YES this is a rant but it is also a question . a long detailed and very random rant about life
Well i guess i will start about 2 months ago when shit started to fall into this design it is now showing . Well it was a typical friday night we got our smoke and well me and J realized once we could look at it that i had been shorted . well j called a friend an asked if i could use his scale to see how much my bag was off and B said sure to bring me on over . Instead of J takin me he asked his girlfriend to take me over there . Well the ride over there we talked and i kept her laughin . Well the ride back our convo got deeper and i found out that her life wasnt much different from mine . we have actually been thru some of the same well hell almost everything life had throw at one of us it had throw at both . anyways as time passed i gained her trust more and more well about 3 weeks ago her and J got into it and I just happen to be watchin a friend of mines house an she asked if she could come over there to get away from him because he was getting mean . I told her to come on that she didnt need to be done that way. well she got there about 230 that mornin in tears with a bit of a bruse under her right eye . Well that night we talked till 5 that mornin . During that talk she told me more than she has told any of the others . Her and liz talk about everything but i found out today that liz doesnt even know some of the things she told me . At first i thought she may have been making it up but there no way a person could make their eyes show the hurt they cant completely describe . And as she told me these things you could see the pain in her eyes . Well the next night her and J got into it again and she came over to hang out with me this time things hadnt gotten as bad as they had the night before . Well as we sat there watchin a movie we began to talk again and again the conversation got deep enough that the past brought out scars that had almost disappeared . And over the past 2 weeks friends have noticed things i honestly think they are makin up but then again they might be telin the truth . but they have been sayin how they notice subtle things she has been doing around me and even my liz's sister who only met S last night said that just from how she acted around me she had a thing for me. anyways last night we were all over C and liz's house well i started to get depressed so i just kinda slipped outta the house to walk around outside . well they said once she noticed i was outside she started askin where i was at and then just happened to need to get home to watch a show that liz and her sister were watchin there. Well after she came outside instead of leaving she put her keys up and got her a cig and started talkin to me . well J came out and asked her why she hadnt left and then why didnt she wanna watch it there . anyways he huffed up and went back inside . S and i sat there talkin for about 10 minutes and then she asked me if i wanted to ride with her to get somethign to drink . well i think she noticed i was wanting to go home so she said if i wanted she would give me a ride home . well i took her up on the offer and as we left the yard and got about a mile away from the house she called to tell J she was taking me home. The ride over there was filled with the same deep conversation we have been having. and after she droped me off she didnt go back to C and liz's hosue she went home alone and didnt come back after J till later on that night . damn that was alot now since i first actuall conversation till now she has gotten to be the object of my thoughts . i think about her at least every 5 minutes . just being around her helps me when im down and she tried to cheer me up if she thinks somethings wrong . so heres the questions one do you think that there is something there or are my friends screwin wit me and is it worth the risk to chance anything seeing as how her bf J has a pistol now and is a hot headed fool . also why am i thinkin about her so damn much
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