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hi im melissa im 19 i live in pennsylvania where i go to school and work at party city and i graduated from high school in june. I love to read mystery and romance novels. i use the poems as a way to express my feelings. i am going back to college this coming monday.



( ) Smoked a cigarette
( ) Drank so much you threw up
(X) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) Been arrested
( ) Gone on a blind date
( ) Skipped school
( ) Seen someone die
( ) Been to Canada
(X) Been to Florida
( ) Been to Mexico
(X) Been on a plane
(X) Been lost
(X) Been on the opposite side of the country
(X) Gone to Washington , DC
(X) Swam in the ocean
(X) Felt like dying....
(X) Cried yourself to sleep
( ) Played cops and robbers
( ) Recently colored with crayons
(X) Sang karaoke badly
( ) Paid for a meal with only coins
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
( ) Made prank phone calls
(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(X) Danced in the rain
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(X) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) Blown bubbles
( ) Made a bonfire on the beach
( ) Crashed a party
(X) Gone roller-skating
(X) Ice-skating
[X] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[ ] Have a fear of commitment.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've been the cheatee
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've been molested and/or raped repeatedly by someone i knew
[X] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[X] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[X] I love to flirt.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain. =]
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
[ ] I am a terrible liar.
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[X] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world
[ ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted
[ ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm
[X] I've woken up crying.
[X] I've cried myself to sleep.
[X] I'm afraid of dying.
[X] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[X] Someone i know has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[X] I can sing well.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[X] I kill bugs.
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[X] I curse regularly.
[X] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is brown
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[X] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[X] I eat fast food weekly
[X] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[X] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[X] I bite my nails
[X] I play video games (sometimes)
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[ ] I have tried to join a circus and failed
[X] My answers are totally honest
Name: Melissa Eye Color:blue
Hair Color: dirty blonde
Right Handed or Left Handed: left
The Shoes You Wore Today: sandals
Your Weakness: crying and my fears
Your Fears: quite a few
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: getting through college
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: its morning but im still tired but I still have to get up
Your Best Physical Feature: my eyes
Your Bedtime: I dont have one
Your Most Missed Memory: going to las vegas and going out with my ex boyfriend
Pepsi or Coke: coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: both
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Mountain Dew
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: both
Do you Smoke:no
Do you Swear: yes
Do you Sing: all the time: yes
Do you Shower Daily: yes
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: I go to college
Do you want to get Married: yes and cant wait
Do you believe in yourself: yes
Do you get Motion Sickness: nope
Do you think you are Attractive: somewhat
Are you a Health Freak: no
Do you like Thunderstorms: a little
Do you play an Instrument: nope
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: yes
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: no
Ever been called a Tease: yep
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: who knows
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a teacher
In a Boy/Girl: love me!
Favourite Eye Color: green
Favourite Hair Color: Brunette and blonde
Short or Long Hair: medium
Height: 5'5
Weight: average
Best Clothing Style: plain
Number of Drugs I have taken: none
Number of CDs I own: like 30
Number of Piercings: 1
Number of Tattoos: none yet
Number of things in my Past I Regret: too many