I travel through this world alone,
my dreams unfulfilled, my destiny unknown.
I think about you still my friend,
though you've been gone almost a year.
My life has felt quite empty
since I haven't had you here.
I was only given four years,
doesn't seem like very long.
The cancer came and took you away,
like some old sad country song.
I took care of you the best I could,
I know you loved me too.
I'd give anything to have you back,
there's nothing I wouldn't do.
You were so loyal to the end,
which made it hurt that much more.
Even when you were sick and dying,
and you couldn't go on anymore.
I carried you to the car,
this friend who would have killed for me.
I laid you in back but you climbed up front,
so my face for the last time you could see.
We dropped off the kids and you looked at me,
I shook my head sobbing and crying no.
I knew you were ready now that we were alone,
and you were going to go.
It was hard to see you take that last breath,
harder still knowing you did it for me.
You saved me from making a choice I could not,
loyal to the end you left gracefully.
There are many sides to me
I'll be there for you as long as it works for me,
I play a game it's called insincerity.
I'll stay until I take all I can get,
I've tried to change but it hasn't happened yet.
I'll try to love you the way I know how,
though if you can call it love I'm not sure right now.
This is who I am and I'll probably always be,
a girl who uses guys for their money.
Sometimes I think I've found love to last,
than I realize I jumped the gun to fast.
I am who I am it seems I can't change my mind,
I'll always be the one leaving someone behind.
Most people hate me and I understand,
how can I refuse to reach out my hand.
I guess you can't know what it's like to be,
a girl who uses guys for their money.
I don't have any bills I have to pay,
and my man solves any problems that get in my way.
It's really not just loot I use them for,
we all need someone at dinner to open our door.
I need to be safe, to know I am cared for.
What is it to me if you call me a whore?
I'm the one who has to live with this, so tomorrow I'll still be,
a girl who uses guys for their money.
Find me on MySpace and be my friend!
my dreams unfulfilled, my destiny unknown.
I think about you still my friend,
though you've been gone almost a year.
My life has felt quite empty
since I haven't had you here.
I was only given four years,
doesn't seem like very long.
The cancer came and took you away,
like some old sad country song.
I took care of you the best I could,
I know you loved me too.
I'd give anything to have you back,
there's nothing I wouldn't do.
You were so loyal to the end,
which made it hurt that much more.
Even when you were sick and dying,
and you couldn't go on anymore.
I carried you to the car,
this friend who would have killed for me.
I laid you in back but you climbed up front,
so my face for the last time you could see.
We dropped off the kids and you looked at me,
I shook my head sobbing and crying no.
I knew you were ready now that we were alone,
and you were going to go.
It was hard to see you take that last breath,
harder still knowing you did it for me.
You saved me from making a choice I could not,
loyal to the end you left gracefully.
There are many sides to me
I'll be there for you as long as it works for me,
I play a game it's called insincerity.
I'll stay until I take all I can get,
I've tried to change but it hasn't happened yet.
I'll try to love you the way I know how,
though if you can call it love I'm not sure right now.
This is who I am and I'll probably always be,
a girl who uses guys for their money.
Sometimes I think I've found love to last,
than I realize I jumped the gun to fast.
I am who I am it seems I can't change my mind,
I'll always be the one leaving someone behind.
Most people hate me and I understand,
how can I refuse to reach out my hand.
I guess you can't know what it's like to be,
a girl who uses guys for their money.
I don't have any bills I have to pay,
and my man solves any problems that get in my way.
It's really not just loot I use them for,
we all need someone at dinner to open our door.
I need to be safe, to know I am cared for.
What is it to me if you call me a whore?
I'm the one who has to live with this, so tomorrow I'll still be,
a girl who uses guys for their money.
Find me on MySpace and be my friend!
- Last seen on Jan 30 9:17 AM 2008. Member since October 10, 2005.
- I'm a moonstone path poet for 509 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is "Never judge another, you may need a friend someday".
- I am a 24 year old girl (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm a dog groomer.
- I am in the groups The Enchanted Realm
- I have 509 comments, 3 contests, 80 poems, 4 stories
My Poetry
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Here I stand before you, barcode on my chest, scan it, put your money on the dresser,25 lines, 2 comments, December 20, 2007
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I've been crying for hours, minutes and seconds, crying for days and for weeks.20 lines, 1 comment, December 20, 2007. In Sad
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Could things get worse?
Sure they can, but does that make me feel better?18 lines, 5 comments, January 31, 2007. In Personal -
You have her, and I have him,
yet we came together one night.23 lines, January 26, 2007
My Stories
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It was tough growing up on the north side of town. Nothing but trailer courts, seedy hotels and the skeletons of businesses that never made it lined the street. It seems only t1655 lines, 7 comments, February 11, 2006. In <200 lines, Other
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I think that smoking the crack those months was what really got to me. I was hooked but I was able to see how the people around me were acting. Crawling around on the ground pi1246 lines, 4 comments, December 20, 2005. In <200 lines, Other
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micheal corleone on November 7, 2006i thank you for looking at my one of my works
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nutsoap on September 2, 2006thanks for the comment.. yes its true.. as is most of everything i write.. i have not had the internet for a long time, but i got it recently so i should be adding more stuff is i find the time.. its always nice to see your comments
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Chayos14 on April 3, 2006hey how are you u do have an awsome page and it is a good thing that i have you to talk to on my side love yaz always kayela
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Nitesshadow on March 24, 2006Hey sorry about the delay in replying - thanks for your comment on skyrockets in flight a while back
i agree it needs working on and my main weakness is that i don't read things over but i'm trying to more and more
thank you
fetimo
