Payne and hate• Show poetry

i am Payne im 16. i hate life and have the scars to prove it. I go to some god forsaken skool some where near hell.i am atheist and could care less about love. i think it is stupid to fall in love because you always end up heart broken or (in my case) bleeding. dont like ppl they are untrustworthy and all around good for nothing but breeding like rabbits. i like kids and innocents but dont want children. yeah im a little depressed and angry at the world. SO WHAT'S YOUR POINT?
okay so im not always this way only part of the time... on my "down" days.. other wise im usually in a great mood. im alot deeper than most know.... and ppl usually hate me for it...
i recently discovered something that scares me...i am in love with my ex...and i just realized it...saw him in the hall and it hit me i love him... he used to tell me all the time that he loved me and i blew him off not wanting to get hurt but im in love and it hurts worse than haveing withdraws from heroin...i miss him so much...
we are afficialy back together and 100% in love....
its great but now im not sure if he is cheating on me with some other chick and it grates my nerves.....grrrrrrr stupid boys...
okay so im affcially dateing the "other chick" and my fiance and im feel like im gonna go mucho loco and no i not hispanic......lolz i wanna cry....