Ashwe91043• Show poetry

My Life has made a major U turn. The guy i was in love with broke my heart. i have honestly never cried so hard... a few weeks later he called me and told me he still loved me and he missed me alot and he realized that no other girl he goes out with wil be me... that was bull shit and i was stupid to believe him. he stood me up three times... before i was like fuck it.
Knowing him though he'll be calling me in a few weeks begging me back.

There's another guy that likes me... i really don't know what to think about him... i am going to be very cautious about my emotions and guard my heart. What sucks is that the next guy who really likes me is going to have a hard time because it's going to be a long time before i fall in love again... i don't have much of a heart left anymore... I have to admit i am still in love with drew but i really don't think i would ever take him back... i told him he had three days to make things right but... like he said to me... "You know ashley i guess you are stupid if i have already broken up with you twice why wouldn't i do it again." what a "F"ing bastard!

I have a two new friends now... Jennifer and Amy... they are my life... them and Cymone and Camie... those are my girls... i have different realtionships w/ camie and and monie then i do with jennifer and amy... but i love them just the same... amy and jennifer and my fat heffers as we call ourselves. and camie is just my Edgar loving bitch and monie is the black american princess who loves to say "forget you" which is worse then "fuck you" in her book.

I am pretty happy... although my life has come to a huge bump in the road... i am losing weight and i am learning to respect myself... i don't need drew... i don't need someone who thinks i'm fat and that makes me feel like shit all the time... i miss his stupidity though.


One thing i want to do is thank Amy, Chelsea, and Nikki for inspiring me and encouraging me to write! I love you guys! And you guys will always be in my heart!!!

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They are amazing!!!!!!!!!!!


Life is Good
Life is Shit
Let's eat food
Smell my arm pit
      ~Amanda Janzen


In memory of my mother

Life is precious this I know
as I look down upon you there below.

I watch you struggle with feelings deep,
I watch you toss and turn in sleep.
I see you cry while all alone.
I see them turn your heart to stone.
I know you wonder why I'm not here.
I know that things are not real clear.

The answers aren't that far away,
of what happened on that awful day.
Funny how time warps the story,
and the truth, this time,has found no glory.

In life and death I've loved you dearly.
Your reflection is ME when you see clearly.

As you grow you will feel the pain,
another victim like those once slain.

When someone dies others try to blame,
to help to ease the burden of shame.

That's all insignificant now you see,
What's important is, you and me.

I love you with all my heart
even though we're far apart.

I'm with you when your heart's aglow
I'm with you when your feeling low.

I watch, I see, I know, *I'm with you.



Some of my Favorite bands are

System of A down
Manson
Kittie      
Perfect Circle
Leven
Evenescence
Cranberries
Cradle Of Faith
Deftones
Slipknot(new stuff)
Powder
Killers
Lil Jon... don't ask
modest mouse
Ty Heflin.... I'll buy you a tooth brush 99 cents at wal mart... lets go!





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