I'm a 15 year old girl, and I live in Malaysia, but I am hungarian..i started writing poetry to let my feelings out..I'm not really an open person, its hard for me to talk about my problems, so I guess that's why I like AP so much..I can express myself freely without having to worry about anything..
about me:
I just want to be happy
I want to find someone who loves me for who I am and not how I look like
I want to be free - but now i'm living in a lonely freedom, which is not that good
I like to meet new people
I don't like to talk
I love to listen
I like to solve other people's problems..though I am unable to solve my own problems..
I hate to argue, but if I feel I'm treated unjustly, I can argue 'till I'm satisified
I've been used and heartbroken 3 times - now i have 'trust issues'
I have a bestfriend who also writes poems - Alex [broken animosity]
I like to play basketball
I love rain
I love storms
I like to walk
I like people with good advice
I'm looking for someone who cares and understands
"Why? Why does what was beautiful suddenly shatter in hindsight becasue it concealed dark truth? Why does the memory of years of happy marriage turn to gall when our partner is revealed to have had a lover all those years? Because such a situation makes it impossible to be happy? But we were happy! Sometimes the memory of happiness cannot stay true because it ended unhappily. Because happiness is only real if it lasts forever? Because things always end painfully if they contained pain, conscious or unconscious, all along? But what is unconscious, unrecognized pain?" (37-38)
- The Reader, Bernhard Schlink
"There's nothing ever wrong, but nothing's ever right, such a cruel contradiction"
- Burning Bright, Shinedown
I guess I've always been waiting..waiting to grow up..waiting for my first love..but now im waiting for the end of my life..
S.C
My first contest:
1st - Shatter by Remambrance Lane
2nd - madness and evolution by sarah nyc
3rd - Kilometre 43 by Blue Misery
and the honorable mentions:
Vinidictive Farewell by ceXcee
I Felt Like a Pricess by D P Robertson
When did you see by tear stained pillow
Banger by Death Angel 666
Forgotten Mother by Honeydew
Hidden Tears by incapable
The Perfect Ending by incapable
To reach out by xXPoeticTragedyXx
Ed, How could you by -Sexy-Mary-
Let go by AloneAgain
Another Heartbreak by MetallicxRose
Just a memory by rose blood 87
S.C
My second contest:
1st - Winter Wonderland by -Silenced Dreams-
2nd - A Windy Winter by Ativan
3rd - Short Reminder by shortrocker911
S.C
Trophies:
gold: Love Suicide, My dark little corner, The Fall
silver: Reflected in the Mirror
bronze: Dream, Locked Forever, Reality
S.C
about me:
I just want to be happy
I want to find someone who loves me for who I am and not how I look like
I want to be free - but now i'm living in a lonely freedom, which is not that good
I like to meet new people
I don't like to talk
I love to listen
I like to solve other people's problems..though I am unable to solve my own problems..
I hate to argue, but if I feel I'm treated unjustly, I can argue 'till I'm satisified
I've been used and heartbroken 3 times - now i have 'trust issues'
I have a bestfriend who also writes poems - Alex [broken animosity]
I like to play basketball
I love rain
I love storms
I like to walk
I like people with good advice
I'm looking for someone who cares and understands
"Why? Why does what was beautiful suddenly shatter in hindsight becasue it concealed dark truth? Why does the memory of years of happy marriage turn to gall when our partner is revealed to have had a lover all those years? Because such a situation makes it impossible to be happy? But we were happy! Sometimes the memory of happiness cannot stay true because it ended unhappily. Because happiness is only real if it lasts forever? Because things always end painfully if they contained pain, conscious or unconscious, all along? But what is unconscious, unrecognized pain?" (37-38)
- The Reader, Bernhard Schlink
"There's nothing ever wrong, but nothing's ever right, such a cruel contradiction"
- Burning Bright, Shinedown
I guess I've always been waiting..waiting to grow up..waiting for my first love..but now im waiting for the end of my life..
S.C
My first contest:
1st - Shatter by Remambrance Lane
2nd - madness and evolution by sarah nyc
3rd - Kilometre 43 by Blue Misery
and the honorable mentions:
Vinidictive Farewell by ceXcee
I Felt Like a Pricess by D P Robertson
When did you see by tear stained pillow
Banger by Death Angel 666
Forgotten Mother by Honeydew
Hidden Tears by incapable
The Perfect Ending by incapable
To reach out by xXPoeticTragedyXx
Ed, How could you by -Sexy-Mary-
Let go by AloneAgain
Another Heartbreak by MetallicxRose
Just a memory by rose blood 87
S.C
My second contest:
1st - Winter Wonderland by -Silenced Dreams-
2nd - A Windy Winter by Ativan
3rd - Short Reminder by shortrocker911
S.C
Trophies:
gold: Love Suicide, My dark little corner, The Fall
silver: Reflected in the Mirror
bronze: Dream, Locked Forever, Reality
S.C
- Last seen on Oct 1 8:26 AM 2007. Member since May 17, 2005.
- I'm a lapisLazuli dream poet for 322 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is live as if every second was your last.
- I am a 15 year old girl (Malaysia)
- When I'm not writing, I'm a day dreamer.
- Visit my homepage at silent_committer.blogs.friendster.com
- I am in the groups Poesia En Espanol, a circle of light
- I have 322 comments, 4 contests, 1 column
My Poetry
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I leave the white walls
The sadness and the quiet71 lines, 17 comments, September 3, 2006. In Personal -
Here is where you want to be
In my dream, in my memories:20 lines, 6 comments, September 3, 2006. In Love
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Jennifer Petersen on November 29, 2005*FOR THE CONTEST* #: NO OPTION.
*QUOTE*"i do not know you anymore, i never knew you anyways"
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a b s i n t h e on November 2, 2005Haha that's alright. You got a new word out of it and so did I!
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Sidewalk-Rampage on October 14, 2005You are a really good poetry writer. I read some of it and was blown away. I will comment them when I get the chance because now I am extremly tired and it is 2:36 AM.
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broken animosity on September 20, 2005OMG. RITA TOTH. Do not ever do that to me again! You sounded so serious, and I was like. GASPING FOR AIR. Ayo, chica... =( I actually thought you meant it. And for a second, it tore me in two. I dunno wat I would have done if you didnt write that last comment. Thanks for writing it, I hope that doesnt change.
Youre mine too. <3...--B.F.4.E
