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The names Jamie...

The scars refuse to fade
As I hang my head in shame
Knowing I can't go back and change
... Myself... My life...
+~*~+ E V E R Y T H I N G +~*~+


MY HEART IS DEAD AND SO ARE YOU...

If love grows so deep to which one cannot describe then theres no point in trying to explain something that doesn't measure up to what one truely means...

F*CK YOU!---> ‹^› ‹(•¿•)› ‹^›

ROCK ON!!!  \m/ (*.*) \m/

~ReMeMbEr~tHe~GoOd~TiMeS~nOt~ThE~bAd~
~ReMeMbEr~tHe~HaPpY~nOt~ThE~sAd~
~rEmEmBeR~tHe~LaUgtHeR~nOt~ThE~tEaRs~
~rEmEmBeR~eAcH~sMiLe~FoRmEd~OvEr~ThE~yEaRs!
~***AND NEVER FORGET!***~

HEY GUYS, MY OTHER SITE NAME ON HERE IS *SIZZLINFLIRT* SO YOU CAN CHECK THAT OUT. SUM 1 GOT MY P/W SUM HOW AND CHANGED IT, SO I CAN'T GO UNDER MY OLD SITE SO I MADE THIS ONE. THERE'S MORE POEMS ON MY OLD ONE THAT R PROLLY BETTER SO CHECK THEM OUT TOO OK? THX!

I am a 15 year old. I can be very sarcastic and sum ppl take that the wrong way. Yes, i have a lot of sarcasm but Its not my fault...anyway, I'm in high school now. I used to be a very happy person. I used to be able to try anything and do pretty well at it. Then sum stuff happened to me, and I got mad about it. but i held all my anger inside. That just made things worse and I became always angry and depressed. Nothing pleased me. Then everything starting falling apart. At home with family, at skewl with ppl and friends. everywhere. I regret a lot of stuff i did while I was in my "depression stage" or punk/gothic stage as well. I turned to satan and questioned God's ways...
Then over summer and the starting of high school I was a sorta happy/lost person. I'm trying to regain what I lost. And i'm trying to be happy with who i am and who i'm becoming. at times i am. Other times i just break down and want to be that happy person who knew very little about drugs and alcohol and other depressing things...but this is life. I still regret each scar that I've made... So i have turned my back on my past. Never to think of it much. And try to forget about it. Just living one day after another just thinking of a reason, any reason, to smile. When i do it makes me happy. Thats why i see the upside to things. Thinking of how much my life really sucks in reality is pointless. I think my life is great, becuz i live in a fantasy world now. If i want sumthin to be happy it will be. No more dreading the days as they go by. No more watching them go by in bitter emotion. I live life now. No time to watch the days go by I'm usually busy doing sumthing.
I love all my friends. I have re-connected with God. We're at a kinda shakey relationship but thats my buissness. I just hope my friends stick by my side. I would say my friends are the most important to me. Thats what i cherish most i believe. Well i know this whole lil couple paragraphs were dull and pointless but I just put myself out there and see what i get as the feedback. Gotta go Over N Out ~Jamie~

*+~EDIT~+
*Well here I am now. Still trying to be a happy person. I feel Im falling away from God again...but Im going to try and pick myself up before i end up like i was before. I walk the path of life in silence. I used to be so outgoing and joyful. I could make anyone and everyone laugh. I was inmature when having fun but mature enough to know when to stop. Now...i guess life just floats by me. I can't say I have a lot of friends. I used to. BUt I let it all slip through my fingers. I should have stayed strong and fought the battles that i faced. Instead i ran and i hid and i cried. I never knew someone could be so alone in this world until I hit high school.

*I fell in love once...with a guy named Taylor. At first i thought he was just another boy that made me happy. But i grew deeper feelings for him. We've been apart of each others lives for about 2 and a half years now. We'd go out and break up, go out and break up. For some reason I feel I've lost him forever this time. And maybe so...High school is molding me into something I don't want to be. Its hard to face the things you cant conquer but what more do you have left? right? Well I think I'll go now...Im just another kid drifting through life trying to find myself. I've been down this road before but it seems I cant escape it. Or maybe I just don't have the strength to...

*~My Favorite Bands:~
As I lay Dying
Atreyu
Bleeding Through
Cradle Of Filth
Darkest Hour
Disturbed
It Dies Today
Korn
Marvella
Mudvayne
My Chemical Romance
Otep
Seether
Senses Fail
Slipknot
System Of A Down
The Bled
The Suicide Machines

~My Favorite Songs:~
B.O.Y.B.
Duality
Enter Sandman
Everything Ends
Happy?
I'm Not Okay
Make Me Bad
Nymphetamine
Over and Over Again
Remedy
Save Me
Stricken
Sur Facing
The Crimson
The Heretic Anthem
The Rememberance Ballad
Trash
Vermillion pts 1 & 2
Wait And Bleed

~My Favorite Movies:~
Achorman
Amityville Horror
Constantine
Forest Gump
Hide And Seek
Hitch
Kicking And Screaming
**KING KONG**
Kung Pow
Odd Girl Out
Scary Movie I,II, and III
Speak
Starsky And Hutch
Steven Kings 'Kingdom Hospital'
Steven Kings 'Rose Red'
Taxes Chainsaw Mascare
The Notebook
*Thirteen*
Zoolander

Jack and Jill went up the hill to smoke sum marajuana, Jack got high unzipped his fly, and asked Jill if she wanna, Jill sed yes, took off her dress and they had sum fun, stupid Jill forgot hur pill, and out popped a son!!!!!! ~iLoVeThAtSaYiNg

Beat me down, Like you always do,
Push me away, Cause I still hate you,        
Cut me open, And watch me bleed,          
For you are my addiction, I remorsefully need.

The one thing I cherish is God, But right below him are my friends. They come before school, family, and sports. Without my friends I would be a lost soul in this broken world called life. I currently have nothing more to say! Oh...maybe one thing....LOVE SUX AZZ MAN!

Before you make a choice to do something, think about what the results will be, and most of all....ask yourself why.

*LOVE ME...
THAT'S ALL I ASK FROM THIS WORLD SO COLD AND EMPTY...
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*~*MY LIL' SAYINGS...I MADE UP MOST OF THEM. SUM I DIDN'T THO!*~*

sUm TiMeS yOu HaVe To SiN iN OrDeR tO kEeP a SiN fRoM hApPeNiNg!

You ripped my heart right out of my chest, Then you tore it up to pieces, You threw it on the ground, Kicked it around, You stepped on it and squashed it, Spit on it with hate, Then you left it there to rot as you turned and walked away, without a care!

Love hurts us all...You're not the only one...

I get jealous when someone hugs you, Cause for that split second...They were holding my whole world!

Never regret anything that once made you smile, Cause at one point, It was exactly what you wanted.

If you love someone, Put a circle around their name, not a heart, because a heart can be broken, But a circle will go round forever and never break.

Screw paper and sizzors...ROCK RULES!

Your eyes were put on the front of your head for a purpose...So you can look ahead, instead at what's already passed.

NEVER say NEVER, and NEVER say ALWAYS, because you will ALWAYS have something that NEVER ends up happening!

When you lose something big in your life, Keep your chin up, Because you will always gain something else...Whether you realize it or not!

Don't hate the playa, Hate yourself for lettin' him play you like dat!

You'll never know what will happen, Unless you go for it...Otherwise you'll always be wondering "what if..."

Don't hate the sk8r, Hate the trick he can't do!

Boiz are like parking spots, the good ones are already taken, as for the rest....are handicapped!

Begin each day with a smile...and get it over with!

Break ups can be like cuts...The Pain will go away, But the scar will always remind you of what happened.

If you love someone, then let them go, and if they truley love you, then they will keep coming back to you.

If you love me, then let me know, But if your not sure, then let me go!

I will stop loving God the day that I see my sins upon that cross, and the feeling Jesus felt when he died for our sins....That's when I'll stop loving god!

Life's like a roller coaster, It's thrilling, yet has it's ups and downs!

You can learn a lot about someone by reading thier poetry...sometimes you can't. People pose....So maybe you have to look deeper than that!

Don't go through life feeling sorry for yourself, perk up, make the best of things, and your reward will be waiting at the end.

If YoU cAn CoNqUeR fEaR, tHeN yOu HaVe CoNqUeReD dEaTh!

Memories are the sum of all those good times!

Know money as paper, Because anything more, can coast you everything you've gained.

LeT's GeT lEnT aNd JuMp OfF sOmEtHiNg!

Cherish the friends you have, instead of just trying to make more, Otherwise, you may end up with no friends at all.

Life is made up of BEER, DRUGS, SEX...AND MORE BEER!!!! YEAH!

~~~I wOuLdN't Do *+A N Y T H I N G+* tO hUrT u, i JuSt WiSh ThE fEeLiNg WaS -|-MUTUAL-|- E><3~~~

--SLIPKNOT--
((Vermillion pt 2.))
She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame.
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, Shes a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

A catch in my throat
choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, nO!
I don't wanna be this...

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

She isn't real
I can't make her real
She isn't real
I can't make her real


heres my other favorite song. its not rock tho (suprisingly) its a soft love song that makes me think of that one i've lost and it makes me cry everytime...

--BRANDY--
((Have You Ever...))
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You don't do anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've givin your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta do to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Coz baby I can't sleep...

*WHY THE \FUCK\ IS THIS WORLD SO LONELY WHEN WE HAVE SO MANY WHO SUFFER THE _SAME_ AS US? WHY THE \FUCK\ IS IT SO COLD WHEN LOVE IS HERE TO _WARM _OUR HEARTS? WHY THE \FUCK\ DO I HURT SO BADLY WHEN THE ONLY THING THAT REALLY HURT ME WAS _YOU_?...
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