That's how this world can do at times. I mean, I have my life kinda out there and just when I think of any mintue it's finally getting better.. it closes a bit, then when I reach for it more... it just gives me a bad sign!

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Thoughts
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