Victoria of Aragon• Show poetry

[ - P a s t - ]
The full extent and detail of my past is better left forgotten to a certain degree. So that I do not give any small children nightmares that will haunt them for the better part of their lives, suffice it to say that from the ages of nine, up until my sixteenth birthday, I was involved with some horrible, nasty people; the kind of people that seemed to thrive off of sex, drugs, rape, crime, and violence.

However, with these key events in my life, I do not believe that I would have been able to grow into the woman that I am today. Thinking back on it, I'm surprised that I even survived those hellish years... I can not tell you how many times I found myself in some strange room, body rippling with ill-fated euphoria, only to stare listlessly at the ceiling and wonder what the fuck was wrong with me. The same goes to say that I can not tell you just how many times my life was put in danger - by myself, or by those whom I thought were "friends."

However, once my sixteenth birthday rolled around, my family relocated, and I was thankfully removed from such a harsh environment. The fears I had about those monsters following me never ceased, however, despite the support I received from various friends, all of whom I only told snippets of my past. More than anything, I was afraid that if they knew of the horrible things I had done, said "monsters" would come after them, as well. Thankfully, that never happened.

During this time I also met the love of my life, and he helped me through some very rough times. He was the first - and probably the one - person who I told everything about my past. Each disturbing detail he was made aware of, and despite my fears, he stood by me. He assured me that nothing bad would happen to me while I was with him, and that he himself would never turn into one of the monsters I feared so much.


[ - P r e s e n t - ]
The years have progressed since those dark times, and I must admit, I'm quite ecstatic that I allowed my high-school sweetheart into the depths of my mind. He and I have been married for a little over a year now, and we have a beautiful baby girl, who is three and a half months old. He and I have started a beautiful life together, and it doesn't appear that such events will ever change.

Music is my obsession, as well as a means for me to overcome the nightmares of my past. There is not a moment of the day that I'm not listening to a wide range of music - anything from Eminem to Mindless Self Indulgence, Nine Inch Nails to Loreena McKinnet, Maroon 5 to Type O Negitive. Through each of the songs these artists sing or perform I am brought one step closer to overcoming my past; each vocal assuring me that with my lover's help, I can overcome any obstacle set before us.

Aside from my passion of music, I am also currently working on what I hope to be my life's work; a series of four to five novels. Progress is slow, seeing as how my life is so busy with the little one, as well as the chaos that comes with being married to a man serving in the armed forces. Still, despite all of that, I'd like to think it's moving along quite nicely. If you're interested, I may let you in on more of the details concerning the novel.


[ - F u t u r e - ]
Though no one can say for certainty what the future my hold in store for me, I am ever confident that my husband will be by my side through it all. Children are such a blessing, so I'm sure we will have at least one more before our lifetime ends... though, if you heard it from my husband, he'd be happy if we had a child every year for as long as we live. Such events are highly unlikely to occur, but everyone's entitled to their own dreams, right?