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Hi Please Get to know me before you judge me and if you don't wanna get to know me thats your problem. Comment my poems read my page please.
-Gabriella

I am 13
I have green eyes
Dark Brown hair
I am 5'2
I weigh.. about 120
I am athletic
I am Straight
I am Funsized
I am Loved
I am also Hated
I am a virgin
I am a kissing virgin too XD
Ummm Ya Thats me
I have friends lots of em
I live my life getting in a lot of trouble
And I live my life pretending to be happy because happiness needs to be earned
And thats it for now.


I'll draw you a picture,
But im gonna draw it with a twist,
Im gonna draw it with a knife,
And i'll draw it on my wrist.


"It's fun to play with guns and knives, And be there just to risk my life, To put just myself in danger, With a lethal unfamiliar stranger. I couldn't care less, With the way I dress, Or the way I look, But I do with my life that you took. You say my head is wrong, And that my heart is badly torn, You don't know how wrong you are, I just want to go so far. Just so far away from them, And always be able to defend, Myself so that I don't get beated, So badly and so differently treated." - Guns and Knives Poem

When I run away from you... - Chase me

When I pout my lips... - Kiss me

When I kick and punch... - Hold me tight

When I am silent... - I'm thinking of how to say I love you


When I ignore you... - I want all your attention

When I pull away... - Grab me by the waist and never let go

When you see me at my worst... - Tell me I'm beautiful

When I scream at you... - Tell me you love me and mean it

When you see me walking... -Sneak up behind me, grab me, and give me a kiss

When I'm scared... -Hold me and tell me everything's okay, 'cause I'm with you






I am not the kind of girl Who Takes a hit and walks away I am the kind of girl who will call the person names and kick her ass.. I may seem sweet But I am Heartless at Times.







I want to stand in the rain with you.
Never leaving your side
Letting us get soaking wet
Kissing Passionatley
Holding eachother
Keeping eachother warm..
So C'mon... Bring on the rain more and more.









Never, Say "I love You"
Never,Talk about feelings If there not really there.
Never,Hold my hand if your gonna break my heart.
Never,say you are going to and Never start.
Never, look into my eyes if all you do Is lie.
Never,say Bye if you really mean GoodBye.
If you really mean forever then you will try
Never, say forever cause it makes me cry.






I'm not depressed. . I'm just always sad.
I'm not crying . . . My eyes are just full of tears.
I’m not living . . . I just keep breathing.
I'm not stupid . . . I just don’t get it.
I’m not trying . . . I’ve already given up.
I'm not weird . . . I'm just different.
I'm not a rebel . . . I just don’t take orders.
I’m not a screw up . . . I just make mistakes.
I'm not emotional . . . I just have a lot of feelings.
I'm not immature . . . I’m just growing up.
I'm not a quitter . . . I just stop and re-think.
I'm not laughing . . . I need to smile first. I
'm not impulsive . . . I just act before I think.
I'm not obsessed . . . I’m just in love.
I'm not perfect . . . I don’t want to be.
I'm not ignoring . . . I just choose not to listen.
I'm not a gossip . . . I have my own life.
I'm not pessimistic . . . I just don’t get my hopes up.
I'm not impatient . . . I just don’t like to wait.
I'm not happy . . . I do have sparks of joy.
I'm not tough . . . I just don’t take crap.
I'm not clingy . . . I just want to be held.
I'm not opinionated . . . I just voice what I think.
I'm not questioning . . . I just have my doubts.


!!!CUTTING WARNING LABEL!!!

Before you make that first cut, remember--

You will find the blood and pain release addictive.

Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren't deep and will heal easily--

They will get deeper.

They will scar.

They will take sometimes months to heal.

And years for the scars to fade.

If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again.

It will spread when you run out of skin.

Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame.

Even if you are the most honest person ever to live-- You will find yourself lying to the people you love.

You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison.

You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched.

Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don't know how bad it will be.

Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100.

Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting--

Cutting and covering up cutting.

And just wait till that first time you cut "too deep."

And you freak out because the blood won't stop...

And you are gasping...

And you feel yourself shaking all over.

You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but

you can`t tell anyone.

So you sit there alone...

Praying it will be okay--

Swearing you'll never let it go this far again...

But you will, and further....

Don't worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the ER.

And the better you get at treating your cuts,

The deeper they get.

You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find youself spending 20, 30, or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy.

You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat everytime you go to the counter to ring up your order. Butterfly strips--

3 or 4 different kinds of dressings...

Betadine...

Antibiotic cream...

Medical tape...

Scar reducers...

You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will just move and noone will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things.

And at the same time secretly hope someone will notice--

Someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same supplies.

Someone who understands--

But of course that never happens.

Medical supplies won't be the only thing you spend all your money on.

Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe--

Longsleeve shirts in summer colors, bracelets, wristbands, boots...

The list goes on and on.

You will start looking at everyone in a different way.

Scanning their bodies for any signs of SI.

Just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you

don't feel so terribly alone.

You wont even think about it,

As your eyes scan their wrists arms.

Hoping, just hoping they will be like you.

But they are not.

You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone.

You will start doing a lot of things alone.

You will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels.

You will always be cleaning up the blood.

Scrubbing your bathroom floor.

Wiping the blood off your keyboard.

You won't be able to make it through a day without cutting.

Next thing you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergencies.

When you get really desperate,

Anything will be a cutting tool...

Scissors...a car key...a needle...a paperclip...even a pen.

Doesn't matter what it is if you need to cut bad enough you will find something.

Say goodbye to things you took for granted.

Like wearing shorts or sandals...pedicures...sleeveless tops.

A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you.

Get ready to itch.

Because you will itch and itch.

So much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease.

You will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully.

You will dream about cutting.

You will dream about being exposed.

It will haunt you day and night and take over your life.

You will wish you never made that first cut because while you absolutely hate cutting--

At the same time you love it and can not live without it...




I'm sorry...........
Im sorry if I don't meet your standards
I'm sorry if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs
I'm sorry if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl".
I'm sorry if I'm not tanned enough for you
I'm sorry if I'm not a playboy model.
I'm sorry if I'm weird.
I'm sorry that I write about you every day.
I'm sorry if i don't have a dream body that turns you on.
I'm sorry if im not tall enough.
I'm sorry if I don't have sex with you on the first date.
I'm sorry if I'm annoying.
I'm sorry if my hair is not long enough.
I'm sorry that im different from those other girls.
I'm sorry i won't hang all over you, and be a complete tramp to make you happy.
I'm sorry that I actually care about you and actually call to see how you're doing.

But most of all..............
I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.


I'm the girl who is wearing a fake smile.
the girl who seems so put together but is really falling apart.
the girl who will make you smile even if i cant smile.
the girl who wants to be saved from myself.
I hide my feelings and my pain...
i dont try to get attention so people call me shy.
I used to be a very happy person.
then tons of people, and my so called freinds lied to me
and betrayed me. I gots a broken heart,
so it doesnt make it any better.
I have given up at trying to make people like me,
so i have shut myself out from everyone else.
i cant really trust anyone, ive been lied to too many times.


HATE EMO?

READ THIS:

Isn't it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a a mini with a t-shirt that barely cover anything?

Isn't it funny you can change your music taste to impress a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style, you give her a mouthful?

Isn't it funny that a guy can get away with being a gangsta but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone

Are you laughing?

Isn't it funny an emo can be quiet all through the week but gets more from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity?

Isn't it funny that you don't mind your friends drinking, smoking but the minute someone mentions emo music you can give them a lecture on melodramatic teenage outcasts?

I'm not laughing

Its so funny that you and your friends can make a girl's life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.

Isn't it funny that you can call emos, punks, goths the retards but still manage to get through your day without an inch of guilt in your heart.

HOW YOU CAN CALL A GIRL A POSER, HOW CAN YOU SAY "YOUR NOT EMO" OR "ATTENTION SEEKER" WITHOUT SPENDING A SECOND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THERE ARE CUTS ON HER WRISTS AND WHY SHE SPENDS HER LUNCHTIMES CRYING INSTEAD OR LAUGHING WITH HER FRIENDS

keep on laughing


Isn't it funny you can say and do all this without any idea of what is going on in this persons life without knowing her situation with her friends or her family or her LIFE




Are You still laughing?



Don't Judge people by how they look what they wear or what they do to them selves you don't know every little thing about them they could be really cool right now if you disagree with The hate emo thing then your an ass.









things to do in an elevator :-

1) When there’s only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder and then pretend it wasn’t you.
2) Push the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.
3) Ask if you can push the button for other people, but push the wrong ones.
4) Call the Psychic Hotline from your cell phone and ask if they know what floor your on.
5) Hold the doors open and say your waiting for a friend. After a while, let the doors close, and say, “Hi Chinel. How’s your day been?”
6) Drop a pen and wait until someone goes to pick it up, then scream, “That’s mine!”
7) Bring a camera and take pictures of everyone in the elevator while saying work it girl! And telling them to pose.
8)Move your desk into the elevator and whenever anyone gets on, ask if they have an apointment
9) Lay down the twister mat and ask people if they would like to play.
10) Leave a box in the cornerwith a wind up clock in it, and when someone gets on, ask them if they can hear ticking.
11) Pretend you are a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the passengers.
12) Ask, “Did you feel that?”
13) Stand really close to someone, sniffing them occasionally.
14) When the doors close, announce to the others, “It’s okay, don’t panic, they open again!”
15) Swat at flies that don’t exist.
16) Tell people that you can see their aura.
17) Call out, “Group Hug!” and then enforce it.
18) Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering, “Shut up, all of you, just shut up!”
19) Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside, ask, “Got enough air in there?”
20) Stand silently and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off
21) Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce in horror, “Your one of THEM!” and back away slowly.
22) Wear a puppet on your hand and use it to talk to the other passengers
23) Listen to the elevator walls with your stethoscope.
24) Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.
25) Stare, grinning at another passenger for a while, then announce, “I have new socks on”.
26) Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers, “This is MY personal space”