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hey all
well i had to start a different account because for the life of me i cant get into my other one. i used to be j-cole and here is a link to my other page:
www.allpoetry.com/j-cole there you can find some of my other works.

my life is crashing down around me ears.. worse then every before. im 18 years old, born in a blized dec 24 1990. i was chubby, not super, but enough. im happy to say im now 5'3 3/4 and 147 lbs. my once happy parents are finalizing their divorce. i have to do a fith year of high school. the future i once looked forward to now looks very bleak. and my list of medical problems grows ever longer. i live my life alone, icolated, and in connstant agony. reading my poetry you will find a trend of betraly and loss by the males in my life, and a few females. you will see a disfunctional family. and a sad depressed and offten sucidal young woman. you can not judge me soley by the sentance just before this. my life has throwen my many hurttles i do not talk about in my poetry.

the term auto immune disease is used for disease where your imunne systen attacks the good/healthy cells of the body.

at 11 i was digonised with diabities. also at that time scholosis and a length difference in my legs.

by 13 the arithrits and fybromyalga started setting in.

in the 9th grade i developed migranes.

im in the 12 th grade now and 18 years old.

since i was dignosed with the diabities ive also developed the folowing.
clinical depression
sucidalidelation
bi polar
possable borderline personality disorder
my stomic dose not empty
photosensitivity
muscle spasms
insomnea

looks at clock and yawns. i will finsh this soon. im going to go shower for school. i will add links to explainitions of the terms i have used.

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bunny

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cuse i think hes cute...

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this is so sad...

Month One
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of
your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your
heart beat is my favorite lullaby.
Month Two
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could
definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home
though. It is so nice and warm in here.
Month Three
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl !! I hope that makes you happy. I always want
you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad
too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.
Month Four
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a
lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my
fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it
too.
Month Five
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a
baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?
Month Six
I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it?
It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!! No .
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Month Seven
Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. he is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me Mommy?

Every Abortion Is Just . . .
One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never
see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never
run. One more mouth that will never speak.

*please dont think that im one minded about abortion. i believe in a womans right to choose. i have this posted up her because as some one who want children the thought of having an abortion hurts*
*since i posted this on my page my many medical conditions have gotten worse. it would be worng to submit a child to this pain. i weep openly at this dession to not carry my own children but hope with all my might that tha man i marry will be open to other possabilities.*


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WHEN I RUN AWAY FROM YOU
- CHASE ME
WHEN I POUT MY LIPS
- KISS ME
WHEN I KICK & PUNCH
- HOLD ME TIGHT
WHEN I CALL YOU A LOSER
- JUST KNOW THAT YOUR MY LOSER
WHEN I AM SILENT
- IM THINKIN OF HOW TO SAY I LOVE YOU
WHEN I IGNORE YOU
- I WANT ALL YOUR ATTENTION
WHEN I PULL AWAY
- GRAB ME BY THE WAIST AND NEVER LET GO
WHEN YOU SEE ME AT MY WORST
- TELL ME IM BEAUTIFUL
WHEN I SCREAM AT YOU
- TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AND MEAN IT
WHEN YOU SEE ME WALKING
-SNEAK UP BEHIND ME GRAB ME BY THE WAIST AND GIVE ME A KISS
IF I DONT CALL YOU
- IM WANTING YOU TO CALL ME
WHEN IM SCARED
-HOLD ME AND TELL ME EVERYTHING WILL BE OK CAUSE I'M WITH YOU
WHEN I LOOK LIKE SOMETHINGS THE MATTER
- KISS ME AND TELL ME NOT TO WORRY
WHILE I HOLD YOUR HANDS
- PLAY WITH MY FINGERS

True love only happens once...no matter how many times you try to tell yourself... i dont believe this state ment any more. i love two guys so deeply id willingly die for both.


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-*note: if a link dose not work it is because the person has changed their name and i havent changed it on my page yet-*

Cool AP People:
Lavender mist http://allpoetry.com/Lavender%20mist
Obsidian Wulf http://allpoetry.com/Obsidian%20Wulf
teenwolf23 http://allpoetry.com/tenwolf23
X-Queen-Georgia-X http://allpoetry.com/X-Queen-Georgia-X

My Master:
brakingdawn-kitten http://allpoetry.com/brekingdawn-kitten

Vampyric Gardian:
FallenFromGraces http://allpoetry.com/FallenFromGraces

My Mom:
mysticstorm http://allpoetry.com/mysticstorm

My Daughter:
MyxUnbeatingxHeartx http://allpoetry.com/MyxUnbeatingxHeartx

My Twin Sisy:
Vampyric Aurora http://allpoetry.com/Vampyric%20Aurora
My Sisy:
My1lovewearsdiapers http://allpoetry.com/My1lovewearsdipers
SweetXDestiny http://allpoetry.com/SweetXDestiny
Lil Sisies:
XXVampireeyesXX http://allpoetry.com/XXVampireeyesXX
The Imperfection http://allpoetry.com/The%20Imperfection
kool k http://allpoetry.com/kool%20k
~~** a note for SweetXDestiny and XXVampireeyesXX... you two have helped me through some very rough times since youve been my sisters. i love you and charish you very much.**~~

Little Bro:
Deathwolf Tasagka http://allpoetry.com/Deathwolf%20Tasagka

Niece:
chilosa21 http://allpoetry.com/chilosa21

Cousins:
PerfectioIsPoison http://allpoetry.com/PerfectionIsPoison
Lowercase Perlude http://allpoetry.com/Lowercase%20Perlude

amazing people i love deeply and hope to keep in my life:

tay . i will love you always, i will always be your best friend and ill always be here when you need me most... just as i know you feel the same, just as you have been here for me.
Little Fawn http://allpoetry.com/Little Fawn

baby..id die without you in my life... ill love youfor ever.
Mozz http://allpoetry.com/Mozz

a tribte to some one who inpacted my life greatly, helped set me on my path... but sadly is no longer activly involved in my life. thanks so much for every thing... you have instilled some great wisdome in me.
Al http://allpoetry.com/Allan%20Emery
-live happy, live free, live a lil crazy-

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my rp personality:
name- Anita
for more info search 'anita' in 'my poems'
name-Levee
for more info search 'levee' in 'my poems'

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thats all for now

jackie

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