The Stephi• Show poetry

11-14-08
Andrew Taylor Graham:
As of Thursday November 13th, I lost one of the closest people to me. He was only 17 and we grew up together. Me, Dewey(Andrew), and Alex(cousin) were inseperable growing up. About a week ago he got really sick, double pneumonia they said, but we didn't think anything of it, he'd been through so much already that getting sick wasn't exactly scary for him. He'd delt with his mom up and leaving in the middle of the night, suicide, depression, drugs, alcohol, and probably so much more, and came through it all strong and with a new lesson learned. He was only 17 when it happened, somwhere between noon and 4 on November 13th 2008, he passed away. I thought it was a sick joke someone was playing on me at first, then I realized that he wouldn't be there to tease or make fun of me anymore, he wouldn't be there to drop everything and help me, and i'd never get to see, hear, or hug him ever again. It still feels like a bad dream and I keep wishing I could wake up and it would all be fine again, it's been like that since I found out and the only thing that made me realize just exactly what had happened, was when I saw Alex's face. They weren't just family, they were best friends, and seeing the blank, lost look on his face made me lose it. I ask anyone out there who believes in God, and that there is a heaven, to please pray for him, and all of our family. He may not have made the best choices in his life, but out of everyone, who really does? He deserves every happiness in Heaven and I know that Jesus is keeping him safe up there until we're all together again. R.I.P. Dewey, I love you, miss you, and can't wait until I get to see you again.

11-18-08
Hey, well today has offically sucked ass. Yesterday was the wake and i didn't even see more than his hair and his shirt and couldn't even see i was crying so hard. After I got it out of my system and people started showing up I got better and stronger, so I could be there for the ones who couldn't be strong. It was all fine until everyone started to leave and I went up to see him again, and I touched his arm and completely lost it. It was too cold, his complection wasn't his, and I couldn't believe it was the guy I grew up with laying right in front of me. It was w/o a doubt the hardest thing I've ever had to do saying goodbye to him. I miss him like crazy already. So, again I ask you if you would, please keep him in your prayers and in your thoughts as well. Dewey, I love you and miss you like crazy, stay safe until we're together again.

11-21-08

So I'm getting sick and tired of all the fucking rumors going around.. it's pissing me off... people need to stop talking about him the way they are, people are saying he OD'd on morphine and other stupid shit... he wasn't even on morphine... he had fucking double pneumonia for crying out loud. it's pissssssingggg me offfff!!! UGH! i've seriously wanted to punch every person i've seen today, it's hard enough dealing with my loss without them cutting in.. it SUCKS! Gah.... I miss him more than ever... R.I.P. Dewey, we all miss you and love you bud.... i wish i could change what happened.



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I should put something on here so here it goes.......
Theres not much to say about me really,
I'm kind of boring
I'm Stephanie... but you can call me Steph, Stephi, Stephers, whatever you want really.
Music is my life. It's my one true passion/love.
I love poetry, but I currently have writers block
I don't care if you like my poems or not,
it was either write or let it all build up and eventually commit suicide... so i chose write... there what i was feeling at the time.. you'll never catch me deleting a poem because they're a reminder of exactly what I was going through.
My absolute favorite color is GREEEN!!!!
Umm... Italian is my favorite food because they're one group of people that REALLY know how to cook
I'm not sure what else to say.. If you want to know more about me IM me and find out.....