WastedCrimsonTears• Show poetry

hey there.



how would i introduce myself?..(i have no idea really..)

well i never knew why i was born..and so does everyone else right? yeah whats ur reason?
so.. im 15,sick of living those years of nonsense.a junior in highschool & really lazy at school writing poetry helps me alot,without it i'd go nuts.. it's all about pain,anger & everything else i go through each and everyday.

i hate it when people i care about just leave me.just like my dad,the hell i dunno where on earth is he right now.so now i live with my stepfamily which just sucks more than you think.since then i never had a place to call home.it's just a house i come to every night to sleep in.thats it.
sometimes things get me depressed..i dont know what's wrong with me though i try to figure out.i cut although they dont allow me to,and that fuckin guidance counselor grrr and my mom,she doesn't understand a part of my being and i hate it.im often frustrated and think alot. i find it hard to trust someone,specially when they're close to me :[

so enough of my pessimistic side,i could be fun too you know
my friends are my life.i love them more than anything else!! we have the craziest laughs and the stupidest drama i love them forever

things i love :

-food
-music (cant live w/o it)
-chatting
-my crush i love-hate him though :/
-loads and loads of chocolate
-spongebob
-no classes
-playing my guitar <3
-biting my friends
-sleepovers!! woot
-playing in the rain
-sleeping in class
-pissing people off
-locking myself in my room
-goin home late
-cutting cutting cutting <3
-paramore
-mcdonalds say im lame but whatever.
-sitting on our rooftop watching the stars at night
-taking long walks wherever
-talking on the phone for hours
- random dancing
-and most of all i love hugs & cuddles awwweee <3

well thats so much for now.
add more laterr

welp thats me.
love me.hate me.kill me.xx

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our perfect little girl dropped a grade on her report card.

Your perfect little girl yelled at you last night.

Your perfect little girl talked back to you again.

Your perfect little girl painted her nails black.

Your perfect little girl has lied to you all her life.

Your perfect little girl cries herself to sleep every night.

Your perfect little girl dated before she was sixteen.

Your perfect little girl was broken by a boy.

Your perfect little girl hates you.

Your perfect little girl has given up on life.

Your perfect little girl had a tantrum today.

Your perfect little girl wants to run away.

Your perfect little girl has no real friends.

Your perfect little girl hasn't let you dry her tears.

Your perfect little girl disobeys you.

Your perfect little girl hates the world.

Your perfect little girl is hated by the world.

Your perfect little girl is very unhappy.

Your perfect little girl has become a disgrace.

Your perfect little girl...well she's not so perfect anymore...

(no one is perfect, so don't hold it against them ... when they mess up)


[ YOU DONT KNOW HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME TO FORCE MYSELF TO SMILE ]
[self-inflicted,abused and used,torn up & wasted]


next time,
i'll just pull the trigger a lil faster..
tie the rope a little more tighter
and cut a lil deeper..
no one will miss me here so no worries..xx



never say i love you...if you dont really care.
never talk about feelings...if they arent really there.
never hold my hand...if youre going to break my heart.
never say youre going to...if you dont plan to start.
never look me in the eyes...if all you do is lie.
never say hello...if you really mean goodbye.
if you really mean forever...then say youll try.
never say forever...cuz forever makes me cry..



[ S-C-R-E-W M-E- ]


I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie.
Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.




Sharp Razor: 5.00$
Towel: 2.00$
New long sleeved shirt: 10.00$
Bleeding yourself to sleep: PRICELESS ♡



i am too broken.&&.too hurt to be loved and to love.
so better leave me alone lying numb,i think its much better..coz i might just get used to it.whatever,i'll die soon anyways.right?..pfftt..



For me, crazy is a loose term. Crazy is when you stare at a pencil and laugh when someone asks you just what you find so interesting about the eraser. Crazy is when you have an hour long sob-fest, then start singing and dancing when your favorite song plays. Crazy is when you do or say a totally random thing, like "do you ever wonder where the eraser bits go?" or start having a thumbwar with yourself (i find that i am a very tough opponent). So if you're crazy, copy this onto your profile



If i kill myself..i'll see nobody who will give a fuck.xx



We were given: two hands to hold, two legs to walk, two eyes to see, two ears to listen...but why only one heart? [[Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.]]



...i believe that everything happens for a reason
people change so that you'll learn to let go
things go wrong so that you could appreciate them when they're right
you believe lies so you'll eventually learn trust no one but yourself
and sometimes good things fall apart so that so better things can fall together...<3


Cutting and poetry are an excape...
Sometimes you cut so you DONT kill yourself.



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special corner :

an amazing poem made for me by my AP Bigsis Meggen (xGrasping-insanityx)




I understand that you feel sad
That you'd rather sit and cry
But baby please smile for me
And hold your head up high
---
Because tomorrows a brand new day
And you know how much i care
Please baby girl just hold on for me
Because i'll always be there
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No matter how many times you cut
Or threaten to go away
I'll be there to make you smile again
each and every day.



love you so much meggy,thanks for everything.<3 your amazing

..oh and btw,anyone wanna HAAACCKKK MEEEE????? hehe..sounds fun.





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SPACEMONKIE ALERT :: BUNCHY HERE :: GOT YOU HACKED. smile! x]

- ONLY MY ATE BUNCHY CAN READ THIS. hahahaha BHE! XP

hmm.. i think i should start by thanking you for EVERYTHING the never ending fun! XD you ever dunno how much im happy to have a friend like you coz in my entire life i'd never had a real friend before. i thought i would never find a real friend that will always be there for me but it was you, yes its YOU! ahh, you never know how much im grateful to have you. you're the BEST for me <333 we shared almost everything not just the fun but all.. the secrets, pains, the good and bad times no matter how much it sucks hahaha we cry together, laugh together, walk together, talk together, eat together (eat?) hahaha we sleep together (hmm..i wish it was real) we do crazy things together not caring what other people may think (wait, am i the real person who said this line before? XP) haha well whatever its true! hmm.. we usually fight before when nothing's alright but now, hmm i think things had changed coz we doesnt talk a lot anymore even if we dont see each other unlike before but i planned something so we can talk now more than a lot like before haha.. i just gotta surprise you one of this days. we love FUN!<3 what does F.U.N means?

F-is for friends who do stuff TOGETHER
U-is for YOU and ME
N-is for anywhere and anytime at all down here in the deep blue sea. x]

i know all we know is breaking promises but tell you what, i wont say a promise anymore but ill try to do my best to change and fix everything.. can we? PLEASE?

hope youre doin good! i hope somehow hacking you by a spacemonkie cheers you up. bheee! XP

I ALWAYS LOVE MY ACHIE.<333

-- CHUCHY.♥

PS: can you please give me a BIG SMILE before this hack is over? XD
ohh.. i newly forgot, me and my achie never forgets to give hug each other.. so here catch me, ill give you a *VERY BIG BIG HUUUGGGGGG* hhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!! HUGTYT AS WE ALWAYS DO!! you takecare!♥

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HACKED:::::::::LEA-EMOGURLXOXO78::::::::::::HACKED!!!!!!!

WELL SIS ITS UR LUKY DAY! U JUST GOT HACKED!!!!!
HACKED!!!!! BYE ME! FOR ALL THOSE WONDERIN WHO ME ITS (LEA-EMOGURLXOXO78)
well were can i start?!?!? This gurl rtie here sydny means like the world to me! shes one of my bestest friend in the whole universe and my big sis :] she makes me laugh and smile. she knows me so freaking much that its kinda creppy lol . shes funny wonderful amzin nice lovable caring beutiful both inside and out, and well i dotn know any more adjectives sorry!!! oh WARNING! i love this gurl freaking much that if u treat her bad, harm her, or she just dosent like u well ill make ur life a living hell, and i can make ur life a living hell. so u were just warned. WARNING OVER! well i think that explains how much sydny means to me :] shes the bestest sis and bestest friend. we always keep dreaming about our future and it will come true, so keep dreaming!!! i can alwyas come to her for advive or wen im sad i know that i can always come to her. "you make me laugh when i dont even want to smile" facebook flair
we are overly obssed with spongebob, and well make fun of him well take care of u (F.U.N F IS FOR FRIENDS WHO DO STUFF TOGETHER U IS FOR U AND ME N IS FOR ANYTHING ANYTIME AT ALL DOWN HERE IN THE DEEP BLUE SEA!) and well im no gonna keep writting cause its to much for the human eye to control. to to much!!!
well im gonna go now lol and well sydny i love you freaking much u mean everything to me ur the bestest sis and bestest friend ever!!!
and for all u pervs i love her as my bestest friend and sis :]
love you!!!! SPONGEBOB RULES!!!!
OUR DREAMS WILL COME TRUE SO KEEP DREAMIN SIS!!!
<3333 xoxo

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Muwhahahahahahahahahahaha*cough*hahahahahahahahaha where am i? and why did i cackle maniacally?? umm toto i don't think we're in north carolina anymore!! why are we in the philippines?? HOW DID WE GET HERE!! *hits head w/ computer screen* oh!! wait!! we're just on the computer!! durrrrR!!! dang you bobby! i told you we didn't leave on the plane drugged again!!!! darn you! *shakes fist*!!!!!!!

ahhH!! ok crazy (i REALLY mean normal) moment over!!---

PAGE HACKAGE!!! xx by xx (umm i forgot my ap name.. whoops) ALISON!!! woot!! yay!! *crowd roars* woot!! *shakes fist in victory* where was i??

oh yes! madam suicidal heart! how's yer doin?? mmm?? good? yay!! woot!! (psst! don't mind me i've been on a 'day pass' for a WHILE) so m'dear i've been very VERY excited that i now have a 'special' friend on the other side of the world!! woot! now i as the eevil master with the eeeeviiill master plan can now give the scepter (cause it's heavy) over to a new minion.. my other ones wanted a crown .. and rights for some reason.. don't know why.... anyways!!! i love this chick-a-dee... she's amazing.. kinda reminds me of .. ME! woot!! this chick is AWESOME!! like 40 awesome (inside joke.. that even she don't know of!) amazing poet.. friend and pyshco!!! woot!!!!

bye bye crazzzy lady!!! *hugs* yea yea i know just puttin that won't let me REALLY hug ya.. but it's the best i can do until 1: your scrawny butt takes an international flight cause i ain't doin it! 2: computers learn how to allow humans through or 3: teleportation becomes reality and not my dreams!!!!

bye now!!





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♥ my AP family ♥



♥Bestest Bigsis♥ --- (x.Grasping-insanity.x)
meggy! thanks for everything..for everytime im sad,your there to make me smile..and you can always count on me..just remember im here for you..
your the most amazing person i've ever met.<3 i love you. best bigsis ever!!!



♥My evilmaster / crazzie bearhug / bigsis♥ --- (XxIsxRunningxX)
haha weirdos!! omg this girl is so crazy weird!! thats why i love her!
be scared!! we'll hunt you down!!! rawr. <3333333



♥ My "Paramore" ♥ (FailedLove)
Ashley..hmm.??..im in love with her poems lol she's a great person,she's very very nice and fun to talk to i love her bunches! and much more more more more more more..



♥Bigsis♥ --- (EmoKillianGreysun)
she's brilliant. very smart and open-minded person.i love her thinking.love you!!



♥Bigsis♥ --- (xpeacefulxangelx)
she's a great person we both have the swine flu and thats one big connection!!
i love her!!!


♥ my awesome sister ♥ --- (TeganFuckerzz-x)
i love this girl lol guess what we both hate math!! and were pretty much alike???
omg she's more like my conjoined twin lol she's amazing! and really fun <3



♥Lil sis♥ --- (emogurlxoxo78)
Lea!! omg.haha i loveeeee youuuuu!!!!! dont worry,we'll be running away soon.lolz we'll have so much fun together.. dont worry,that "someday" will soon come.. hehe
your such a great sissy! im always here for you! lol <333333333



♥Lil sis♥ --- (xSilentHeartx)
Chuchy. hmm..hugs! hehe..i love you so much! <3 im always here for you no matter what happens. miss our craziness.. come back soon ayt?


♥My Emo twin Sister♥ (Karra-May)
her poems are just amazing and so is she i love her so much she's fantastic!



♥Sister♥ --- (PrincessTragedy xD)
Markie,your such an amazing poet!! i always get jealous..better get used to it.lol ily!!!!



♥Drugpusher Baby♥ --- (RawrSmileBabyPlz)
Mashell Macabre. the one and only.. wow,beware : very cool person. she rocks!! lots of love!!



♥Brother♥ --- (coldSummer)
he's a very talented writer. check him out!! you wont regret it!! love him!



♥bigBrother♥ --- (danielJD)
fantastic person. does the kung fu moves!! lol.dont mess with him! love yah!



♥Bigbrother♥ --- (LegatoValentine)
awesome and fun guy!! lots of love!




its not a complete family yet,im missin on some grandparents..
who wants to sign up? hehe

they sure are the best people i have & i love 'em.

i LOVE MY AP FAMILY FOREVER <3
theyre the ones who are well enough to understand and not judge on people.
they mean a lot to me.

-so.. who wants to join my family??








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