I’m Phillip
Guitar is my life if i didn't play i would lose my mind
Poetry is my biggest outlet next to music.....i am having some serious writers block though
-R.I.P Britton I miss you...why did you kill yourself? Im getting through it slowly.
R.I.P Cazzie we love you and wished you had stayed
-R.I.P mom I loved you even when stuff was hard and even when you kicked me out I wish you had accepted that, im sorry I was mad at you. I forgive you. for everything and I thank you for everything. I love you mom
-I had a little sister, Lena-bug, who ment the world to me....she was Autistic and had a lot of medical problems but she never complained. she was the single most amazing nine year old ever. She is gone now, she died Thursday March 6th, 2008 she is gone and i don't know what is left. But I will always remember how much you hated me Lena when i tried to kill myself. for you im staying here and im getting myself straight!
-im 17
-this is my second chance at life (attempted suicide almost succeeded.) Im NOT going to mess it up.
-i smoke WAY too much (i should quit but forget that)
-im recovering anorexic (my lowest weight was 89 yay up to 124!)
-i have a charming smile im told
-i love music (hardcore and acoustic)
-i play guitar and sing
-im lived in a group home for teen guys recovering from self harm addiction but i needed to get better and im still getting there.
-i have twelve tattoos (love them all)
-i hate hospitals (been there too many times)
-i play lacrosse (goalie) for and elite team here in VA
-i ballroom dance (love it!)
-i TRY to write poetry
I have been trying to figure life out and now I know I need God's help.
I became a Christian and I am really trying. . . I know i amm FAR from prefect and thats how im supposed to be but I am trying harder and harder to live like jesus and I know he is with me in ALL my struggles and He wants me to forget my past and look to Him and to the future. Im gonna be okay
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Im back from the dead. . . . no more attempts
- Last seen on Jun 1 5:29 PM. Member since January 23, 2007.
- I'm a supertopaz delight poet for 81 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is "?".
- I am a 17 year old guy from Virginia (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm taking on this thing called life head first!.
- I am in the groups A Dirty Pretty Group, A Glitter Scarred Mascara Teared Group, All Metal, Comments for All, Cutters Noncutters and ExCutters, Drug wrecks and candy pills, Eating Disorders, Eating Disordorders Coping NOT Glorif, FREE online Counselling get help right, Gay Lesbian and Bisexuals Group, In All This Chaos We Found Safety, Music Rules My Life, Poets Against Child Abuse, Rape Victims, Raped and Abused, Theres Something Sexy About the Rain, abuse victims and survivors and all ag, cutters and bleeders, emo group
- I have 81 comments, 1 contest, 11 poems
My Poetry
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I’ve lost sleep over all these devils in my life
For far too long -
I've fallen down over and over as we've held our breath
Waiting for this emergency to finally get urgent enough -
I’ll admit now every time I hear that song
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This optimism has begun to fade with all the pain I’ve seen these days
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Bianca Melody on June 15i like you.
=]
you seem really cool.
and i want to give you a big hug. =]
love,
Bianca Melody.
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Jazzlyn on June 3I read your post on Raped and Abused and i feel for you.... i posted my own story there and it doesn't even come close to wat happened to you.... i feel bad mentioning it... it ws my fault either way... i love doing everything you do... except lacrrose, never played
i sing (everyone says i have the voice of Amy Lee), i dance salsa, merenge, bachata, and cumbia all spanish dances, i'm learning how to play guitar/piano/violin and i write about my daily life which sucks other then being on AP all the time
... i think we would make good friends cause i feel like i should get to know you, to help you with something, but i don't know wat yet
anyway message me whenever you get this message and i'll be adding you -
Zombyric Divinity on February 25You seem like a VERY interesting person and reading your page has inspired me, i know what its like to lose people you love.
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VanityAngst on February 14philly muffin! omg i have missed you
its been soooo long since i have talked to you
