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(the poet formerly known as Push It On Me)



It's been awhile since I've posted much here, but I'm posting more stuff again now in the hope of exercising demons, influencing opinions and generally getting some damn writing done.



To view my short films and music videos please visit www.myspace.com/pushingunderground, they compliment my poetry and if you like my poems, you'll probably like my films.


My poetic influences are: Philip Larkin, Edgar Allen Poe, Tom Waits, Nick Cave, Leonard Cohen, Maynard James Keenan and Trent Reznor.


Here's some bands/artists I like, I strongly suggest you check some of them out.


Tool

Nine Inch Nails

Tom Waits

Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds

Pantera

A Perfect Circle

Leonard Cohen

Johhny Cash

Murderdolls

Slipknot

Venetian Snares

Mudvayne

Alkaline Trio

Infected Mushroom

Type O Negative

Marilyn Manson

Machine Head

Tori Amos

Alice In Chains

Blind Melon

Aphex Twin

Locust Toybox

And many, many, many more.



I love to sing and currently I am in a band called .88 (www.myspace.com/point88) hopefully one day I'll be in a band that makes it and I change the way people think...or just make them think...that'd be a start. I am truly passionate about music, I also enjoy acting and have been involved in musicals, pantomimes and plays in and around where I live.

The Tool lyrics that inspired my pen name......

Push*it-

I will choke until I swallow...

Choke this infant here before me.

What is this but my reflection?

Who am I to judge and strike you down?



But you're

Pushing and shoving me.

You still love me and you push it on me.



Rest your trigger on my finger,

bang my head upon the fault line.

Take care not to make me enter.

'cause if I do we both may disappear.



But you're pushing me,

Shoving me. Push it on me.



Slipping back into the gap again.

I'm alive when you're touching me,

Alive when you're shoving me down.



But i'd trade it all

For just a little bit of

Piece of mind.



Put me somewhere I don't wanna be.

Seeing someplace I don't wanna see.

Never wanna see that place again.



Saw that gap again today

As you were begging me to stay.

Managed to push myself away,

And you, as well.



If, when I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay,

You minimize my movement anyway,

I must persuade you another way.



There's no love in fear.



Staring down the hole again.

Hands upon my back again.

Survival is my only friend.

Terrified of what may come.



Just remember I will always love you,

Even as I tear your f*ucking throat away.

But it will end no other way.


A poem written by a poet I met on here, Onyx Fire Tear, and its all about me



P ush it is your creed

U ndersanding more than you let on

S howing the world what you want them to see

H elping those you feel are really in need



I intense is your soul

T urning heads wherever you go



O ver coming life's little st backs

N ever looking back



M any have tried to figure out your mystery

E veryone has failed, everyone but me



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***A poem written by Miss Lady Calin after conversing with me and seeing my picture for the first time***



So, the man behind the words has revealed himself

The shadow falls away like fading mist

Voice ... trailing like remincent nails upon broken flesh

Though, I've never had the pleasure of listening to it

His touch, searing bone like the most painful

velvet affliction

It hurts so bad,

But, damn, you can't stop



Can you taste the blood on my open palms?

Give it up, Your black lace confession

There are so many memories of moonlit thrills

Memories without passion

Instead, smiles hiding the most obscure secrets

You've lost yourself in this,

Caught up in the crossfire of your emotions



Pierced, Penetrated, Open veins and bleeding souls

Eyes of the purest misery

Forgive me, For I have not only sinned

But lusted for your grace

Push it on me

Push all your unwanted intention down my throat

And have your way with me



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***********A poem written by Goofy Red Head2 about me******************

Pusher:

Your words they captured me

And brought me into the dark

The place where you call home



The lovley shrowed of night

It surronded me in your writing

And it swallowed me whole



Your emotions awakend me

Into a sense of reality

I had yet to overcome



The pain of the biting

The blood as it rushes to the floor

The things your describing



Twisted me into contemplation

Of a deeper meaning to it all

Putting epiphonies on paper



With an elegant flare

Your words they still haunt me

I love the boy who was never really there



Conversations are not so deep

I was a school girl

In fishnets and a tight skirt



Seduced by the poet

I love the way you talk to me

In your own gothic way



As my skin begins to tremble

The writer awakens

Somthing inside



Your pen

It is beautiful

That is what I'm saying

There is nothing more.


My AP friends:

-Onyx Fire Tear-

-Jack Durden-

-TrentisGod-

-Lady Calin-

-God's Perversion-

-Saturn Grotesk-

-angeltear-

-Aevil-Faerie-

-Akanei-

-Spit It Out-

-Push1t-

-Auset Katrina-

-Punky Poet Gee-

-HopesAreLies-

-Glass Shadow-

-English-scum-

-dead vampyre-



All these guys are amazing poets, friendly, loving and fun. Check 'em out, you won't be disappointed.



Anyone I've missed off this shortlist please inform me.



Honourable Mentions:

'Heart' for the contest 'Tears of Blood' by Grotesk

'Young Fingers...' for contest 'Contest Cutters' by pattyann4500

'Growth' for contest 'quotes!!' by A Broken Smile