The Perfectionist• Show poetry

Ainnsleigh is the name I gave myself. I think it fits me. The "not so normal-quirky girl" that everyone either loves or hates. Sometimes I think people lean more towards the "hating" side, but that's just my opinion.

I like to write. Mostly about whatever I'm feeling. I've kept journals since I was about seven and it's a way to help me cope with everything I've been through. I love to talk, but that isn't obvious. I'm forgotten a lot. Sometimes I so quite that people forget I'm there and I feel invisible. But, other times, mostly with friends I've known for a long time, I'm loud and vibrant and I love laughing. Sometimes I'm not sure which of those girls is the real me. It's like I can be a different person at times. I'm working on combining my personalities into one, though.

I suffer from myself. You name it, I probably have it. Depression, SI, EDNOS, Bipolar Disorder, OCD...the list goes on, but I'm trying to focus on the positives now. Like the fact that I love to read Manga or that I'm great with my hands. I love architecture, drawing and sketching, remodling, cooking, writing, playing video games with my best friend, David, and my bother Eric, I'm great at listening even if I am horrible with most advice. And someday I'm going to be a doctor.

I know I have to overcome a lot and work harder than I ever have before in my life to become a doctor, but I'm confident in myself and I believe that I can do anything I put my mind [and stubborn willpower]to. I believe in myself even if no one else does and that means a lot to me. I've come from the worse circumstances, but I think I'm doing great considering I could've ended up like my mom, dad and sister. Dead.