(Special Thanks to Kit for making my BG. All pictures
are mine. I took and edited them. Kit made the bg.)
For Mi Haters:
Seriously people, I came here to fucking WRITE, not FIGHT.
So take your bullshit drama elsewhere and leave me
the fuck alone or I'll report you.
(Drawn by me)
You can call me Anuket ♥
Melicide, Melicious, M, Mel,
Melliimouse, Lissa, Ayame,
Aiko ♥
I LOVE Aeris ♥
She has a gentleness, compassion and understanding
I believe I wish I had.
I've recently joined this site :]
"Pick yourself up kid. It's only life."
I don't know who I am sometimes.
♠♠♠♠
I have been left, loved, betrayed, cheated on,
hurt, screamed at, unbelieved, thought to be a liar,
thought to be a victim, thought to be cruel,
relentless, manipulative, thoughtless
and childish.
I don't care if you hate me.
Because you can't break me.
♥
"I don't want to be alone. I have never wanted to be alone. I fucking hate it. I hate that I have no one to talk to, I hate that I have no one to call, I hate that I have no one to hold my hand, hug me, tell me everything is going to be all right....I hate that I have no one to share my hopes and my dreams with, I hate that I have no longer have any hopes or dreams, I hate that I have no one to tell me to hold on, that I can find them again. I hate that when I scream, and I scream bloody murder, that I am screaming into emptiness. I hate that there is no one to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn how to stop screaming."
-James Frey
(A Million Little Pieces)
I'd listen to the words he'd say
But in his voice i heard decay
The plastic face forced to portray
All the insides left cold and gray
There is a place that still remains
It eats the fear it eats the pain
The sweetest price he'll have to pay
The day the whole world went away
Sometimes you see clowns. Sometimes you see goblins sneering at you. I see nothing at all.
10-21-09
I ♥ Miyazaki movies and have
seen every one of them.
"Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy's first law of Equivalent Exchange. In those days, we really believed that to be the world's one, and only, truth."
-Alphonse Elric
(FMA)
I like music.
Music makes my
world go round.
I love different kinds of music
but mostly, anything with a good beat
or good lyrics.
Me being a poet,
I'm all about the lyrics.
♥
I love Anime.
I love reading Mangas ♥
I'm an anime junkie ^_^
This is me when I has a foods I really likes
↓
I like Art.
I'm an artist myself and
started when I was 12 by drawing anime characters.
I have over 8 sketchbooks done
and full of amateur drawings.
I don't consider myself a professional.
It's just my therapy, my world on paper,
one of my various hobbies. I appreciate most
artwork, especially really dark,
grunge artwork.
♥♠:†
I like fantasy. I love Furries. I love Anthromorphs.
I love Sci-Fi, Horror, The Macabre, Romance,
Hopelessness and Tragedy.
Tragedy is more real to me.
I have learned that happyness is hard to attain
but it all depends on the kind of person you are
and how you look at things.
One day, I hope to be pretty good at making my own
mangas, I've got so many stories in my head >.<
And one day, i hope I can draw furries properly =3
In my Furry Form, I'm a Wox =3
And that is something Anubis made up for me.
I am a kitsune/wolf hybrid and my name
is Iscis Shadowfox or just Shadowfox =3
I'm a photographer. One day, I thought I could make some sort of profession from it and I've been told numerous times that I could be a legend. But I don't always believe it. I'm not a professional. I don't like creating moments in my work, I like capturing them and basically, I like all kinds of photography. I don't really like using Photoshop or anything. I don't have it or even know how to use it. I like REAL pictures. Pictures that show the moment, the feeling, the beauty, even if it's a sad picture. One day, I hope to own my own Polaroid camera and I'm soon to add a Holga Camera to my mini camera family ♥ If you wanna see my work, you can find me here:
www.TheUndoneAngel.deviantart.com
Purification.
Rebirth.
Atonement.
I will never stop dreaming, as long as I live.
It is all I have left sometimes.
In my head, I can get away.
Sad, but true.
I've always lived in my head.
Skye:
hmm, im bored
Dunno wat to do
Mel:I'm just sitting here
being gay.
Skye: Yeah...
when don't we do that tho?
Mel: hahha
when we're asleep?
Skye: Nope, I do it in my sleep too
XD
8-22-09
A lover, a dreamer whispers from
the sky, "Once you were mine."
We are predators.
Creatures of the underworld.
Nothing lingers on in silence.
Kagetoki Kariya: Only hope can give rise to the emotion we call despair. But it is nearly impossible for a man to try to live without hope, so I guess that leaves Man no choice but to walk around with despair as his companion.
Sara: Inside of you looms a simmering storm of hatred and rage, but perhaps what I'm actually sensing is sadness. It's as if you've never once been loved by anyone; it's as if you're just like me.
Pain Is Strength.
Trust Your Struggle.
Not all things last. Memories live on forever, feelings die, times pass. People change. All we have are words, memories, not even a faint smell. We betray ourselves, all that we stand for, we betray our gods, everything that we believe in. There are days that I wake up and pretend it was all but a dream. There are days when I sulk in the dank sewer of memory. I am the keeper of dreams, looking up to the sky and down to the pits of Hell. There's not much to believe in, but still, I stand guard at the gate of dreams.
I love snow.
I hate sleet.
I like rivers and lakes.
Don't really swim in oceans.
I'm afraid of the waves and
how powerful they are,
as well as sharks, octopi,
and scary water thingies o.o
I'm better at taking black and white pictures than
colored. I seem to capture more.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.
"It's better to burn out then to fade away."
-Kurt Cobain-
I love, respect, idolize, adore and look up to this man ♥
In a way, he's like Jesus to me.
He died for his own sins.
I'm not the best I've been.
But I'm okay and I'm working
on staying better and getting to
pretty damn good in terms of
how I'm feeling.
I have a wonderful boyfriend who
is helping me along and being supportive.
And he doesn't bs me by proposing to me right away
or anything along those lines. He respects my space,
gives me encouragement and support and nurtures me.
He's wonderful ♥
I've been through a lot of drama
and bs on here and quite frankly I'm sick of it,
so yes, to you my wonderful enemies,
I say, FUCK OFF and if you try to fuck around
with me via text or on here, I will get you banned
from being on here and I will have your number
blocked. SO STOP.
But on a side note, I have some wonderful
family on here that I'd love to put up. I love you all
and think you guys are just fucking fantastic ♥
A-Sky-Lark: My Twin
She's my other half. I love her to pieces
and as much as we fight, we always come back together.
I've apologized to her more ways than I can count
and I've also been quite a bitch to her when she didn't deserve
it but at least, I'm big enough to admit that. I'm ashamed of how I act
with her sometimes, and how I let us "end" when I'm angry. She is the
ONE person who never deserves it and shouldn't ever deserve it. I love you
Skye, besties for 3 years and that won't ever change.
Anubis: My jackal, my best friend, my love. I love you to pieces
and I thank you for being there for me and loving me as much as you do.
When I had Bronchitis, you were the ONE person who was there
for me and was genuinely worried about me. I thank you for that, for caring,
for loving me, for being there and for asking for nothing more than just to be there for me and to listen to me. You understand me and appreciate who I am, even the BAD. I'm happy you're in my life and I hope you'll always be ♥
Peter Griffin: My Bro Bro. I met him through my ex, Luke. I love him to pieces and he is one hell of a guy. He's the best older brother a sister could ask for. He's my best friend, looks out for me, would rip the head off of anyone who fucks with me and he's always there. David is amazing and a wonderful friend, guy, person and spirit. I'm happy we met and again, I hope you'll always be a part of my life. You're awesome david. I love you ♥
Clear-Cut Crystal: My mistress, my Cici. I love you to pieces and would destroy whoever hurt you. I met her again, through Luke and we've been close friends since. No matter what I love her, she's sweet, open minded, down to earth and just someone you'd like to have in your life. I love it when she leaves me voicemails on my phone calling me Lissa. It makes my day and lightens my heart. I love you cici ♥
Najii: I just met her but she's pretty fucking awesome thus far and I hope we can be best friends. This girls got talent beyond talent and I think she's fucking fantastic. Stay cool Najii ♥
whiterabbit: My Yang. I love her to death. Seriously, she was one of the first people I met on this site when I joined and has remained my best friend since. You are always there for me, through the good and bad and I'm always scared I'm gonna lose you cause you mean so much to me. Through the drugs, the alchohol, the boys and everything else, we've always been there for each other. You're my bunny, my white rabbit and I fucking love you. You're my sister, my girlfriend (LOL) and my wonderful most amazingest best friend. Never leave, there'd be a void inside of me if you did ♥ I love you forever Steph.
x-nocturnia-x: I met her years ago with another screen name on AP but from the minute I met her, she interested me. She's smart, beautiful, caring and genuinely a beautiful person to me. I thank you Sinead for being there and for listening and being patient with me. You calmed my anger, broke down what i thought and saw as lies and hypocricy and explained it to me. Thank you. You opened my eyes, helped me heal my heart and you are a wonderful friend, and beyond that. I love you, you are gorgeous ♥
--
I stand on a plateu, feeling different, a bit like I was in a coma and I just woke up. Feels like years have passed when it's only been weeks. I've gotten fed up with people and arguing and pursuit. I want them to stop, stop their bullshit, stop their nit picking and their arguing. I never said I was a saint or that I was god. I never said I was the devil either. I can be your worst nightmare or you favorite dream. I don't really care either way. I'm much like a shinigami and I long for my scythe. I'd love to cut a few peoples' heads off and send them to the hell they believe in. I'm sick of the way the world is and how so many people walk around with their eyes off in the distance staringoff at nothing. Is this all we are? Soulless people without a purpose? We are always fighting, killing, destroying. Have we established nothing for ourselves? You can try to break me, try to destroy me. I've been in Hell before and that's fine by me, but remember, you're not better than me and you never will be. So all you can do is talk and if you'd like to hurt me, you'll have to get through the law and you'll have to get through my sword. You wanna go down, we'll go down together, you wanna fight, well from this day on, I'm gonna ignore you because you are like a petty little child having a temper tantrum cause your mommy won't pay attention to you. To my enemies I say, FUCK YOU, I am Better than you and yes, I have faults, I'm fucking human, as much as I hate being human. And I'm just as fucked up as the next person but I'd like to believe my heart is better than what you perceive it to be. Yes I have masks but at given times with certain people, I take them off, show who I am. I'm not hiding anymore. I have nothing to be afraid of. And if you think you're something I should fear , then to you, I laugh. You can't break me. You can't break the girl who thinks nothing of you.
11-21-09
(Taken and edited by me)
That mouse is very much how I feel right now.
A Woman I admire, Love && Respect ♥
She is Gorgeous ♥
Marilyn Monroe ♥
I ♥ Wonder Woman.
- Last seen right now. Member since April 12.
- I'm a onyx dragon poet for 839 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is "apathetic".
- I am a 20 year old woman from Missouri (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm practicing my skills.
- Visit my homepage at The Endless darling.
- I support the site as a gold member
- Contact me on
- Email:
- Yahoo Messenger: somewhere_out_of_orbit@yahoo.com
- MSN Messenger: xbeautifulxmemoryx@hotmail.com
- I am in the groups Beauty Seekers, CB Vets, Captivate, Children of Japan, Drag kings and Lesbian Bois of AP, Spydurs Family
- I have 839 comments, 14 columns, 567 poems, 2 stories, 96 journals
My Lists
- American Tragedies
- Cassie ♥
- Grimm Little Faerytales
- Kirsten
- Luke
- Michael
- Patrick
- Skyekats' Poetry
- Skyekat
- Stories
- The Denizens of Hell
- Victor
- whiterabbit.
Poems I'm focused on
-
is there anymore room in your heart to love Mel?
you said goodbye because you had to,125 lines, 6 comments, August 10
My Poetry
-
You don't promise me anything but it's like you're healing my heart. Not with lust but with patience and love. You kissed my forehead and you were kind, all the while watching me.48 lines, December 4
-
You stretch out at my fingertips,
clawing at my dreams;3 lines, 1 comment, December 1
My Stories
-
Morgan sharpened her knife by the window as she gazed outside at city streets and city lights.1
1671 lines, 3 comments, June 30. In 600-2000 words -
“All things end.” Anna tells herself. The Greyhound pulls away and she’s somewhere in the middle of Ohio, a little more than halfway home. It wasn’t her stop but, it didn’t matter anymore, life was about choices and she made1841 lines, June 2. In 600-2000 words
My other items
1 - 3 of 14
Show all
- Column: Daily Streams Of Consciousness at allpoetry
- Column: Food Diary =3 at allpoetry
- Column: Me Crying. at allpoetry
From A Depressive Episode in the summer time.
I wanted to show you that there is beauty in pain.
My journal entries
1 - 3 of 96
Show all
-
I am Wiccan. 1 I was born and raised. 2 My dads side of the family 3 is Catholic. 4 5 I've been to church, 6 the only thing I found special about it 7 was the stained glass and the architecture.December 3, 1,500 words. → 1 comment, Add one?
Guest Book
1 - 4 of 182
Show all
-
Anubis on December 6I promised you. I'm not going anywhere.
-
Vacancy. on December 6I'm going to make it right now.
-
Vacancy. on December 6I will!!
-
kommerzielles Odland on December 4oi, check it, share it!!!
http://allpoetry.com/column/show/2357623
cheers.
Rembrandt.
