Nick B• Show poetry

†Name's Nick, I'm 17, and I AM okay.

" You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present. " ~ Jan Glidewell

"I lock away the pain put away the fears
show you only smiles not the hidden tears"

"It's not how bad the problem is, but how
badly it's hurting the person who has it"

"I want to be remembered as the boy who always smiled
even when his heart was broken and the one who could always brighten up your day even if he couldn't brighten his own."

Reasons why people self-injure:

1. It's chemical. Cutting releases endorphins in the brain. Those endorphins are adreanaline, which makes you feel better.

2. It puts you in control of your pain. You are causing the pain, and you can stop the pain.

3. It allows emotional pain to become physical. Not only does this make it easier to heal, it allows your feeling to become something tangible.

4. It makes you feel stronger.

5. Control, Control, CONTROL. Cutting makes me feel stronger. It puts me in control. No matter how my life seems to be spinning out of control, I am suddenly grounded. It clears my mind.

6. Eases tension.

7. It allows others to see your pain.

8. It reminds you that you're alive. Sometimes I forget, and everything feels numb. The blood reminds me I am here.

9. It vents anger. Sometimes I am just so angry at myself, the world, whoever, and I feel I'm just going to explode if I don't let it out.

"A shot to kill the pain
A pill to drain the shame
A purge to stop the gain
A cut to break the vein
A smoke to ease the crave
A drink to win the game
An addictions an addiction
Because it always hurts the same"
~Author Unknown~



"Only Alice can fall through a rabbit hole and come out unchanged..."

"Whoever said some beauty is beyond words was wrong, that's what poets are for."

If someone you know is hurting, reach out. The difference between a friend, and a true friend, is that a friend knows when your hurting, a true friend does something about it.

"...Only removing the bad parts from inside that hurt..."
~Edge of Eden, "Cutting"

Ten million women and girls have eating disorders. Up to one million will die from their disorder. This makes the mortality rate for anorexia nervosa higher than any other psychiatric disorder, including depression.

Think of it – up to one million women and girls … dead. It’s time to realize that an eating disorder is not a diet … it’s a disease; a deadly disease that’s devastating the lives and health of far too many females and their families at home.

If you know someone suffering from an eating disorder of any kind, get them help, don't wait until its too late.

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The poem that got me writing again:

How will you know I'm hurting
If you cannot see my pain?
To wear it on my body
Tells what words cannot explain.
--C. Blount

Hypocrite
By likezoinks, an AP favorite.†

To those I left behind: Vince, Nick D. Samir "Little Man", Dustin, Big Mike "Snacks, Fat Bastard, Urlacker", Yanif, Josh, Russ, and all those who came before and will come in the future... Respect. You are all amazing, and don't let anyone tell you different. Go Code 9 if need be, but be yourselves... Carrier Clinic...Fuck You.