SpyderWebsNSexDreams• Show poetry

I don't really think there is a way to describe me. I am my own person, an anomaly. I like total opposites, but I like everything even. I love to have fun, listen to music (while singing along), I love doing karaoke, and I love reading. Right now I am kinda unsure of where I am at in my life. I actually feel a little lost, and that is REALLLY scary! Pretty much over the past month and a half things have turned totally upside down in my life! I thought I knew how I was and I thought I was happy, and for the most part I am a happy person. But I feel this whole inside of me... I don't really know how to explain it but its like this never-ending hole. Sometimes I feel like the claws of desparation and hollowness are raking across my skin in an attempt to bleed me dry. It just seems like I am always feeling down and out. It scares me to feel this way. I guess in some ways I am looking for ways to fill this void, I think I always have been trying to but never realized my own intentions. I know I have tried many different things and nothing seems to work. The closest thing that ever came to filling the whole was a guy I loved and I thought loved me back, and if you read some of my more recent poems that have love somewhere written in the title then you will probably figure it all out. He never really loved me though he fooled me into believing he did, then he just called me his side girl while he laughed in my face. Since then I have noticed the hole inside of me even more. I feel so depressed and I just kinda walk around in a haze and put on a happy face so no one will realize whats going on in my head. This site has helped me a lot to sort through my feelings and see whats going on in my head. I can't be more thankful that its here. I have some many things and feelings and ideas here. I don't know anyone on here, and I assume thats just as well, but I am glad to know that there are other people there and occassionally they run across me and my hope is that my poetry moves them, may it be tears, laughter, anger, sadness, or joy... I take pleasure that someone can relate or appreciate what I have here. If you read any of my poetry I am very open to hearing what you have to say about it and how it effected you and any interpretation you have of it. And lastly if you took the time to read all this babble that I wrote thank you!

xoxo,
Lexi

"I only wished to be heard and remembered by you."
~ME! lol