Tainted-Faith• Show poetry

I'm Jezz Raven Shadows.

I think that we all want somthing in life...
I wanted love, 'till i found out the pain it brought.

I have met some neat people and
im starting to trust again,
please dont fuck that up for me. =]
Im here if anyone wants to talk..
I am the one that holds all the secrets and lies of others.

I am one of the two founders of C-U-T-T-E-R, a support group for people who use to or currently are struggling with depression, self harm etc. both me and the other founder (JesskaSlayde) have had experience in a vast number of horrible situations so we can help people through pretty much anything. if you are interested, search for our joint allpoetry page, C-U-T-T-E-R, and add us as a favorite. if you ever need to talk, just send a message to me or Jesska and we will get back to you with any advice we have asap.

xo
Jezz :'[

P.S. Oh you might want to know somthing about me,
Im goth, i love animals, Im bi-sexual and taken,
Im NOT brave but i stick up for whats right

*******HeartKeepersGirl:
I love you, you helped me SO much at the WORST point in my life,
you stopped to catch me even though you were falling yourself.

******Slime13:
Just the BOMB!!!!!! Love you!!!! Be brave!

*******Guardian Angel
I know i don't know you that well, but you
have been kind to me, so thank you.

********Jesska:
Meh, you know how i feel, it depends on the day.


HATE EMO?
READ THIS:
Isn't it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a a mini with a t-shirt that barely cover anything?
Isn't it funny you can change your music taste to impress a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style, you give her a mouthful?
Isn't it funny that a guy can get away with being a gangsta but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone
Are you laughing?
Isn't it funny an emo can be quiet all through the week but gets more from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity?
Isn't it funny that you don't mind your friends drinking, smoking but the minute someone mentions emo music you can give them a lecture on melodramatic teenage outcasts?
I'm not laughing
Its so funny that you and your friends can make a girl's life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.
Isn't it funny that you can call emos, punks, goths the retards but still manage to get through your day without an inch of guilt in your heart.
HOW YOU CAN CALL A GIRL A POSER, HOW CAN YOU SAY "YOUR NOT EMO" OR "ATTENTION SEEKER" WITHOUT SPENDING A SECOND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THERE ARE CUTS ON HER WRISTS AND WHY SHE SPENDS HER LUNCHTIMES CRYING INSTEAD OR LAUGHING WITH HER FRIENDS
keep on laughing
Isn't it funny you can say and do all this without any idea of what is going on in this persons life without knowing her situation with her friends or her family or her LIFE
BRAVE ISN'T GOING UP ON STAGE AND STRIPPING
BRAVE IS NOT SAYING A SPEECH
OR DUMPING YOUR BOYFRIEND
BRAVE IS
GOING TO SCHOOL ON MUFTI DAY AND NOT FOR A SECOND CARE WHAT THE S AROUND YOU ARE SAYING ABOUT YOUR CLOTHES
ITS LISTENING TO YOUR OWN MUSIC AND BEING PROUD OF IT
ITS GOING THROUGH EVERY DAY WITH THE THINGS PEOPLE SAY TO YOUR FACE AND BEHIND YOUR BACK AND YOU STILL KEEP QUIET
ITS KNOWING WHAT YOUR "FRIENDS" ARE SAYING ABOUT YOU AND STILL CALLING THEM YOUR FRIENDS
BRAVE IS KNOWING THAT TOMMOROW ISN'T A BRIGHT AND HAPPY FUTURE
ITS ANOTHER DAY OF ING AND DODGING RUMORS
keep on laughing
if you agree put this on ur blog
and advise others to do so
screw THE EMO HATERS

Some people are like slinkies
They have no purpose
But they still bring a smile to your face
When you push them down the stairs


.+.I’m not a bitch . . . I just like being rude.+.
.+.I'm not a sinner . . .I just cant do anything right.+.
.+.I'm not depressed . . I'm just always sad.+.
.+.I'm not crying . . .My eyes are just full of tears.+.
.+.I’m not living . . .I just keep breathing.+.
.+.I'm not a thief . . .I just take what I need.+.
.+.I'm not a slut . . .I just embrace my sexuality.+.
.+.I'm not stupid . . .I just don’t get it.+.
.+.I’m not trying . . .I’ve already given up.+.
.+.I'm not weird . . . I'm just different.+.
.+.I'm not a rebel . . .I just don’t take orders.+.
.+.I'm not worthless . . .I just don’t know my value.+.
.+.I'm not a believer . . .I’ve already lost hope.+.
.+.I'm not a fuck up . . .I just make mistakes.+.
.+.I'm not beautiful . . .Its only skin deep.+.
.+.I'm not emotional . . .I just have a lot of feelings.+.
.+.I'm not a cutter . . .I just found a way to get rid of pain.+.
.+.I'm not immature . . .I'm just growing up.+.
.+.I'm not a quitter . . .I just stop and re-think.+.
.+.I'm not laughing . . .I need to smile first.+.
.+.I'm not impulsive . . .I just act before I think.+.
.+.I'm not obsessed . . .I'm just in love.+.
.+.I'm not perfect . . .I don’t want to be.+.
.+.I'm not ignoring . . .I just choose not to listen.+.
.+.I'm not a gossip . . .I have my own life.+.
.+.I'm not pessimistic . . .I just don’t get my hopes up.+.
.+.I'm not impatient . . .I just don’t like to wait.+.
.+.I'm not happy . . .I do have sparks of joy.+.
.+.I'm not tough . . .I just don’t take shit.+.
.+.I'm not clingy . . .I just wanna be held.+.
.+.I'm not opinionated . . .I just voice what I think.+.
.+.I'm not questioning . . .I just have my doubts.+.
.+.I'm not hiding . . .I just want to disappear.+.


Emos:
*Don’t cut them self to get attention
*Don’t always cry
*Sometimes cry because they hurt
*Are not all bisexual
*Want to be included
*Are not babies
*Don’t always date emos
*Don't lable
*Want to be happy just like others

[if you suport emos or are emo add this to you page]

Goths:
*Don't always wear black
*Don't worship Satan
*Are NOT evil
*Do not want to kill people
*Do not hate everybody
*Are not always depressed
*Can be happy too
*Are usually nice people
*Are normal, just like you

[if you suport goths or are one add this to your page]

"I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.
I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I WEAR SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be hore to them all.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO
I'm a VIRGIN, so I MUST be a prude.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.
I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I don't FLIRT WITH GUYS AT SCHOOL ao I MUST be gay.
I dont like the SUN so I MUST be albino.
I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
I wear BOY'S CLOTHES so I MUST be a lesbian.
I'm POSTING THIS so I MUST be a groupie."
~*Post this in your profile if you think stereotyping is just plain wrong*~


QUOTES:

Support mental health or ill kill you.

Dying is natures way of telling you to slow down.

last year my big problem was identity,
this year it's where to get dynamite.

Adam gave his rib so he didn't have to give women love.

God is great but grass is gentler.

My dear friend,
pass me your hand,
let me cut your
wrist open and show
you what real
pain is like.

My shadow, my tears, my heart,
my blood all belong to me,
But my shadow will still be walked
over, my tears will still be unseen,
my heart will still be broken and
my blood will still flow free.

My wishes never come true,
and my dreams stay just that as
i cross my arms to the world in attempt
to protect my broken heart.

Smiles are no more than,
empty love.

Should I Smile, Cuz Ur My Friend, Or Cry...Cuz That*s All We*ll Ever Be?


A heart is not a play thing
a heart is not a toy
but if u want it broken
just give it to a boy

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put this in your page if you were abused or against it


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When a girl is quiet..
Millions of things are running through her head.
When a girl is not arguing..
She is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks starely at you..
She is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers "I'm Fine"..
She isnt.
When a girl lays her head on your chest..
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl says "i Love You"..
She means it.
And when a girl says she misses you..
No one in this world can miss you more than she does

who would've thought
the girl with the biggest smile on her face everyday
cried herself to sleep [e.v.e.r.y] night
because she knew she wasnt good enough


I remembered what you said.
you told me not to drink, Mom
So I had a Sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself,
the way you said I would,
That I didn't drink and drive,
though some friends said I should.
I made a healthy choice,
and your advice to me was right
as the party finally ended,
and the kids drove out of sight.
I got into my car,
sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming, Mom
something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
The kid that caused this wreck was drunk,"
Mom, His voice seems far away.
My own blood all around me,
as I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
"This girl is going to die."
I'm sure the guy had no idea,
while he was flying high,
because he chose to drink and drive,
now I would have to die.
So why do people do it, Mom
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell sister not to be afraid, Mom
tell daddy to be brave,
and when I go to heaven,
put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.
Someone should have taught him,
that it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter, Mom
I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
and I'm so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me Mom,
as I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say I love you, Mom
So I love you and good-bye.
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A girl and guy were speeding, on a motorcycle, over 90 mph on the road..
Girl: Slow down. I’m scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it’s not. Please, it’s too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It’s bugging me.
(In the paper the next day)
A motorcycle crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn’t want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
If you would ever do this for someone....then post this on your page ASAP!!



HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
REPOST THIS ON YOUR AUTHOR PAGE IF YOU BELIEVE HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!
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For anyone who loves Gerard no matter what colour his hair was.
For anyone who loves that Pansy Frank and was worried when he got sick.
For anyone who has ever fantasied about playing with Ray's hair.
For anyone who got worried when Bob got burnt.
For anyone who cried every single time Gerard got drunk or high.
For anyone who bought MCR's new ablum the very second they could and protect it with their lives.
For anyone who can't watch The Ghost Of You without crying when Mikey gets shot.
For anyone who isn't okay.
For anyone who loves My Chemical Romance with ALL of their black little hearts.
For anyone who didn't just listen to their music, but their lyrics too.
For anyone who thinks they'll die alone.
For anyone who wanted to jump up on stage just to give them hugs.
For anyone who wanted to meet them just to say 'Thank you'
For anyone who wanted them for their advice, not their money
For anyone who wants to say 'I love you' without any remorse.
For anyone who is sick of having their heart broken, or getting hurt.
For anyone who can honestly say that MCR saved their lives.
For anyone who gets exited when someone says "Gerard, Frankie, Bob, Mikey, or Ray."
For anyone who gets exited when someone says "My Chemical Romance or MCR."
For anyone who says I am My Chemical Romance with pride, and with honesty For anyone who will repost this, and actually take the time.
For anyone who is a True MCR fan
For anyone who has had a relative say, "Please no more MCR today!"
For anyone who gets excited/ hyper when they see a random person wearing an MCR shirt down town.
For anyone who will go across the country to see a My Chemical Romance Concert.
For enyone who really listens to them.
For every one who dont know where they'd be with out them,
For anyone who loves them with all their hearts
For every one whos lives changed the moment they heard one song
For every one who would hold a funeral procession at school if MCR broke up

THIS IS FOR YOU!!!

Repost this if you are a true fan of MCR

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~ The Ten Commandments of a Chemical Romance~

1.)Thou shalt not put a gun to thy lovers head

2.)Thou shalt be willing to die for love

3.)Thou shalt seek revenge on those who wrong you

4.)Thou shalt be a demolison lover

5.)Thou shalt unleash the bats

6.)Thou shalt protect thy lover from everything

7.)Thou shalt respect the lord

8.)Thou shalt sing the holy humns of my chemical romance

9.)Though shalt see beauty in bloody love

10)Thou shalt rock hard!! \../