My.Sinful.Love.• Show poetry

I've had my heart broken into so many little pieces, I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to put them back together. People have just continuously walked all over my trust, so I have really bad trust issues. I don't really trust men, they lie too much. I'm not a bitch, I just need my space, and I have a bad habit of pushing the people I care about the most away when things start going wrong. I don't mean to do this, and it does not mean I hate you. I just have a difficult time letting others help me when I don't even know how to help myself. I've overcome a lot of difficult things in my life but there is just some things I don't think I'll ever get over.

I'm 16. I live in a extremely small town, so there isn't much to do. I'm bisexual. I love music. I listen to just about anything. I'm attepting to learn how to play guitar and possibly the drums. I love skateboarding, snowboarding, and skiing. I love the feeling of an adrenaline rush. I like to write poetry, it's what I do to help myself. I also like art, it's my favorite form of expression. I don't like labels. I'm me and that's all that I'll ever be, so don't try to change me.

Family and friends mean the most to me. There's alot of things I wouldn't have been able to overcome without their help. They are my support. Without them I honestly I believe I would be dead. My mom has pretty much raised me on her own. Even when my dad was around, he wasn't much of a father. My dad is the kind of person that doesn't know how to love anyone but himself. My mom has a disability called cerebal palsy and she still has been able to raise me on her own. She's my hero in every way. My best friend is an amazing girl named Chelsy. I can always count on her to be there for me when I fall down and don't think it will be possible to get back up. I don't know that I could handle life without her. I love her with all my heart and half of someone else's.

I'm only about 5'2", and I probably won't grow much more. I'm not short, I'm fun sized. =] I have brown hair at the moment but I'm thinking about dying it back to my natural color, blonde. I have hazel eyes, but sometimes they are blue or green.

I am madly in love with the most amazing girl that i have ever met. She means the world to me and she's my life. We are engaged =) and I haven't been this happy in a long time. She has my heart and she always will. She makes me smile without even knowing it. She loves me for who I am, and for the first time in my life I feel wanted. We're miles apart but I've never felt so close to another person. I can't imagine what my life would be like without her, i don't want to. Just the thought of losing her hurts. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life...no eternity..with her. She's my Bella and I'm her Edward (in female form of course). She's the closest thing to perfection that anyone could be, and I love everything about her; the way she laughs, her smile, the way she bites her lip and doesn't even know it (drives me crazy!), and most of all the way she loves me. "I don't want this moment, to ever end, where everything's nothing without you. I'd wait here forever, just to see you smile because it's true, I'm nothing without you." I love you Jana, you are my world. <33

My favorite quote ever
Me "Is it nipply in your room tonight baby?"
Jana "No I have a jacket on!"
Me "You did last night too, remember, left sleeve only?"