RosePetalRadiance-x• Show poetry

 and no matter what I'm at pease with myself

Because sometimes you gotta stick of out of the crowd

Ello there I'm watching fresh prince!!!!  

I did this on my iPod so there might be a few mistakes, but everyone makes them, lol my name is RosePetalRadiance-x. My real name is a mestery, care to figure out

A lot of people at my school think I’m weird except for my small group of friends. Every one thinks there’s something wrong with me; they all say I’m not normal. But you can't define normal, everyone that's true to themselves and the world has there own views and styles. Think again before you call someone a poser, they might just be themselves, and you might be missing out on being friends with someone who will be there for you when the world goes to hell.

Me and my friends come up with the stupidest names for each other like:




-yoki
-lala
-ditzy
-poe
-smurf
and other things lol I love them with all my heart! oh and we love biting each each randomly to shut people up like this

 

I'm a loner and somewhat of a nerd but i love nerds and they love me so i'm glad
my mother somewhat forced me into my own mind. : ( (
In my world I'm living in my own place with my best friend and boyfriend but in reality I'm just a 14 year old girl who's family doesn't seem to care about.

I could spend forever reading and listening to music. My favorite song at the moment is 15 Steps by Radiohead.
And I'm currently reading Two Way Street by Lauren Barnholdt, A Great And Terrible Beauty, Rebel Angels, The Sweet Far Thing
.

I wish I had the fairy tale love like in twilight, but not for the reason teenage girls do, but because what they have is real. Nothing can break the love share, I just want someone to love me the way Bella & Edward love each other


Random Stuff about Me:

Instrument: I'm learning to play the guitar
Food: I don't eat much but I’m getting into different foods (being a vegetarian has its perks)
Fruit: Any will do
Jumba Jucie: Mango a go go
Show: I like watching and pregnant and that's so 70's show but I love a lot of other shows so I don't really have a favorite show
Movie: Twilight, Alice in wonderland, holes, Edward Scissorhands, and many others
Song: it changes from day to day but at the moment I love and I mean Love 15 steps by Radiohead
Friend:....I don't have any friends......and I just lost my boyfriend.....
Movie line that makes me laugh and say aww: hold on spider monkey
Band: fall out boy, Radiohead, my chemical romance, paramore, iron and wine, muse, chasing victory, Stars, and many others
Time of day: midnight
Hair color: black, brown (I'm about to dye it black, blonde, and multi color)
Shoes I'm wearing: air walk
Body type: I'm a little chubby
Hated food: I hate a lot of foods but I really don’t like cookies 

SECRETS (my real secrets I can't tell unless I know your my friend):

-sometimes I dream about cutting because my mom is so harsh on me
-Im an addict to wearing hoodies because I'm very sensitive and hoodies keep me safe and allow me to hide and sunk into my mind with no one noticing
-I bite my lip till I bleed when people hurt me
-Im not atractted to boys or girls..seriously I think both genders are a major turn off to me....
-my mother makes me cry on a daily bases and when I try and talk to her about it she yells at me....
-I'm starving myself because when people hurt me I end up losing my will to eat and I'm no longer hungry but full
-I want to move away from parents because they're literaly destroying my life....
-when people hurt me I get a literaly heart break...I can feel my heart actually breaking

Go ahead, Look away.
Spit on the lives of the people you refuse to understand.
Vomit on the graves of those who die young;
the heartache and the tears shed
will never be enough to wash away your vile judgements.
Choke on your discrimination.
What kind of life is a life lived
Pushed up against a wall,
and being told how to live?
What kind of a decent life
is a life filled only with black eyes,
fat lips and broken hearts...?
Now you tell me who deserves to die.

i miss staying up till 4 a.m waiting till tha bars close so we can stand outside and hold up signs and wait for people to honk at us and throw glow sticks at us... [[&& revv there engines at us(=]]
i miss staying up all nyte making pointless videos and walking around the town.
i miss falling down the stairs on those crazy nites.
i miss sumo wrestlinn with pillows in our tummies(=
i miss our pinky promise at the end of the year.. even know we all knew we wouldn't ever be able to keep it.
i miss swimming in those little baby pool's and actyn lyke a lifeguard.
i miss just talking and talking and talking all day without getting sick of what the other person is sayingg.
i miss doing stupid stuff for absolutely no reason.
i miss our phone number contests
i miss meeting random people and making em our friends.
i miss all the goofy pictures.
i even miss all of the sad times, cause we all always helped eachother get through everything.
i miss pretending to sleep.. and always snoringgi miss taking n.a.p.s aka (piss tests) i miss partyinggg all the timee.
i miss skittles in the ice creammi miss crackers and mayonaisee.
i miss sitting on the rooftopss.
i miss dancing in the rain.
i miss our dead fish facess.
i miss going to panda express and trynna eat with our gloves on.
i miss slidin on the little ice patch.
i miss jumping on the bed and wrestlinnn.
i miss everything like it used to be when it was the perfect summer.
those are memories i will never forgettt && always laugh at when i look back at em.

I love you today and
I will love you tomorrow

Just some words
To clear the sorrow

That will never
Leave my heart or yours

From this day forward
You are so special to me

I love you
With all my heart

Always have
And always will

From family and friends
That never end

You will always be with me
As I will always be with you

Until we cross the gates of heaven
There we will always be

Together until the end

Remember how it used to be
When we were young
And our hearts were free

I miss you like the deserts miss the rain,
almost gone on a wilderness campaign.
I miss you like the trees the sun in winter,
Come back and be their electrostatic printer.

Bring back the days of laughter,
Abandon whatsoever you quest after.
Make gone this total eclipse;
Blow the darkness with the rays from your lips.

Come back and once more let's meander,
be the mistress, my heart's commander.
Don't abandon your fleet to sink,
Come to my rescue, save without a wink.

Erase the thoughts from that awful night;
Make its thought be gone on a one-way flight.
Don't make it stay like an indelible ink,
but erase from the memory with an eye's blink.

Let a fresh start be at hand,
Let the flowers blossom on this cultivated land.
Let your smile be the rays and love its fertilizer,
Let your hand be the source for a neutralizer.

If only you could see past this eclipse,
look at the brighter future with a glimpse.
No procrastination, but hope,
and prayers just like the pope.

Then we will begin anew,
Let love be the binding glue.
Let it flow its course and run,
and the future will tell in the long run.

When you enter a grove peopled with ancient trees, higher than
the ordinary, and shutting out the sky with their thickly inter-twined
branches, do not the stately shadows of the wood, the stillness of
the place, and the awful gloom of this doomed cavern then strike
you with the presence of a deity?
-   Seneca

The loggers leave a path:

mud streaks, hewn branches, stumps,

scarred trees, boulders askew-

marks left as if a titan has been dragged

screaming through the forest.

The formerly peaceful walk

through the worshiping trees is now

a tormented vision as of a battlefield done,

the leavings of Grendel's feast

strewn about.

And next year they will be marked

again with circles of paint

like numbers tattooed on wrists

waiting for the train.

The conversation of the trees

is now stunted--

a stricken, amazed

silence echoes.

The caretakers count

their 30 pieces of silver.

The loggers count their

board-feet and drink another beer.

If teddy bears ruled the world,
Oh my, what a wonderful place.
Everyone would be happy.
There would be a smile on every face.

We would picnic every Sunday
At our favorite old oak tree.
We would sing and dance and prance about,
Just playing joyfully.

We would all be nice to each other
And always lend a hand.
Ready with a bear hug,
We would always understand.

We would all be happy when something nice
Happened for one of our friends
And our friendships would last forever.
Nothing would cause them to end.

We would be kind to everyone,
Not just those in our own home,
But to everyone throughout our world,
Wherever we may roam.

Yes, if teddy bears ruled the world,
What a wonderful life this would be.
Our hearts would always be happy
As we danced by the old oak tree.

Janis Miner