Brokensmile68• Show poetry

Hey,
Yeah, just so you all know I used to be ParaSuicide68 but I chose to change my name because I am a "recovering cutter" and I didnt think that name would help any. I am 14 years old but I put on adult so I could see the whole site. Anyways Im glad some people like my poems. Alot of them are about love and pain and my temptations to cut again. Some may be good, from the heart and personal. Some may be bad because it's filled with too much emotion or something. I dont know, it's your opinion on my poems. I just write what I feel. :-) Hope yee like!! Oh and my screenname is Waiting2Escape68...ya know if ya wana talk sumtime.
//N/I/K/I//
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(these are parts of some of my favorite songs that I think relates to me)

No, no matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
No, no matter how far we've come I
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, Now I see, Even when I close my eyes
With you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, Now I see, Even when I close my eyes
~With You~ *Linkin Park*

Cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
And I can't keep
Picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad
Cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
I replay it
Over and over again
~Over and Over~ *Nelly*

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real, I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
~Somewhere I Belong~ *Linkin Park*

I thought it was too good to be true
I found somebody who understands me
Someone who would help me to get through
And fill an emptiness I had inside me
But you kept inside and I just denied
Some things that we should have both said
I knew it was too good to be true
Cause I'm the only one who understands me  
~What Happened to Us~ *Hoobastank*

Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once, wake up for once
Not tormented daily, defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom
~Going Under~ *Evanescence*

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep, never die)
~Whisper~ *Evanescence*

Walking away I see the pain
You put me through
Lost in your game to change the same
Forever gone, forever you  
~Forever Gone, Forever You~ *Evanescence*

I dont know if I can live without you  
(what is left of me without you)
I dont know if I am free without you
(how can I obsess without you!)
~Without You~ *Linkin Park*
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(im bored so here is some of my favorite things)

Favorite Movies: Emporer's New Groove (teehee) Secret Window (Johnny Depp is hott) Girl Interupted
Favorite Actor: Johnny-Fuking Hott-Depp
Favorite Actress: Angelina Jolie
Favorite People that produce Music: Linkin Park, Pitbull, Lil John, Blink 182, Usher, Evanescence and many more
Favorite Thing to Say: "teehee" and "YOU BEACHES!!"
Favorite Hott Thing: Omar's Desk (lol jamie)
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(here are some things about me-not that you care)

My Name: ChooChoo Maka..teehee
My Age: 13-more lyk 19..hehe
My Sign: Taurus BULLS RULE
My Eye Color: brown
My Hair Color: Brown
My 'Lovly' Hair Type: curly :-/
My Reasons for Living: My Daddy, Bekka, Chrissy, and All my Friends that Really Do Care
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(here are my last random things to say-i have probelms-)

YOU ARE THE POO, SO EVERYONE TAKE A BIG WHIFF OF IT, BEACHES!!

OMAR'S DESK IS MINE AND I WILL MAKE SWEET LOVE TO IT

IF LIFE GIVES U ORANGE THINGS..THROW THEM AT JULIAN!!

WHOOSH I WANT A HAMBURGER!!!