I'm a laid back individual. I dont wanna say I'm messed up in the head but sometimes I take extreme measures. My dad died when I was young from cancer. I never cared for my mom much. I'm 19 and I've never been in a relationship, never been on a date, never been kissed. Yay Me! Seriously.....I'm anti - relationships. I've loved before. All it does is get you into trouble and make you depressed. I attempted suicide at the age of 7 and succeeded. I just recently laid off the cutting and meds. I feel better. I've been writing since I got into THOSE things which was age 13 so most of my writing is on love, suicide, anti - family, anti - friends, drugs......anything horrible. I advise you to keep that in mind when reading any of my poems.
The only thing I can not stand in this crappy world is ppl who tell other ppl that what they do is wrong, i.e. ppl who cut or act out on depression. They have no right to judge someone when they have no idea how their life is. Even if their life dont seem too bad, its a psychological warfare in the eyes of another.
I basically dont have a life. I cant get a job and I hate school, it helped contribute to who I am. I am a product of my environment but at the end of the day its only my fault and my issue.
I'm open about any and everything so feel free to talk to me anytime.
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i love her vivid style of writing. also if anyone upsets her i will find u and kick her ass. have a nice day.
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- I'm a carnelian hope poet for 139 comments.
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, and quote is "I'm Falling Through The Vortex Of My Memories...". - I am a 19 year old girl from Michigan (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm trapped in my head or my headphones..
- Visit my homepage at www.myspace.com/benjilover9young
- I have 139 comments, 1 contest, 27 poems, 1 story, 14 journals
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Everything in my life was ideal, but as some say, all good things must come to an end.
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so i'm about to relive a very dark part of my life which occured a few years ago. i figured it'd be best if i kept everyone away. its been two and a half months since i took pills and about a month since i've cut. today i tried to tell my mom by making her watch things that relate to me but based on her comments, i d
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i can no longer write. i cant continue on. its gotten to the point where i cannot sleep at night due to my nightmares. i kno ur thinkin what does this have to do with writing? i learned last nite that the only time i'm plagued with nightmares is when i write. for example, last nite i was listening to william control
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i did it once before. its no biggie to me really . the only reason i'm still here at this moment is cuz i need to make sure my best friend will be okay when i do depart . its the least i could do. i've been mean to him, mainly cuz he's the only one who really gives a damn and shows it .June 13, 500 words. → 5 comments, Add one?
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poetryismylove : Yo whats up on May 29Hey thanks for checking out my page and a few of my poems your page is awsome and I love your poems i read all of them so far look forwards to more hit me back
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Cannot.Be.Forsaken on May 14ur awesome
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Emoforever : cool on May 4I Like ur poems i am being honest i like all of them.
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WastedCrimsonTears on April 20hey your page is totally awesome..
i love about the things you talk about.
*so true!*
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well anyways..very nice page & i'd be checkin out your poems afterwards
take care
