Suffer-in-silence• Show poetry

this is my moto click on it to read it :
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hey!
i go by rose even know my name is Different, only if i get to know you well i

tell you my real name, it's weird but thats me.i also like to play baseball, football, and

basketball. not the typical girl huh? i was born in yonkers spent 2 years there and then

i moved to upstate, Um... i have problems but really who doesnt???

im depressed have been for as long as i can remeber. i believe people should shut their freakin mouths because

they never know when someting will push someone over the edge. i cut, drink, smoke yeah but amazingly im still

a sweet and smart girl, so i've been told i guess you could say im tough

but at the same time sweet and nieve. im a pretty good listener so if you ever need to

talk write me. i started writing because it is the best way i can express sadness and

pain. Also it's a good way to let people know what i think, and not have to deal with

the critizing faces. not that i really care about them but it just pisses me off

sometimes.


THINGS I LIKE:
-music
-my computer
-screaming
-dancing like no one is looking
-singing in the shower (Who doesnt???)
-writing stories
-Living in my head(yeah if you want to find out what i mean read my poem 'in my mind
so much better than reality')
-my pets
-My family
-thunder and lightening
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THINGS I HATE(WITH A PASSION)
-judgmental people
-homework, test,etc.
-Parties
-Cheerleaders*gag* though some r nice(i have heard)
-jocks
-PREPS IN GENERAL
-ppl tht think they r better then u
well this is me
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My AP auntie wrote this you shouls totally read it

- http://allpoetry.com/poem/5851201
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I’m not a bitch . . . I just like being rude.
I'm not a sinner . . .I just cant do anything right.
I'm not depressed . . I'm just always sad.
I'm not crying . . .My eyes are just full of tears.
I’m not living . . .I just keep breathing.
I'm not a thief . . .I just take what I need.
I'm not a slut . . .I just embrace my sexuality.
I'm not stupid . . .I just don’t get it.
I’m not trying . . .I’ve already given up.
I'm not weird . . . I'm just different.
I'm not a rebel . . .I just don’t take orders.
I'm not worthless . . .I just don’t know my value.
I'm not a believer . . .I’ve already lost hope.
I'm not a fuck up . . .I just make mistakes.
I'm not beautiful . . .Its only skin deep.
I'm not emotional . . .I just have a lot of feelings.
I'm not a cutter . . .I just found a way to get rid of pain.
I'm not immature . . .I'm just growing up.
I'm not a quitter . . .I just stop and re-think.
I'm not laughing . . .I need to smile first.+.
I'm not impulsive . . .I just act before I think.
I'm not obsessed . . .I'm just in love.
I'm not perfect . . .I don’t want to be.
I'm not ignoring . . .I just choose not to listen.
I'm not a gossip . . .I have my own life.
I'm not pessimistic . . .I just don’t get my hopes up.
I'm not impatient . . .I just don’t like to wait.
I'm not happy . . .I do have sparks of joy.
I'm not tough . . .I just don’t take shit.
I'm not clingy . . .I just wanna be held.
I'm not opinionated . . .I just voice what I think.
I'm not questioning . . .I just have my doubts.
I'm not hiding . . .I just want to disappear.
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“...Depression is not sobbing and crying and giving vent, it is plain and simple reduction of feeling...People who keep stiff upper lips find that it's damn hard to smile.
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“I drink to stay warm, and to kill selected memories...”
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Her heart may beat,
but that doesn't mean she's alive.
I remember so clearly,
the moment she died...
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Its just another day where i have to fake a smile
Its just another night where i cry myself to sleep
Its just another day where I've made another cut
Its just anothere night where the nightmares feel so real
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I'd rather feel pain
than nothing at all.
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Feeling numb is like when your high, only you feel empty
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normal girl.
i wanna be a normal girl,
so i can run and play...
i wanna be a normal girl,
and dance the night away...

But i'm not a normal girl,
i'm very far from...
i'm the girl you make fun of...
the one you say is dumb..

i'm the girl who slits her wrists,
and the one who always drinks...
I'm the girl who never sleeps,
and the one who always thinks...

i'm the girl out on the playground,
sitting all alone...
the one who bottles up emotions...
the girl with tears not shown...

maybe you should be nice to her,
and start to be her friend...
you never know, you might save her...
and keep her from the end...

(this was wrote by elisabeth-michelle)
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sex,drug, rock&roll
speed, weed, lose control
peace,pot,tequila shot,
jesus loves us stoned or not
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SHIT happens
mostly too me so dont worry
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if you had a life you'd
stop talking about mine
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pretty girls turn head
my girls break necks