RemovingTheMask• Show poetry

Hey everyone… My username is RaptHeart (Don't know if I'm going to keep it still...), but that doesn't mean anything, really... You can call me Dark, Eva, Zara, Silver, Dreamer, Tonna, Tai, Syren, Ruby, or Ellee if you so wish… or you can just call me Hydra. Doesn’t matter, I’ll answer to any of them and then some… Just let me know what you’re going to call me… ‘kay…?

I don’t know really what to say… but I guess I’ll start off with some of my friends...

I have a few friends here on AP, but most of them don’t know I have an account yet, since I don’t know how often I’ll actually be on… I normally stick to DA and I used to be on ES… I’m still on DA and on ES.

My friends on AP include Jazzy, AzumiDuctTapedHeart, Saruto, Shachiro J-Rock, and ('Miah) Betrayer - who is Betrayer. There may be a few more, but I really don’t talk about this kinda thing to know… Saruto insisted I get an AP account, but I haven’t told her I have one yet… and Jazzy was the first one I told… Betrayer is kind of like an adopted brother to me in a way… and Jazzy is like a sister in a way as well… I haven’t known Saruto all that long… but I think she’s awesome and a lot of fun. ^^ She sure has a lot of energy… >.> But I luff her! *tackles her*

I also have a few other friends who are like family… but I won’t mention their real names and they aren’t on for me to give online names… Well... there's Kari and then there's my cousin (who is family, but she could be my sis), who is currently going by Naxcde.

I often teach swordplay to others around me, though I have never gone to classes myself. Most classes for swordplay, other than fencing and kendo, are no longer practical, and the string of fighters I have learned from teach what can be applied and only what can be applied… though we try to come up with and improve on existing styles daily…

My cousin and I (she is actually my second cousin, but I think we often wish we were sisters… but she and I are so much alike in our personalities, it can be down right scary at times… though we have some major differences, admittedly…) can literally spend hours testing new styles and adjusting the old ones, trying new ways to hold sabers and finding ways to teach even styles we ourselves aren’t the best at. However, if you know and can explain the theory, then you can basically teach it…

Enough ‘bout that stuff I suppose… I guess I should talk about myself and my writing a bit…. Huh?

Well, to tell the truth, I’m not all that good at that kind of thing, but I’ll try my best…

Well… guess I should explain a little…

I started writing poems in the 4th or 5th grade… I can’t remember exactly which. However, in 5th grade I remember reading a short poem I had written to the class. It was really short and more like a kid’s bedtime rhyme or something. I didn’t stop though, I kept going, kept getting better. After that one, short, reserved poem, I started to write more.

I suppose I was depressed even back then… but it wasn’t enough for me to realize it… I didn’t realize I was depressed until 7th grade when I came to my new school… It wasn’t until the end of 8th grade I came out of it… Poetry had helped, but more than anything, people like one of my close RL friends, my cousin, and Jazzy helped me the most. I continued to write after that and later had some of my poems published…

I still write poems today. It has been pretty touch and go for awhile, but now I have a great guy who is really helping me. He cares about me and he really helps me out. I feel safer than ever before and like I have someone who'll always listen. He knows how to make me feel better... ^^ When I feel sad, I won't be stuffing it anymore, and that'll help make a lot of difference. Just the fact that he listens.

Some of my poetry may still be about depressing topics. These would be intentional or prewrites that I'm only now getting around to putting up or I'm just now editting.

I like to talk, as you can probably tell. But… not often about myself… I often act as a sort of “counselor” for others… though I’m not even close to one… I just listen and try to understand… but if I don’t understand, then I’ll admit it and you can feel free to berate me… If you want to talk about anything or have any complaints, just message me, I’ll be willing to listen, and I won’t loose my head… I can understand quite a bit… I’ve been through a lot more than anyone thinks I have… But even if I don’t understand perfectly, I often can get a feeling for what someone went through, even if not to the same extent… But I’ll still admit when I don’t know or understand… Also, if you want to vent to someone and you feel comfortable doing so to me, just send me a message…. I don’t mind… I understand, everyone needs to vent. ^^

Anyways… I think that the above is the most I’ve really talked about myself…. *shrugs* Anyways… ^^ Sorry if this is wordy and a bit impetuous… didn’t mean for it to be… heh… XD

Anyways… See ya’ll around!

P.S. If things are misspelled or grammatically incorrect, I did it on purpose. XD
P.P.S. I think I went through and made the changes that I needed too... O.O I'll ask Brandon if he catches anything old later.... other than the stuff I didn't change...