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i'm actually 16. not an adult. (i lied)

i sing too loudly and i think about things too much. i don't take anything seriously, i don't take myself seriously. i make jokes all the time. i'm overly sarcastic because it's fun to be mean sometimes. i hate falling in love because i hate getting hurt. i hate crying in public. i lie to myself and in turn lie to everyone else. i flip the radio stations too much and sing when no one else is in the car and i get overly dramatic and i close up my real feelings and ignore myself and ignore my friends and some days it feels like i don't control myself. i can't decide what i believe in. all i know is that i support equal rights for all people. i'm a left wing liberal. but i'm not so sure if i'm catholic. i promise i can be a really great person and i promise that i can be anyone you want me to be but right now i'm not.

i can be everything and nothing at the same time. but mostly, i'm nothing.

Interests: poetry. songwriting. singing in public. dancing around in the middle of the mall. smiling and waving at people laughing at me. guitars. sexy boys. sweet smart boys. emo music. punk rock. being mean to people that talk about you behind their back. freshman twins lol. green day. shelly beth colleen and erica. latin class. playing in the rain. jumping into the pool with your clothes on. coming in last place. showing up unexpected. singing in the hallway. getting drunk at OU. random snoggings. planned snoggings. downtown. the park. swings. dogs. cats. finding yourself infatuated. stumbling upon happiness. making jewelry out of paperclips and safety pins. the dollar store. buying bouquets of fake flowers for my friends from the dollar store. trying to make people laugh. ringing the doorbell when you know no one is home. making a fool of myself in public. taking online journal surveys. wearing my kerry edwards pin. quiz team practices. film club. glances that last longer than most. secretly shared smiles. conversations where nothing is said but everything is expressed. simpsons/family guy/futurama. playing games like you did when you were 9. jamming with friends. local shows. being an ass just because you want to. being nice because you love the people you're with. obsessing about a boy with your friends. whispered conversations at 3 am. smiling and being happy.