Shiny-Immaterialism• Show poetry

EDIT: So I felt my name was a hindrance on here; very easy to forget, hard to pronounce, hard to spell, and a possible turn-off for my works. SO! Meet the new Shiny-Immaterialism. =] Slightly less difficult to spell. I was going to be all alliterate (sounds like illiterate and means pretty much alliteration-y) and say something like Impending-Immaterialism but I dunno... I wanted to imply it was bright, shiny, new immaterialism, not old stuff. :] And I like shiny things. (Not to mention that name is too long )

OLD: So I felt the need to completely start anew on all poetry with this name change. My old page was a mess of caked on layers written and rewritten and added to until it was no longer a picture of myself, but a confusing collage of bits and images in thick oil paints. So let me begin at the beginning, now: Hello.

For anyone who thinks my new name is annoying: sorry. For those who think my new user name is confusing, well, that's because it's in japanese, and for your convenience you may call me Kelsey. This name is practically my new/old identity, but it has a new meaning to me recently, and so the name has also transformed. For those looking for a translation: Kirei = Pretty/ Beautiful. Aka = Red. Yuki = Snow. Tsuki = Moon. No = of. (note, the Tsukino part, being japanese, actually is translated as 'of the moon', and not 'moon of'.) If anyone fluent in Japanese (or even not) knows that my name ACTUALLY doesn't mean this, I would greatly appreciate telling me what this ACTUALLY says and how to ACTUALLY say Pretty Red Snow of the Moon.

As you might have guessed I am extremely into Japanese things, and I am not as naive as I was when I first started this account to believe I am unique in my interest in the pop-culture nation. Still my interest doesn't lessen, in fact it makes me want to learn more or know more than just anime and manga so I am not just normal American otaku.

Besides Japan I do have other interests, MANY, in fact. So many that I have no idea what I am going to do once I get out of school. Something psychology related I hope. My Interest in school subjects include english, art, science, a little bit of math too, and I do enjoy my Spanish one class =]. Other things that really interest me are different languages. I freaking love hidden meanings and deciphering codes so I guess that's why I want to learn/speak another language, and also why I make up my own. So... I'm thinking an interpretter might be a good job for me . Of course, then there's also psychology-sciencey-artsy things, like this one thing my friend (Simply Abstract) and I do (besides LOSING THE GAME! PAYBACK! ^-^ ) where we listen to a song and relate back the colors we "see" when we listen to it. For the most part the colors are the same or similar and while she does it based on the scale or notes used in the song (freaking amazing that she can tell) I go purely on ... well, what I see. I have no idea how I find the colors. Maybe it's the same method, but just unconscious. So... I guess you would call that experimental psychology... with a hint of lemon(art)? *shrugs* And all kinds of stuff like that interests me. Just the label "Experimental Psychology... with ART" interests me. *shakes head*.

And then there's also writing, drawing/painting/etc., photography, I could do stuff with math, Psychology, OR science, I could teach, OH, and something I forgot earlier, I really enjoy playing video games, and I would absolutely LOVE to make my own (or atleast come up with the world, concept, storyline, characters, fighting style, weapons, etc. etc., someone ELSE could MAKE it (program-wise) for all I care. But I would have to be in charge of the art and story...etc. TT-TT so much!) so ...yeah. That's a TON of COULD's. Rawr.

So... music, =]
[Band/"Favorite Song By Them"]
[Dir en grey/"Kodou" or "Merciless Cult" or "Filth"], [Girugamesh/"[Shoujo A]"], [Disturbed/right now it's "Inside the Fire"], ["The Parade Song" and "Girl in Byakkoya" from the movie Paprika], [Mae/"Reflections"], [Madina Lake/"True Love"], [Maximum the Hormone/"Louisiana Bob" or "Koi no Mega Lover"], [Pensive/"What Dreams May Come"], [Dragon Force/ "Inside the Winter Storm" (Maybe)], [Malice Mizer/ "Syunikiss"], [D'espairs Ray+/ "Mirror"], [Orange Range/ "Lights" and "O2"], [Three Days Grace/ "Animal I have Become" or "Over and Over" or "Let You Down" (<-- #1 on songs-stuck-in-my-head list)], [Apocalyptica feat. Adam Gontier/ "I Don't Care"], [Korn], [Panic! At the Disco/ "Intermission" (lol) OR "Time to Dance"], [Fair to Midland/ "(When The Bough Breaks) Say When"], [Celldweller/ "Own Little World(?)"], [Imogen Heap/ "Say Goodnight and Go"], [Breaking Benjamin/ "Evil Angel" or "Dance With the Devil" or "Unkown Soldier" (I pretty much love all of Breaking Benjamin <3)], [Paramore].

I think that pretty much covers it...

SONG LYRICS =]

Merciless Cult - Diru<3 (in English of course)
"The pessimistic you The merciless you
And the self-loving you, What are you looking at?

With comparing and getting things in proportion you scream out mad
You wanted this ending to happen
You must be a romanticist

But I just remembered that there is no love here
Over and Over somewhere begins to break

Please love me, this blood and the meaning
Please love me, this day and this value

gasp for breath "

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EDIT: My romantic situation: So... some stuff has happened. I had a fling over the internet, which is the cause of "Freezing" and "The Dropped Bobbin," but sadly it has now ended after it had gotten sorta serious. But he realized I liked someone else, someone from real life who I could actually see and be with, and he considered what was best for me, told me to go for it, to tell him how I felt because he thought that the guy liked me too. I told him he was wrong, that I had spent way too long on the guy anyways, but he told me to just tell him and see what happens.

So I told him. And... apparently my friend was right. But we're kinda just sitting here now like "...o-o... what now?" "...idk..." So, what will happen next? I wonder.