XxLoverOfDarknessxX• Show poetry

You wanna know who I am? Well, I'm what people would call a drama queen, who drives her friends crazy about alot of things! I have had my heart trampled on by many boys in the course of three years. I am what people would call a klutz because of how much I find myself falling down in a week. I have many friends who make me laugh and who I can tell all my secrets to and know that they won't blab, unlike some......
My favorite quotes are probably ones that I hear every once in a while: "All's fair in love and war," and "If you love something you let it go, and if it comes back to you it was meant to be." I am an absolute big fan of Stephenie Meyer and her Twilight Series, ask anyone who knows me and they would tell you so. I enjoy reading books, going on the computer, hanging out with my friends, writing, watching tv, listening to music, and going to movies in my spare time. Two of my favorite TV Shows on TV are Secret Life of the American Teenager, as well as Hell's Kitchen.
There are many places in the world today that I would love to visit, one of them being Paris to see the sights, or even Italy, to see their ruins in Venice. I've been to alot of places in the US, whether for a vacation, or a family gathering, or even a celebration of a birthday or big accomplishment. One big lesson that I have learned would be "be careful what you wish for, because you might just get it."
.*.♥.*.♥~A true friend can see the suffering in your eyes, while everyone else can just see the smile on your face~♥~.*.♥.*.♥~ You know you would keep loving someone no matter what, even if they don't love you back, because you love them. .*.♥.*.♥~
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My Favorite Bands:

Go:Audio
V Factory
Nickelback
Fall Out Boy
Nick Lachey
Chris Daughtry
Seether
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
David Cook
Hinder
Maroon 5
Lady GaGa
Taylor Swift
Linkin Park
Soulja Boy Tell 'Em
Jesse McCartney
Simple Plan
Framing Hanley
Flo Rida
Eminem
3 Days Grace
Black Eyed Peas
All American Rejects
Shinedown
Paramore
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when i say im fine... this is wat i mean:

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I'm~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~F ucked up~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I nsecure~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~N eurotic~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~E motional~~~~~~
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You'll never understand why I hurt so much
because you're not the one who is crying,
you're not the one who is left behind,
you're not the one who loved too much,
and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone...
Over the time you've been gone, I've learned not to love.
I lay there at night, trying to fall asleep
But each time I close my eyes
Memories of you flash through my mind
But then I open my eyes
and welcome myself back to reality
Because I know now, you and I weren't ever
really meant to be.
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♥_♥_♥___♥_♥_ Put this
♥___♥_♥___♥ heart
_♥___♥___♥_ on your
__♥_____♥__ page if
___♥___♥___ you love
____♥_♥____ someone
_____♥_____ very much
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╔╗╔═╦╗ Put this on your page
║╚╣║║╚╗ if you love to laugh!
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~*~12 Ways To Get To A Girls Heart~*~
1. Hugs her from behind.
2. Hold her hand when ya'll walk next to each other.
3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
4. Cuddle with her.
5. Don't force her to do ANYTHING!
6. Write little notes.
7. Compliment her.
8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
9. Say I love you.....and MEAN IT!
10. Brush the hair out of her eyes
11. Comfort her when she cries.
12. Love her with all your heart
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The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them.

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.

Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone.

Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet.

There will always be faces you can never look at without emotion and there are names you can never hear spoken without the same old feelings returning. Just when you think you can move on, you'll remember all the reasons why you held on so long.

The truth of the matter is, I still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off with out you, a part of me just won't let go.

You know you love someone when the mere thought of losing them brings you to tears.

I don't know which is worse, keeping your love for someone a secret or telling them and risk being rejected.

What do you do when the only person who can stop your tears is the one making you cry?

I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear, I miss hearing your crazy but cool stories, and above all these... I just miss you!

You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?

I think it's time I let you go... and that is hard to do because part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life.

Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.

You asked me what was wrong, I smiled and said nothing. When you turned around and a tear came down, I whispered to myself... everything is.

I've convinced everyone else that I don't like you and that I don't love you anymore. Now all I need to do is convince myself.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back.

Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore.

I sit here and wonder if you'll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you.

It's really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go but its even more painful to ask someone to stay if they never wanted to.

You really know you love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means that you are not a part of it.

Good-bye is only truly painful if you know you'll never say hello again.

I'd rather be your girlfriend than just your friend, but I'd rather be your friend than your nobody.

And even though you lied, and even though you pretended to care I can't seem to get you out of my mind and even though it seems like I should be over you, with every tear that falls, it reminds me of how much I am still in love with you.

Missing you isn't the problem, it's wondering if you'll ever come back that's killing me.

It's YOU. You mean everything to me... you are the first thought in my head in the morning when I wake up; my last thought before I go to bed. You smile at me in my dreams... when you are sad, I feel sad, and when I see your true smile, I feel incredible, like there is no other thing around and all I can see is you.

You're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart, you're the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you and I don't know why.

I've been laying here all night, listening to the rain. Talking to my heart and trying to explain. Why sometimes I catch myself wondering what might have been. Yes I do think about you, every now and then.

A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

It’s quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is actually your weakness.

Sometimes if you love someone so much, it will actually hurt more.
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*TO EVERY GIRL

To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart out there again, because she has been HURT too many times.
To every girl who wants to be called beautiful, not hot.
To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect present for you.
To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.
To every girl who would just once like to be treated like a princess.
To every girl that just wants to hold hands.
To every girl that kisses him with meaning.
TO EVERY GIRL WHO JUST WISHES HE CARED MORE.
To every girl who just wants him to call.
To every girl who lies awake at night thinking about him.
To every girl that just wants to cuddle.
TO EVERY GIRL WHO SHOWS HOW MUCH SHE CARES BUT GETS NOTHING BACK.
To every girl that ever thought "Maybe this one could be the one."
To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way.
To every girl that doesn't want a guy who just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.
TO EVERY GIRL WHO WANTS WORDS BACKED UP WITH ACTIONS.
TO EVERY girl that FELL for ALL the LIES ONLY TO FIND THEMSELVES ALONE in the END.
To every girl that gave her heart away to have it shoved back in her face.
To every girl that has faith that "tomorrow will be a better day."

*Post This^^^^^^^ On Your Page If You ARE the "Girl"
For Guys Post it if you want to find a girl like that and if you have then post it and Put at last line "I Love a Girl Like That"
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SIX SIGNS YOU'RE FALLING FOR SOMEONE
If the answer to all of these are that person...paste this on your profile

1. - as soon as you get online-whose name do you look at first?

2. - when you hear your phone ringing-who do u hope is calling?

3. - when a love song comes on the radio-who's face comes to your mind?

4. - who's name makes your heart skip a beat every time you hear it?

5. - who is it that you always find yourself thinking about-wondering if they're thinking about you?

6. - the whole time you were reading this bulletin, there was only 1 person on your mind...
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When I run away from you...
- Chase me

When I pout my lips...
- Kiss me

When I kick and punch...
- Hold me tight

When I am silent...
- I'm thinking of how to say I love you

When I ignore you...
- I want all your attention

When I pull away...
- Grab me by the waist and never let go

When you see me at my worst...
- Tell me I'm beautiful

When I scream at you...
- Tell me you love me and mean it

When you see me walking...
-Sneak up behind me, grab me, and give me a kiss

When I'm scared...
-Hold me and tell me everything's okay, 'cause I'm with you
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~Something really cute and true~
When she walks away from you mad [ Follow her ]
When she stares at your mouth [ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you [ Grab her and don't let go ]
When she's quiet [ Ask her whats wrong ]
When she pulls away [ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst [ Tell her she's still beautiful ]
When you see her crying [Just hold her and don't say a word until she stops then ask what's wrong]
When you see her walking [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared [ Protect her ]
When she lays her head on your shoulder [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she teases you [ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret [ Keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes [ Don't look away until she does ]
When you break her heart [ the pain never really goes away and she wants you back ]
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I'm not depressed. . I'm just always sad.
I'm not crying . . . My eyes are just full of tears.
I’m not living . . . I just keep breathing.
I'm not stupid . . . I just don’t get it.
I’m not trying . . . I’ve already given up.
I'm not weird . . . I'm just different.
I'm not a rebel . . . I just don’t take orders.
I’m not a screw up . . . I just make mistakes.
I'm not emotional . . . I just have a lot of feelings.
I'm not immature . . . I’m just growing up.
I'm not a quitter . . . I just stop and re-think.
I'm not laughing . . . I need to smile first.
I'm not impulsive . . . I just act before I think.
I'm not obsessed . . . I’m just in love.
I'm not perfect . . . I don’t want to be.
I'm not ignoring . . . I just choose not to listen.
I'm not a gossip . . . I have my own life.
I'm not pessimistic . . . I just don’t get my hopes up.
I'm not impatient . . . I just don’t like to wait.
I'm not happy . . . I do have sparks of joy.
I'm not tough . . . I just don’t take crap.
I'm not clingy . . . I just want to be held.
I'm not opinionated . . . I just voice what I think.
I'm not questioning . . . I just have my doubts.
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To Every Guy:
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that took time to do what she wanted to do.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours
just to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful
no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared
through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything
so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her
when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy
even if you are not with her.

...This one bulletin is for you...
Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...
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I'm sorry...........
Im sorry if I don't meet your standards
I'm sorry if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs
I'm sorry if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl".
I'm sorry if I'm not tanned enough for you
I'm sorry if I'm not a playboy model.
I'm sorry if I'm weird.
I'm sorry that I write about you every day.
I'm sorry if i don't have a dream body that turns you on.
I'm sorry if im not tall enough.
I'm sorry if I don't have sex with you on the first date.
I'm sorry if I'm annoying.
I'm sorry if my hair is not long enough.
I'm sorry that im different from those other girls.
I'm sorry i won't hang all over you, and be a complete tramp to make you happy.
I'm sorry that I actually care about you and actually call to see how you're doing.

But most of all..............
I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.
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That One Person

There is always gonna be
That one person that no matter
What they do or what they say
or how many times they may hurt you
You just can't let them go because
They just mean so much to you

If you have ever loved someone so
much, then put this on you page in
memory of them
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Misunderstood-Teen: bestest friend in the world!!!
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Death Rocker: an amazing friend!!!
Star Girl: bestest friend and sister ever!!!
Emerald Rain: bestest friend and sister ever!!!!
Gods Only Child: bestest friend and sister ever!!!
Pilotforlife: bestest sister and friend ever!!!
Jake0715: bestest brother in the entire world!!!
UpInTheStars: an awesome friend!!!
XXNightmare21XX : bestest sister!!!
XXJaredsLoverXX: my awesome friend!!!
Greeneyedninja: bestest sister!!!
Shadow Weaver: bestest sister!!!
Melindra271: bestest sister!!!
Rosalinda: a good friend!!!
Dragonbabyx3: an amazing friend!!!
BelleMorte: a really good friend!!!
Serenity Silvermoon: a good friend!!!
Samhuinn: an amazing friend!!!
Orangepeeling: a good friend!!!
Princess in Pain: awesome friend and my twilight fanatic!!!
Xx Emo Teddy xX : my awesome and funny friend!!!
GinryuStargazer: a good friend!!!
Mystery: my confidant and amazing friend!!!
Aphrodite1: a good friend!!!
LoveBerry: a good friend!!!
The Twisted Rose: an awesome friend!!!
TwilightOfOurLives: a funny friend!!!
PromiseMeLies: my confidant and awesome friend!!!
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Angela- 1234: awesome friend!!!
Amy114: best older sister!!!
Z1-N-OnlyEvilMonkey: bestest cousin!!!
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Moonlight Vampire: a good friend!!!
Maniackiller: awesome friend!!!
YourRomanticHopeful: a funny friend!!!
MidnightXSun: a good friend!!!


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