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[Updated [5/21/09]


My name is ashley.
I'm 19 years young.
I'm in love with my Fiance Brenden <3
I'm going to college for Liberal Arts
I use to work at Mcdonalds 3rd shift, but now i work at Swimtastic
I have naturaly dirty brown hair.
Dark blue eyes in the winter && grey/blue in the summer.
I'm not the skinniest person.
I don't use spell check when I type.
I write poetry.
I love all sorts of animals.
I use to smoke.
I'm questioning my beliefs.
I sometimes talk to myself.
I have a few best friends.
I keep my secrets locked away.
I'll keep your secrets safe with me.
I don't judge.
I hate rumors.
I'm sensitive.
Don't forget that I'm independent.
I love driving.
I love to cuddle!
Romanic && horror movies are my fav.
Art && music is my life!
I love fishing && nature.
I'm not an only child.
I am Shy and Quiet until i get to know u.
I'm sometimes spoild && a brat.
I admit that I take things for granted.
I make mistakes. . .Some I can't fix.
I've lost friends && gained friends.
I'm human.
I have anxiety attacks. . I'm scared of large croweds.
I'm afraid of ceiling fans, spiders && the dark.
My family and friends mean the world to me.
I've been abused, used, cheated on && raped.
Black is my favorite color other than the rainbow.
I hate the color orange and yellow.
I have 18 peircings && 5 tattoos.
Canada is my second home.
Dr. Dazzle && RC Cola are my favorite sodas.
I'm Italian, Polish && German. . .Don't mess with me.
I'm alergic to BO and cocanut.
I collect Dream Catchers. . .if you buy me one. . i'll love u forever

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I wanna guy. . .
That i can be myself with. That will always be happy to see me. That will wipe my tears away and will never be the reason i cry. A guy that will call me every nite and tells me he misses me when i'm not around. I want a guy that will always hold my hand and whenever i'm cold, he'll wrap his arms around me and make me warm. I want a guy that will never make me doubt if he really does loves me--who will send me flowers and write me love notes. Who will give me all the kisses i could need and always thinks i look beautiful no matter what. I want a guy that will always be honest with me and will kiss and tell. Who will find all my weird and annoying habbits cute and will love me more because of them. I want a guy that doesn't pressure me and will respend and listen to crazy things i have to say. Who does all the things he tells me he'll do and won't leave me waiting. I want a guy that won't mind just cuddling with me, and will surprise me. Who will pick up on the little things I say and do. Who will love me, and most importantly...never breaks my heart.


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"Don't Judge a Book by it's cover."
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"This too shall pass."
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"What goes around, comes around."
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"Pretty is what pretty does, but pretty isn't my thing."
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"Hate is easy, Love takes courage."
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"Never regret something that once made you smile."
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"Things happen for a reason and only time will tell why."
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"The only people you need in life, are the people that need you in theirs."
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"Don't worry about the people in your past; there's a reason why they didn't make it TO YOUR FUTURE."

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&& i've been to Hell & Back. I spill shit-trip-& embarass Myself. I can't just flutter my eyes & get that boy. My life is messed up, I've been through More Shit than you see on TV. nobody's perfect. I've been lied to, cheated on & had my heart stolen. I've been fucked up, fucked people up, && fucked up, but every hit was worth it because, i felt it. I knew it was real. Life is real && i'm living it wrong everyday. I've fucked up royaly && doing everything opposite // but do i regret one thing? NEVER. Because at one point what i did was what i wanted & i got my fucking Satisfacation ♥♥♥My life is mine && no stupid BITCH or immature BOYS can fuck it up for me anymore. I'm the real deal & i'd love to see you TRY AND FUCKING BREAK ME!

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"I believe that everything happens for a reson. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appriciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." ---Marilyn Monroe


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"At this moment, there are 6,470,818,771 people in this world. Some are RUNNY SCARED. Some are coming home. Some tell LIES to make it through the day. Others are not FACING THE TRUTH. Some are EVIL men, at war with good. And some are good struggling with EVIL. Six billion people in the world, six billion SOULS. And sometimes. . . all you need is ONE."

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"Judge me & I'll prove you wrong.
Tell me what to do && i'll tell you off.
Say i'm not worth it & watch where i end up.
Call me a bitch and i'll show you one.
Fuck me over && I'll do it to you twice as bad.
Call me crazy. . . but you really
have no idea."

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"Don't Promise me anything, unless you are 110% commited to it."

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"Just because i'm quiet doesn't mean i have nothing to say. I judge people to easily by my first impression. I'd rather wait forever for the perfect guy, than settle for any ole' person. I am unpredictable and spontanious. I try to be forgiving. I enjoy being unique. I am ambitious and determined, but i can get lazy and unmotivated at times. I am a sucker for compliments. I'd rather look immature and have fun than care what other people think. Sometimes i am really confident and other times i feel really insecure. I'm creative and imaginative. I'm courious about everything. Friends mean everything to me, but sometimes i just want to be left alone. I envy people WHO CAN FIT IN SO EASILY WITHOUT EVEN TRYING. I try to be sympathetic and supportive, even if sometimes i fake it to make you feel good. XD I am opinionated and stuborn, but i'm loyal, sincere and caring, you can trust me with your secrets unless it's something i know will hurt you. I always try to see the BEST in you, even if you annoy me. I hate it when people make me feel guilty to get their way. I'll always be here to listen to your problems. I'll stick up for you no matter what happens."

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"I am a daughter, a sister, a grand-daughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend. I am a partner, a student, a young girl, and a grown woman. I am confident and scared, terrified and exited. I am loving and caring, thoughtful and hopeful. I am sick and tired. I am shy and friendly, carful and carless. I am broken and whole. I am misunderstood, misguided, and mislead. I am hard working and determined, but a little scared on the inside. I wish on stars and dream my dreams. I pray to God and cry my tears. I smile on the ouside, while i'm dying on the inside. I listen to others who won't listen to me. I walk on eggshells, and walk on fire. I believe in passion, but not true love. I love you and i push you away. I want you, but not so close. I am everything and nothing all at once. And all i want is for you to love me.

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HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG
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I am the girl kicked out of her home because
I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets
because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother
tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter
long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the
hospital because they would not let my
partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with
nightmares of being taken away from the
two fathers who are the only loving family
I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess.
I survived the attack that left me in a coma
for three weeks, and in another year I will
probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed
myself just weeks before graduating high school.
It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang
up on us when she found out we wanted to
rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom
I should use if I want to avoid getting the
management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even
visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised.
The court says I am an unfit mother because
I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found
the support system grow suddenly cold and distant
when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has
no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged
his son because I grew up afraid to show
affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always
wanted to teach gym until someone told me
that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics
stopped treating me as soon as they realized
I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because
I think I could be a much better person if I
didn't have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church,
not becauseI don't believe, but because
they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what
this world needs most, love .

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