The Twisted Rose• Show poetry

Always pissed off at something and always troublled and missunderstood. I play the guitar to take my mind off the pain around me, some days i just wanna break down and cry and die alone and sit and wonder why everyone has to do this to me just why cant they see. i used to cut some days to make myself feel better, most people just dont get it, but i hurt myself so the world cant and it eases my tension in life and relieves the pain believe it or not. School sux, cant wait to get out of here and a lot more just sux, and meanwhile everyone just looks at me and thinks poor me and im not looking for your stupid simpathy. i dont have many friends, usually ill just keep to myself, come home go in my room, close the door and blast some metal, alternative, celtic, or heavy rock. maybe here is where i will be accepted.

I love Rascal Flatts

I'm gonna stop looking back and start moving on
and learn how to face my fears
love with all my heart, make my mark
I wanna leave somethin here
go out on a ledge, without any net
thats what im gonna be about
Yeah i wanna be runnin'
when the sand runs out

When the Sand runs Out




It's very rare that i feel comterble around anybody. They say you can see the aura and i believe it, but for the majority of the human race, i never got that comferting feeling that i got with him. And now its over. He was what every girl ever dreamed of. The one to hold your hand under the table at lunch, or to care for you when your sick, to cuddle with you and never wanna let you go. He was my Prince Charming, and now he's my darkness. Don't you hate when things gotta end?
I hate to be alone, by myself. It makes me feel like im missing an important part of myself. It doesnt help that my hearts been shattered into pieces and the pieces have probably made a mess, but im talking about me. When you find the one you love, or feel safe with, who can protect you and makes you feel strong, its something you never wanna lose, they become a part of you. So for now i walk empty and cold and broken hearted, But even though i cry, im still alive.
I LOVE MUSIC! I would litterally go insane without it. I can play just about every instrument I pick up. The one I play the most though would be the guitar. No not guitar hero (though it is an awsome game) but a real one. I play the electric, acoustic, 12 string and any other one. I can play a lot of songs such as "paint it black" by the rolling stones and "country roads" by john denver. I love country music but i love rock and heavy metal a lot more. When im having a bad day, i can just sit down to some 3 days grace or evanescence or hell, any rock and feel a lot better. To those who love rock too.....

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My parents love to Bitch at each other. They will scream and scream till they cant scream anymore than let me have what ever ounce they can produce. I hate the shitty house i live in, and all my family is spread out into diff. states. My mom made it her goal to move away from them. I dont know why. With how much my parents fight and how there never happy, i ish they would just get a divorse again. Things were nicer when they separated. I hate to hear people tell me how lucky i am to have both parents becouse there's are divorced, when in my eyes, there truly the lucky ones. Who wants to live to the stress 24/7 and wake up to holes being punched in the walla and threats being dealt out.
{eople tend to drop around me like flies, so dont feel totally horrible if I talk about a frined of mine who has died. Many people have tried to kill me just simply becouse I wont do what they tell me. I love being rebellious I hate spiders *shivers* haha. I have been sliced, stabbed, and shot, I'm a white person in black crime and life (not racist i swear) I love my black peoples.
I used to cut myself, at first i cut my wrists then moved to my upper legs so nobody could see the damages i would do and couse. I did it becouse i felt like it was the only thing i had controll over. I dont do it hardly anymore, just once in a blue moon.when your a cutter you just feel like it relieves the stress and like it CUTS the pain in half.
I can be easily confused and easy made mad if you fuck with my beliefs. I will always happily give you my opinion. Im very optimistic and Mostly im a real funny smartass. I love to be funny and have lots of attention, however i am NOT an attention whore. I let it find me, I dont go looking for it.
I'm scared of nothing but everything at the same time. I'm not afraid to be a soldier and fight when i have to, or to kill that spider thats hanging in my bathroom light, but im scared of the world around me and the things that will kill my soul further than it is already dead.
I am a Sadist and a Masachist. I love the thought of pain. many people get Sadist and Satanist mixed upa nd it really pisses me off. A Satanist is of course someone who worships Lucifer and a Sadist is someone who gets pleasure from the pain we couse others. Sadist law *** my pain is your pain, your pain is my pleasure *** So i'm not scared of pain. Im very well used to it becouse when i was younger i was bullied and beat up. I woudl be kicked to the ground and kicked in the stomach and face. I woudl come home with gashes and cuts and huge bruises, and the school would do nothing.
I don't like it when someone knows me really well becouse it makes me feel very unsecure, predictable, weak, but yet all i crave is someone whos willing to learn about me and be there. Someone in which i can trust.
Are you that person?




Why boys and girls make out
Did you know that every night before you go to sleep there is one person of the opposite sex thinking of you? They want to kiss you, they want to be with you, they are always thinking about you, this is all true and not fake. If you repost this in 5 min the person that is longing to be with you will approach you within one month and ask you out or grab you and kiss you.





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THINGS TO DO IN AN ELEVATOR

1) When there’s only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder and then pretend it wasn’t you.
2) Push the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.
3) Ask if you can push the button for other people, but push the wrong ones.
4) Call the Psychic Hotline from your cell phone and ask if they know what floor your on.
5) Hold the doors open and say your waiting for a friend. After a while, let the doors close, and say, “Hi Chinel. How’s your day been?”
6) Drop a pen and wait until someone goes to pick it up, then scream, “That’s mine!”
7) Bring a camera and take pictures of everyone in the elevator while saying work it girl! And telling them to pose.
8)Move your desk into the elevator and whenever anyone gets on, ask if they have an apointment
9) Lay down the twister mat and ask people if they would like to play.
10) Leave a box in the cornerwith a wind up clock in it, and when someone gets on, ask them if they can hear ticking.
11) Pretend you are a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the passengers.
12) Ask, “Did you feel that?”
13) Stand really close to someone, sniffing them occasionally.
14) When the doors close, announce to the others, “It’s okay, don’t panic, they open again!”
15) Swat at flies that don’t exist.
16) Tell people that you can see their aura.
17) Call out, “Group Hug!” and then enforce it.
18) Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering, “Shut up, all of you, just shut up!”
19) Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside, ask, “Got enough air in there?”
20) Stand silently and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off
21) Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce in horror, “Your one of THEM!” and back away slowly.
22) Wear a puppet on your hand and use it to talk to the other passengers
23) Listen to the elevator walls with your stethoscope.
24) Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.
25) Stare, grinning at another passenger for a while, then announce, “I have new socks on”.
26) Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers, “This is MY personal space”

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these are things i did or dont do
(x) Smoked a cigarette
(x) Drank so much you threw up
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) Been arrested
(X) Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school
(x) Seen someone die
(X) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Florida
(X) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Been lost
() Been on the opposite side of the country
(x) Gone to Washington , DC
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like dying....
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Played cops and robbers
(x) Recently colored with crayons
(x) Sang karaoke badly
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) Made prank phone calls
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(x) Danced in the rain
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
() Been kissed under the mistletoe
() Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) Blown bubbles
() Made a bonfire on the beach
(x) Crashed a party
(x) Gone roller-skating
(x) Ice-skating
(x) own a knife
(x) ran away for more then a day
() get in a fight and lost
(x) get in a fight a won
(x) get a new girlfriend
(x) get dumped
() get smacked then dumped
(x) smack some one then dump em
() go to court
() go to jail
(x) get picked up by the cops
(x) tell a cop to :go to hell
(x) own a gun
(x) love someone
(x) hate someone
(x) love and hate some one ..what?
(x) think some one loves you
(x) think some ones hates you
() is gay
() is lez
() is bi
() is gay but no ones knows
() is lez but know one knows
() is bi but know one knows
(X) used to be bi, gay, or les
() isnt any of them
(x) is beat by mom or dad
(x) works out
() has a tattoo
() is goth
() is emo (dont believe in labels)
(x) is something
() is an alien
() is "idk"
(x) has ever been in boot camp
(x) ever been to juvy
() loves life
(x) hates life(well parts of it anyway)
() wants to die
(x) wants to live
(x) wants to die but not kill them self
() wants to kill them self
(x) has ever cut
(x) likes to cut
(x) loves to cut
() thinks cutting is wrong
(x) thinks cutting helps
() is a drama king/queen
(x) dosnt care what pepol think
() cares what pepol think
(x) has more then 1 friend
(x) has a best friend
() is a goody goody
(X) has gone out with a girl for over a month
(X) beleves in one gf or one bf relationships
(x) has some one to talk to

(X) think your smart

(x) think your dumb

(X) think ur cool

() think your lame

() liked this thingy?
(X) disliked this thingy

About Me

[X] I'm single
[]I'm in a relationship
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[X] I've gone on a blind date.
[X] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[ ] have a fear of commitment.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[x] I've been the cheatee (means your were the one being cheated on)
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[X] I'm still hurt from past relationships

All i want to do is to find someone to love who will love me back and be my Knight in shining armor, who will be there when i need them, and to marry them and be with them for the rest of my eternity.




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Satanist around the world unite!

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I’m not a bitch . . . I just like being rude.
I'm not a sinner . . .I just cant do anything right.
I'm not depressed . . I'm just always sad.
I'm not crying . . .My eyes are just full of tears.
I’m not living . . .I just keep breathing.
I'm not a thief . . .I just take what I need.
I'm not a slut . . .I just embrace my sexuality.
I'm not stupid . . .I just don’t get it.
I’m not trying . . .I’ve already given up.
I'm not weird . . . I'm just different.
I'm not a rebel . . .I just don’t take orders.
I'm not worthless . . .I just don’t know my value.
I'm not a believer . . .I’ve already lost hope.
I'm not a fuck up . . .I just make mistakes.
I'm not beautiful . . .Its only skin deep.
I'm not emotional . . .I just have a lot of feelings.
I'm not a cutter . . .I just found a way to get rid of pain.
I'm not immature . . .I'm just growing up.
I'm not a quitter . . .I just stop and re-think.
I'm not laughing . . .I need to smile first.+.
I'm not impulsive . . .I just act before I think.
I'm not obsessed . . .I'm just in love.
I'm not perfect . . .I don’t want to be.
I'm not ignoring . . .I just choose not to listen.
I'm not a gossip . . .I have my own life.
I'm not pessimistic . . .I just don’t get my hopes up.
I'm not impatient . . .I just don’t like to wait.
I'm not happy . . .I do have sparks of joy.
I'm not tough . . .I just don’t take shit.
I'm not clingy . . .I just wanna be held.
I'm not opinionated . . .I just voice what I think.
I'm not questioning . . .I just have my doubts.
I'm not hiding . . .I just want to disappear.





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She Was Only 5..this is sad!
Body: Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic

Her only friend
was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair

She always talked to it
When no one's around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound

Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endure

A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?

But she grabs her bear
And softly cries
She loves her parents
But they want her to die

She sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking,
"Please God, why is
My life always sinking? "

Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did

Then one night
Her mom came home high
And the poor child was beaten
As hours went by

Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made

She thrusted the blade
Right in her chest,
"You deserve to die
You worthless piece of *bunny*!

The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dying
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying

Police showed up
At the small little house
Then quickly barged in
Everything quiet as a mouse

One officer slowly
Opened a door
To find the little girl
Lying dead on the floor

It must have been bad
To go through so much harm
But at least she died
With her best friend in her arms

A child dies every day from child abuse.
And if you have an ounce of pity in you for Auroura (the little girl),
and you hate child abuse with a passion,
you will repost this and help out those abused children,
and let them know that someone cares for them.
It doesn't take that long only about 10 seconds
so please just do it.

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she was only 5 and never loved ...




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