Hey, my name is Nick, fuck my age, most of my poetry is probably considered very depressing and emo but hey what the hell do I care
Well, my AIM screen name iz Camelotvampire if you wanna chat or know more about me
My AP brother
-The Emo One-
He rocks, okay shut up
"No, im not oh-fucking-kay," -My Chemical Romance/Im not okay (I Promise)
"Back home, off the run
singing songs that make you slit your wrists
it isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun
so i won't stop dying, won't stop lying
if you want i'll keep on crying
did you get what you deserve?
is this what you always want me for?" -My Chemical Romance/Cementary Drive
"I live every day
I die everyday
When I see you, it hurts
and I no longer want to survive
I Dont want to do this anymore
I'll love you forever
But you'll never love me" -Gerard Way
"Cut my life into pieces, I've reached my last resort. Suffocation, no breathing, don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding. Do you even care if i die bleeding? Would it be wrong, would it be right, if I took my life tonight? Chances are that I might." -Papa Roach/Last Resort
"Razors pain you
Rivers are damp
Acids stain you
Drugs cause cramp
Guns aren't lawful
Nooses give
Gas smells awful...
You might as well live." -Unknown
"She has cuts on her arm
And a smile on her face
Her pain hidden so deep
It could never be traced
She's learned how to pretend
How to put on a fake smile
She wished she was happy
If just for a while
Running away and lying
The only things she can do
Longing for something
That she can cling to
Her dad always yells
Her best friend doesn't care
She doesn't understand
Why life just can't be fair
She cannot ever eat
She's too afraid she will gain
But she's got every excuse
To hide her inner pain
She hates herself
And who she's become
She hates how she's always
Tired and numb
Restless and abandoned
Like she's been left in the cold
Nobody likes her
She doesn't fit into the mold" -Unknown
"Hide me under the shadow of thy wings"
-Psalm 17-8
What I wrote
"I'll draw you a picture,
I'll draw it with a twist,
I'll draw it with a razorblade,
I'll draw it on my wrist.
And if I draw it correctly,
a red fountain will appear...
to wash away my sorrows,
to chase away my fears."
"When tears of scarlet form at your ankles, tears of anguish form at my heart."
"Gun in hand
Pull the trigger or not
These are life�s decisions
Like it or not"
"It wasn't a suicide attempt, it was an escape from everything awful. When we cut, we're in control - we make our own pain, and we can stop it whenever we want. Physical pain relieves mental anguish. For a brief moment, the pain of the cutting is the only thing in the cutter's mind, and when that stops and the other comes back, it's weaker. Drugs do that that too, and sex, but not like cutting. Nothing is like cutting."
"I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside."
Well, my AIM screen name iz Camelotvampire if you wanna chat or know more about me
My AP brother
-The Emo One-
He rocks, okay shut up
"No, im not oh-fucking-kay," -My Chemical Romance/Im not okay (I Promise)
"Back home, off the run
singing songs that make you slit your wrists
it isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun
so i won't stop dying, won't stop lying
if you want i'll keep on crying
did you get what you deserve?
is this what you always want me for?" -My Chemical Romance/Cementary Drive
"I live every day
I die everyday
When I see you, it hurts
and I no longer want to survive
I Dont want to do this anymore
I'll love you forever
But you'll never love me" -Gerard Way
"Cut my life into pieces, I've reached my last resort. Suffocation, no breathing, don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding. Do you even care if i die bleeding? Would it be wrong, would it be right, if I took my life tonight? Chances are that I might." -Papa Roach/Last Resort
"Razors pain you
Rivers are damp
Acids stain you
Drugs cause cramp
Guns aren't lawful
Nooses give
Gas smells awful...
You might as well live." -Unknown
"She has cuts on her arm
And a smile on her face
Her pain hidden so deep
It could never be traced
She's learned how to pretend
How to put on a fake smile
She wished she was happy
If just for a while
Running away and lying
The only things she can do
Longing for something
That she can cling to
Her dad always yells
Her best friend doesn't care
She doesn't understand
Why life just can't be fair
She cannot ever eat
She's too afraid she will gain
But she's got every excuse
To hide her inner pain
She hates herself
And who she's become
She hates how she's always
Tired and numb
Restless and abandoned
Like she's been left in the cold
Nobody likes her
She doesn't fit into the mold" -Unknown
"Hide me under the shadow of thy wings"
-Psalm 17-8
What I wrote
"I'll draw you a picture,
I'll draw it with a twist,
I'll draw it with a razorblade,
I'll draw it on my wrist.
And if I draw it correctly,
a red fountain will appear...
to wash away my sorrows,
to chase away my fears."
"When tears of scarlet form at your ankles, tears of anguish form at my heart."
"Gun in hand
Pull the trigger or not
These are life�s decisions
Like it or not"
"It wasn't a suicide attempt, it was an escape from everything awful. When we cut, we're in control - we make our own pain, and we can stop it whenever we want. Physical pain relieves mental anguish. For a brief moment, the pain of the cutting is the only thing in the cutter's mind, and when that stops and the other comes back, it's weaker. Drugs do that that too, and sex, but not like cutting. Nothing is like cutting."
"I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside."
- Last seen on Jan 8 9:56 PM. Member since April 13, 2006.
- I'm a peridot parrot poet for 43 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is "A lonely Heart, a broken soul".
- I am a 16 year old guy (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm a Student.
- Visit my homepage at www.myspace.com/phoenixvamp
- I am in the groups cutters and bleeders
- I have 43 comments, 32 poems
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He looks to the light, / To see the moon. / But the darkness clusters, / Like sheep in a storm. / The shroud of black clouds, / In his mind, / Like driving through fog, / His thinking is hindered. /25 lines, 1 comment, June 27, 2007
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Was hard to write, because my friend asked me to write a poem of how he feels in a certain perdicament he is in. I find it hard to write ab30 lines, 1 comment, January 8, 2007
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51 lines, 3 comments, November 22, 2006
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My Frozen Heart : wow... on January 20NICK! I miss you; I haven't talked to you in...how long? according to this page, since 2007 but I'm sure I've talked to you a little in 2008. Anyways, we SO need to catch up...and poke each other, lol. *poke*
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My Frozen Heart on May 1, 2007NICK!!!! I miss you! where in fuck's world ARE you?!?!?!? Come back...please!!
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Nick! We all miss you, and we have seemed to lose contact with you. It sucks not talking to you, you're awesome. If you could possibly give me your AIM address, I recently got it, that would be awesome. Christina has forgotten about you, sadly, and Stina...well, isn't really my friend anymore. I still care about ya, you're my good friend. We miss ya lots! And this is random but remember Eric Ficinus, yeah, well he's my boyfriend and my birthday is November 19th! Let's hope you come back on again before then. Just remember, I miss you!
-Colleen C...
