i feel like writing today.lol

i just feel like writing today, well today was boreding as any other day. tomorrow is prom and i'm going with some friends. i'm going to wear the same dress as i did for homecoming my softmore year.i hate when people read my stuff as i
m typping it. ahh it hate it. i've been stay at my sister house and it like it there execpt that i have to watch her kids when she go and get pot or sell some pills. ahh it really sux b/c her kids are brats. katie is the worst of them all. kimberly is only to month old and she breastfeed so i can't doing anything bout that when she leave but i can feed a bottle.sometime she won't take it. then ihave to listen to her scream. i also hate then i clean the house and sometime she helps me but not all the time she said that she has to feed the baby. i know that the baby doesn't eat all that much. my day are so boreding and i do the same thing everything. i get up wake up jordan and yell at her b/c she will wear something dirty or something that didn't match at all then i get dress and make coffee and the put on my make up if i feel like it. then i do jordan hair before we leave then i go to guidice office and i do my wasgington state history then i go to choir and sing then i go to pe then have lunch the i go study hall and do my washington state history then go to pottery then go to my washington state history class and work on m y washington state work then go home and clean and do dishes. yell at katie to eat then some time sister go on her things.i do that everyday the samething everyday. on weekends io clean so that i don't have to listen to booby my brother in law. i can't wait until i go home and able to sleep in my own bed. i have my own bed at my sister house but sometime my niece katie come and sleep with me untill she wake up in the night scream then i tell her to go to her mom room to sleep. i'm going to miss my nieces but it will be ok. i 'll come back to visit. i'll call them just about everynight. i told katie that i will. she tell me everyday that i can't go home because she doesn't want me too. it gonna be hard but i know it will be for the best. you know what i mean. so yea.i don't think i every wrote this much in such a short amount of time.i have whole hour to write so i'm going to use iit up. so yea. i'm going to grad for high school on the 9th of june then i'm going home on the 10th or the 11th. i don't which one. when ever nicole booked it. oh well. i'm having a grad party / going away party all in one.there so much i have to do. well dont really. i already have half of my stuff pack i just have out the stuff i'm using. it real soon when i'm leaving. i miss my home state il. it the best place ever. i remeber when i was about 16 or 17 say i can't wait to get out hell whole state. now that i'm out i i can't wait to go back. my best advice to all that think that way is to stay where you are. the grass isn't greener on the other side. believe me. i'm going to stay at my mom's house ever. i miss my mom so much that it hurt and i miss my sister nicloe and i miss the most would be my aliegh. of cousre my friends too. when i left mad at my friends and we kind all get in this huge fight about it. i know that thing won't be like how it used to be.i feel that maybe we could work on it again that we could be better friend then we were. you know what i'm mean. life is going be to fast and i don't want to miss out on anything. i don't wan t to miss out anyone life because you don't when there life will end. i'm geting old i want to spend my time with family and friend and not messing around. i want to be able settle down with a girl of my dream( like that goona) but i'll take anyone that i fell for and that fall for me.lol i want to starte a family soon, i really don't. there thing i want but doesn't meant that it will happen that way.omg this long i was writing on a poem but then it stop there were not more room so i was like sh*t. then i copy it that pasted it on here and now i have more room.lol. i have 30min left untill my next class. i beta no one will read all of this. and if you do then i love you.lol. i really do.lol. sometime i just feel that i nned to break down cry. cry all that i can. i feel that i need somethere but i can't put my hand on it. i've having dreams about my friend kaylle comimg down to il to see me and stuff but i don't know what that means. i dreams ore dreams.lol.i just want to be able to sit and think. without anyone coming on me. i really don't any alone time. i guess i can when i'm in the shower but sometime katie come in and go to the potty then she won't leave me alone. ahh. i love that girl to death but she alway hang on me i guess it when a little girl loves her aunt. lol. that right i'm the cool aunt but ofcousre i do spank a** when that misbehave. duh. lol i told i feel like writing. well i must be off on my way.lol