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The poet formaly known as soft-secrets.



Deep in the mist of AllPoetry, is a young poet by the name of AcidAngel. Her name is Holly, and she is 13 years old. A firey saggitarious, she has rising tempers, and is very passionite. This is the story of that girl.. me.


Maschosim. If that's how you spell it. I used to be it. I hurt myself. With the help from Nick, and Kenneth, who is now my EX, helped me stop. I wish I didn't. It was fun. But I can't start back up.

I am a model. Despite what people say, I am not as people say " a prep " I just model and act because I like to do it, and it makes me confident. I am highly interested in music, (mostly emo and punk ) and I am a strong Christian girl who takes her faith seriously.

Don't take me for what you think I am, for what you belive I am is the farthest from what I truly am. If you belive you know what and who I am, you most likely are wrong, but I do not discourage you to tell me what you belive about me, using the contact info at the bottom of this page.

Most people call me " interesting " but I do not belive I am. I am me, and that is all I can be. Do not stereotype me, I do not like that. For if you stereotype me, then you judge me. And I am not a fan of judging.

Most people ask why I used to be suicidal, and I used to hurt myself. It started from molestment, and then everything set me off. Yes, I know, people hae had worse done to them, but it still is trmatizing. It happened everyday for about two months.. by a person my parents wanted me to date...

I am a harsh girl and commenter. Please be harsh on me. Tell me if you don't like my depressing works, and why. It will make me feel better... please...










I am who I am, there is no denying that.






Scotty doesn't know... SHHH













" Life's a journey, where will yours take you? " - Me.

" You ripped my heart out, now you want it back? "

" You never understand the pain I go through to make you happy. "

" Life's hard, wear a helment. "

" Take my heart, but please don't break it, or my world will fall apart. "- Charlie

" You know, I liked you better when you were fat. You weren't always worring about what guys thought of you. " - Charlie

" You know I'll always love you. " - Charlie.

" I hate the fact that I hate you."

" Just shut up! I'll never be fine, stop pretending I am! Just leave me alone! "

" Sup Jim West? " - Zach

" Sup Red? " - me to Zach....( lol )

" I can feel it, but the question is, can he? "

" I think I'll draw a picture, a picture with a twist. I'll draw it with a raxor, I'll draw it on my wrist. "

" When someone whith multiple personalities threatens to kill themself, is that considered a hostige situation? "

" Rubber knife.....is that on oxymoron?!?! "

" Boys ae like lava lamps, fun to look at but not very bright! "

" So you'll know how it feels to be alone and not believe. " - Yellowcard

" I'm not crazy....it's a girl thing! "

" * looks around * Me? Crazy...No! Oh my! The men in white coats again? NO!!!!!!"

" Wrong. In so many ways. "

" My karma ran over my dogma. "

" Don't play with me...."

" I don't bite.....hard. "

" I think today I'll go punk-rock. Tomorrow I'll do preppy-angel. " - me...alot.

" Wanna know what I honestly think? I don't care! " - Sarah

" Just keep swimming swimming swimming...."

" I'll shall you Squishy and you shall be my Squishy. Come here little Squishy. OW! Bad Squishy! "

" The Christmas cheer ,a prostitute with no frown, Santa its Pimp, december's the street, rudolph and blitzen, also known as abercrombie and fitch. " - imabignerd

" What's the matter Mr. Grumpy Gills? "

" Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry? "

" Aww....you guys made me ink! "

" See this tentcle? It's actually shorter than all my other tentecles, but you can't really tell. "

" Fish are friends, not food. "

" I am PIMPNASTY! " ( me, while I was wearing my duct tape flip flops, duct tape hat, carring my duct tape purse, which help my duct tape wallet. )

" You look like a hooker. " - Paul. " Is that a bad thing? " - Me. " No. " -Paul.

" Yeah whaterver you hippy. " Kyle to me.

" MARCUS IS THE PIMP MASTER GENERAL! "

" I've missed my mark, put it off, now the consquenses I must face. "

" My last bullet, come on push me, make me pull it! "

" I want one moment in the sun just so you'd notice me. "

" Most guys are just looking for some coochie. Truth is Holly, I'm just looking for a good relationship. Repeat that to anyone I'll kill you. " ~ Guy

" be happy with the nickname i gave you! at least it wasnt something bad! i didnt give you anything bad cause i thought you were cool! " ~ Tony


" You listen to the ramones.. so you are cool! " ~ The Chelsea ( hope I got that right! ) aka witchyflyer

"Love is like a burning building; if you try to save someone from it, you'll get caught yourself. " ~ ME!

"Just because I'm on a diet[have a girlfried] doesn't mean I can't look at the menu[check out other girls]." ~Nick Singleton




Grey Matter

Bite the tongue to live with what you've done
It's so good
It's so good
Lie to myself while I lie with myself
It's Monday and it's raining
It's Sunday in the sun
It's so good, but...
Would it be so bad if you were to pretend that you were so happy?
Keep it to yourself
Don't let the secret go
If you were so willing, but...

Let's pray for the suicide
And all these pictures falling down around me
I've surrounded myself with all I have inside

Would I bite my tongue and live with what you've done?
Just continue sleeping?
Selfishly consumed with everything you've wrought
There's nothing I can do, but...

Let's pray for the suicide
And all these pictures falling down
One wish full, step to the side
And please just let me know

"Are you happy? I'll decide."
"These stories are so old, how they match your eyes."
But...

Let's pray for the suicide
And all these pictures falling down
One wish full, step to the side
And pick these pictures from the ground that surround me

~ Finch



Sic Transit Gloria....Glory Fades

Keep the noise low.
She doesn't wanna blow it.
Shaking head to toe
while your left hand does "the show me around."
Quickens your heartbeat.
It beats me straight into the ground.

You don't recover from a night like this.
A victim, still lying in bed, completely motionless.
A hand moves in the dark to a zipper.
Hear a boy bracing tight against sheets
barely whisper, "This is so messed up."

Upon arrival the guests had all stared.
Dripping wet and clearly depressed,
he'd headed straight for the stairs.
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch,
unprepared for a life full of lies and failing relationships.

(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)

He keeps his hands low.
He doesn't wanna blow it.
He's wet from head to toe and
his eyes give her the up and the down.
His stomach turns and he thinks of throwing up.
But the body on the bed beckons forward
and he starts growing up.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth.
He's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like.

He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her,
but she's probably only looking for...

(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)

So much more than he could ever give.
A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end
and for the aching in his guts to subside.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

~ Brand New ( BEST SONG EVER! )


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Blitzkrieg Bop (Ramones)
Hey ho let's go-
They're forming in a straight line
They're going through a tight wind
The kids are losing their minds
The Blitzkrieg Bop
They're piling in the back seat
They're generation steam heat
Pulsating to the back beat
The Blitzkrieg Bop
Hey ho let's go
Shoot'em in the back now
What they want, I don't know
They're all reved up and ready to go.

Do You Remember Rock 'N' Roll Radio? (Ramones)

Do you remember Hullabaloo,
Upbeat, Shindig and Ed Sullivan too?
Do you remember rock 'n' roll radio?
Do you remember rock 'n' roll radio?

Do you remember Murray the K,
Alan Freed, and high energy?
It's the end of the 70's
It's the end of the century

Do you remember lying in bed
With your covers pulled up over your head?
Radio playin' so no one can see
We need change, we need it fast

Before rock's just part of the past
'Cause lately it all sounds the same to me
Oh, oh

Will you remember Jerry Lee, John Lennon, T. Rex and Ol' Moulty?
It's the end of the 70's
It's the end of the century.

I Wanna Be Sedated (Ramones)

Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go
I wanna be sedated
Nothing to do
Nowhere to go
I Wanna be sedated
Just get me to the airport
And put me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane
I can't control my fingers
I can't control my brain
Oh no oh no
Just put me in a wheelchair
And get me to the show
Hurry hurry hurry before I go loco
I can't control my fingers
I can't control my toes
Oh no oh no



Sheena Is A Punk Rocker (Ramones)

Well the kids are all hopped up and ready to go
They're ready to go now
They got their surfboards
And they're going to the Discotheque Au Go Go
But she just couldn't stay
She had to break away
Well New York City really has it all
Oh yeah, oh yeah.

Sheena is a punk rocker
Sheena is a punk rocker
Sheena is a punk rocker now.
She's a punk punk, a punk rocker
Punk punk, a punk rocker
Punk punk, a punk rocker.


53rd & 3rd (Ramones)

If you think you can, well come on man
I was a Green Beret in Viet Nam
No more of your fairy stories
'Cause I got my other worries.
53rd and 3rd
Standing on the street
53rd and 3rd
I'm tryin' to turn a trick
53rd and 3rd
You're the one they never pick
53rd and 3rd
Don't make you feel sick ?
Then I took out my razor blade
Then I did what God forbade
Now the cops are after me
But I proved that I'm no sissy.



Okay.. I think it's been established that I like The Ramones.







Ugh.. I guess since I'm becoming one of those authors with trophies.. ( * GASP *  )I might wanan do a list to tell you which ones won.

Gold- Black Morphine
Bronze- A Moment





Thank you for reading my little slice of me. If I offended you,.... oh well.







Screw people who don't like me, who think I'm fat. Screw people in general. (no pun intended)












Who are you to judge me? To say what I'm suppossed to be? You look it to my eyes and call me pretty, but I'll tell you something. My eyes are fake. Cloudy green or blue-jean blue, whatever the color, they're fake to you. I'm not beautiful. You can look at me and tell. I'm unique, that's it. Not pretty, not beautiful, not " hot ", I am ugly. Inside and out. I am a tragedy. But, you gotta love me. I can admit my faults, admit when I'm wrong. I am strong. And you are wrong, fucked and overrated. I loose myself in your smile, the warmth of it, the fakeness. You hardly ever smile, you've been hurt too many times.
You look into my eyes and call me pretty. Let me tell you something. My eyes are fake.








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