Today
Jack McPhee
Today. Today was a day.
The world got smaller, darker.
I grew more afraid.
Not of what I am, but of what
I could be.
I loosen my collar to take a
breath.
My eyes fade.
And I see...Him.
The image of perfection.
His frame strong, his lips
smooth.
And I keep thinking, What am
I so afraid of?
I wish I could escape the
pain,
but these thoughts invade my
head.
Bound to my memory, they're
like shackles of guilt.
Oh, God, please set me free.
Free from the pain and this
guilt
So that I may face
Tomorrow
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Honestly, I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm going to end up alone, with no one to love in the world. I'm scared that I'm always going to be someone's role model or classmate or friend, I'm scared that I'm never going to be someone's everything.
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Looking for someone to be with is harder than trying to capture one droplet of water out of a rain storm in between your fingers and keeping the droplet’s surface tension.
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I'm a genderqueer transboi going to college in the midwest. If you want to know something message me.
Jack McPhee
Today. Today was a day.
The world got smaller, darker.
I grew more afraid.
Not of what I am, but of what
I could be.
I loosen my collar to take a
breath.
My eyes fade.
And I see...Him.
The image of perfection.
His frame strong, his lips
smooth.
And I keep thinking, What am
I so afraid of?
I wish I could escape the
pain,
but these thoughts invade my
head.
Bound to my memory, they're
like shackles of guilt.
Oh, God, please set me free.
Free from the pain and this
guilt
So that I may face
Tomorrow
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Honestly, I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm going to end up alone, with no one to love in the world. I'm scared that I'm always going to be someone's role model or classmate or friend, I'm scared that I'm never going to be someone's everything.
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Looking for someone to be with is harder than trying to capture one droplet of water out of a rain storm in between your fingers and keeping the droplet’s surface tension.
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I'm a genderqueer transboi going to college in the midwest. If you want to know something message me.
- Last seen on Jul 13 10:32 PM 2008. Member since July 22, 2004.
- I'm a carnelian hope poet for 106 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is "I'm am so tired of being alone in this world.".
- I am a 20 year old person (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm a full time student working in retail..
- I have 106 comments
My Poetry
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Wanting more than is there Wanting more than there is12 lines, July 13, 2008. In Angst, Trandgender
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You never remember how much it hurt.
You never remember how you swore “never again”.19 lines, 1 comment, December 2, 2006
My Stories
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Jason laid awake in his bed, like he did every night. He stared up at the white ceiling and wondered why he was here. He wondered more of why he was there. He
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Guest Book
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shadesofnothing on August 26, 2006Hey there big Campus college kid.. Don't forget all us poor jeffco kids
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Chaos Galaxy on July 17, 2006hey, how are things...haven't heard from you in a while.
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Chaos Galaxy on September 20, 2005Well...I'm sorry that you don't want to leave high school. I remember last year when you wanted to quit. 8 months...wow...what more can I say than congrats! I'm very proud of you. I'm planning on comming to the last game to see you all. I bet by then the show will be great!!! I can tell you're really worried about things right now and I just want to say keep your chin up. Through some of the hardest times come some of the most memorable memories. Don't worry about what might happen YEARS down the road, enjoy everything around you and impress it upon your memory. I hope the year goes well for you and I wish you luck in all of your future endeavors (of all kinds).
Lilo
