Shayde• Show poetry

They call me Shay.
I am the result of what's left unspoken.

I might not make sense sometimes,
I speak fluent Shaynglish.
So bare with me.

I'm just that quiet girl in the corner of the room. Get to know me and that will quickly change, I can be rather crazy when I warm up. I'm 22 years young, and hating the real world but dealing with it just like everyone else. I'm a born northerner with Jersey pride, yet I hate the state. I can sometimes be one big walking contradiction if you haven't noticed already, but it makes life more interesting.

Veritas vos liberabit.

I daydream often which does not mean I am not in reality.. most just need to open their eyes and realize that reality is deeper than what you see. I have been questioning my own existence since I was a child, and I am always in search of where I truly belong.. don't be surprised if you see me staring at the sky for hours. Most think I am just trying to "avoid reality" and call me strange, crazy, unrealistic.. but this is my reality and I call it being awake. I am often summed up by many as "the light in the darkness". I am really not as dark as I appear sometimes, I just find comfort here.

"I know nothing with any certainty,
But the sight of stars make me dream."
-Vincent Van Gogh

Music is my life, I am one of those people that will continuously change the song to fit their mood, haha. Take it away from me and I will start to go through withdrawals and shake furiously. That is not dramatized at all either, I promise you that. Music has brought me strength at times where I thought there was nothing left, and it has become a very important necessity in my life.

"Life kicks you around sometimes. It scares you and beats you up. But there is one day when you realize, you are not just a survivor.. you're a fighter. You're tougher than anything that life throws your way. And you are.."

I'm what you call 'artsy fartsy' at times. I love to write, especially poetry and lyrics. I really want to get more into my writing and make it into a career one day since my childhood dreams of being a rock star failed horribly. But as long as I have music in my life I'll make it through just fine. I will always be looking from the corner of my eye for opportunities though, I miss singing..

"I'd like to travel back to when the summer of love seemed about to re-write all the rules forever. I really need more time to slow down and to be myself, and sometimes I wish I could be an artist, messing around with media and materials, really doing something new. I'd like to see into the future, and find you can change it after all, and it would be amazing to see the haunted side of Europe at some point in my life. Right now I would adore a party with a group of interesting people, maybe at a music festival, and I'd invite a vampire to liven things up a bit."

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"So crucify the ego, before it's far too late,
And leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical,
And you will come to find that we are all one mind,
Capable of all that's imagined and all conceivable.
So let the light touch you and let the words spill through.
Just let them pass right through bringing out our hope and reason,
Before we pine away."
-Tool

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"The Garden of Eden that has been spoken about is a reality. It is an understanding of the Beauty that we behold in ourselves. It is the world beyond duality. When all is One. When we recognize the beauty in ourselves and we recognize the same beauty reflected in another, it is paradise.

When we become separate, we see the points that make us separate, the things that make us different, we then see this as a negative rather than a point of beauty. Like the flowers in the garden, each flower radiates beauty in a different way. It is because we have the different flowers that make this a garden of beautiful flowers. The difference enhances the beauty of this wonderful garden.

Religion was never meant to separate people as the word means to "bind together again". But mankind found a way of separating themselves from others even in the gift of this unity. So strive to be at one with All people for you are all one - you are mankind - humankind. We made color a form our beauty and you have seen it as a way of separation. When you stop feeling separate from other creeds and realize you are a part of earth, that is a small dot in the Universe, that is part of many beings in the Galaxies, you will begin to see that we all are working for the same end..

Unconditional Love for everything. The Beauty of the stars and planets and the connectedness with the Life Forces on every level and on every planet in the Galaxies. Then the love and energy will flow and you will experience the joy and bliss and truth of your Being."
- A message from the Arcturians.

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