PorcelainSoul• Show poetry

just the shattered remains of a porcelain soul. broken, bruised and bleeding


writing is my lifeline. it is the one thing that allows me to be myself in a world that wants me to only be their prisoner. i have never had the means or ability to express my deepest thoughts and feelings through spoken words. that right was taken from me at a young age, silence is the key to survival, that is what i was taught. so i picked up a pen, and wrote my first words. my truth was revealed, my emotions were released, i could finally be me. i have never put the pen down since.



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Name: Natalie
Nickname/s: Nat, Porcelain
Age: 20
Location: South Australia
Eye Colour: hazel
Hair Colour: naturally brown
Zodiac Sign: Pisces
Screenname/s: PorcelainSoul/devil-in-disguize

Favourites:
Colour/s: Black, Red, Pink
Number: 3
Song: "Just A Little Bit" by Maria Mena
Band/s: Nickelback, Simple Plan, Pink, Kelly Clarkson,
Movie: Pirates Of The Caribbean
Actor: Johnny Depp
Actress: Keira Knightley
TV Show: Family Guy
Cartoon Character: Eeyore
Sport: Netball
Website/s: In Ana's Hands, Silent Screams, Glass Walls, Myspace
Quote: If you can imagine it, you can create it. If you can dream it, you can become it.

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►not all scars show, not all wounds heal. sometimes you just can't see, the pain that someone feels
►i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiled, even when her heart was broken, and the girl who could brighten your day, even if she couldn't brighten her own
►i'm sorry i can't be perfect
►cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are
►while other girls doodle hearts, i doodle tiny stars, little wishes for everything to somehow be okay
►nothing in this world would ever make me reveal the pain i hide inside...the scars are simply an indication
►because each exhaled breath feels like a silent scream
►guilty for being innocent
►the truth is an unexplainable lie
►teddies don't hug back but sometimes they're all you've got
►you asked what was wrong and i smiled and said 'nothing', then i turned around and whispered 'everything'
►i'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me
►i hurt myself today, to see if i still feel. i focus on the pain, on the only thing that's real. the needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting, i try to kill the pain, but i remember everything
►she cries cause she's lost, she doesnt even know what she wants
►how will you know i am hurting, if you cannot see my pain? to wear it on my body, tells words that i can't explain
►i wish i was as invisible as you make me feel
►you all think i'm strong, but i break just like a little girl
►i know what it's like to want to die. how it hurts to smile. how you try to fit in but you can't. how you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside
►when everything feels like the movies, you bleed just to know you're alive
►perhaps if i was smaller, perhaps i could control myself, perhaps if i was....just a little bit stronger, just a little bit wiser, just a little less needy and maybe i'd get there. just a little bit pretty, just a little more aware, just a little bit thinner, and maybe i'd get there
►the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had
►dying is like coming to the end of a long novel--you only regret it if the ride was enjoyable and left you wanting more
►i like walking in the rain, cause no one knows that i am crying
►i'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me
►i say that i'm dying inside, but the truth is... i'm already dead
►i'm not afraid to die, pieces of me die all the time


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