Mistress Kathriana• Show poetry

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return."
~Moulin Rouge

The voice spoke from the shadows of the page, eyes glowing alight in the darkness.

"Tell me about you." It says, the voice unable to be traced to either male or female, human, or not.

I set my lips into a tight line, staring, trying to discern who it is from the shadows that asks such a thing of me.

"I am friend. I am foe." I begin to answer. "I am Guardian. I am legend. I am the one that never gives up, that never gives in. I do not fail, I do not falter. It is the duty and honor of a Guardian that I'm never thought to be weak, never thought to be low. I do not cry, I do not give up on another-"

"Stop," The voice orders and I suppress the urge to lash out and rip them from the shadow they hide in. "We cannot begin this way, you are speaking of decree, of orders, of commission." They defined. "Not the true you, not the one beneath the mask, at the hilt of the sword, at the butt of a pistol." There was a pause. "Who. Are. You."

I hesitated and bit my lip, contemplating. "I am a writer of stories, a teller of tales. I role play for fun to escape this to no avail. I find peace in books, they take me away from this desolute place. I am an old soul, straight from the victorian era. I believe in truth, justice, honor, respect and loyalty. I believe in what I like, creatures of all types are never shunned in my eye. Paganism has claimed me as religion and I'm rather proud of it. I hate politics, I don't want to hear about them. Disney movies still are played every week on my TV and not due to little children for I only have one little brother at the age of 15. Disney is a favorite of mine and most of the movies I can quote proudly. Movies are my field, I quote and memorize and keep up with those I love. I am a Twihard, a Twilighter, a fan of Twilight. I am the female version of Jacob Black and yet have traits of Edward Cullen. I'm straight and in love, happily engaged to my Lord Mathias and I'm very territorial as a warning to those after what is mine. I am a leader, not a follower, a strong heart, a determined soul and a willful mind. I help others, I am the one they go to for a shoulder to cry on, a voice to soothe them, advice to console them and a place to vent. I love meeting new people, getting to know them and their life. I protect my pack, my friends, my kin."

I waited, watching the creature drapped in shadow watching me. Finally, it spoke again. "And what of your past, after all, Past Is Prologue, my dear."

I sighed, "I grew up in a warm home with my firefighter/paramedic father and my Parks Dept. Secretary mother and my little brother just three years below me. We lived in a small village in the midst of Ohio. I was borne Kirstie Wilson, named after Kirstie Alley from Cheers. I hate the name. As I grew up, I never had friends, I was meek and quiet, different. Now and then, there was the occasional person that found an interest in me, but they never stuck. Upon the age of 6, I found my best friend. She was Kaylee, a girl just a year younger than I that moved in next door. She was even more meek than I and I found her so much fun. We roleplayed together, Sabrina The Teenage Witch at first, then Sailor Moon and Animorphs. It later became our obsession with X-Men and Teen Titans that we wrote stories of and poetry for as well as acted out. We spent every day pretneding, living another life however we wanted it. But Kaylee was greedy for attention, she would tell me lies about her parents splitting up or her father having cancer....none of it was ever true. She found the need to have others worry about her and pity her. She was always prettier and always chased after by boys, while I was the freak others laughed at. Then, my Freshman year started and things aimed a new direction, one that changed the rest of my life. A boy, Zach, moved to our small town with his dark ways and quiet mind. I fell for him, chased after him until he agreed to be mine. We dated for nine weeks in the era of fall. Then a friend whom was slightly infatuated with Zach as well, told me she saw he and Kaylee kissing after school before I'd come out to the buses. Impossible. It had to be a lie. Kaylee and Zach grew closer a friends and then one night he said he had something to say to me, but didn't want it on the phone. I begged him to tell until he left me over the phone. I cried so hard that night I couldn't breathe, screaming into my pillow, wanting to die. I pretended to be alright and be his friend. But one night, I dropped of Kaylee's gift to her for her birthday, she'd seemed less interested to spend time with me lately but I over looked it, thinking she merely was worried for me. She was one the phone with Zach, laughing, smiling. She got off the phone, acted like it was all alright. But I asked and she confessed, they'd been dating for weeks. They hadn't wanted to hurt me, kept it secret. I left the house and out into the cold snow but couldn't feel the cold, just the heat inside me. Lies. Betrayal. I went home and destroyed myself inside. I stood by their side, the third wheel, keeping others from destroying the relationship, keeping them together while I suffered.Weeks later, her parents forbid her from seeing him, she rebelled, slipped them sleeping pills in their food and when they were asleep, set the house on fire. I blamed him, and for four month of my life, I cannot recall anything. It's black. But I remember the day I woke up, when he'd called me "Kitten" and I'd decided that I wasn't going to give up on him. I tried to help his chaos as he went after another girl, used me to get away from her, then after Chelsea, the one that had an infatuation with him from the start and caught he and Kaylee kissing. I kept them together as well, the suffering third wheel and in the midst of this....my sophomore year. My father had colon cancer. Two and a half years later of suffering and pain, watching my hero, my father, destroyed in every way...he left me on my Junior Prom, scared, alone, shivering in a stupid golden dress. Now my mother has a boyfriend that lives with us, my brother and I don't speak, only fight. And I take college classes for the Digital Arts while living at home. I have fallen in love with my Matt whom is set to give me a ring of engagement next year sometime. I am a Guardian to my friends and anyone else."

I tried to breathe normally, standing, shivering in my skin. The creature nodded once...and vanished.





"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb, what a stupid lamb; What a sick, masochistic lionl." ~Edward Cullen/Bella Swan, Twilight

"Hate me in ways...yeah ways hard to swallow." ~Hate Me, Blue October

"You're only in trouble if you get caught-I'm in trouble!" ~Aladdin, Aladdin

"...the silence isn't so bad till i look at my hands and feel sad cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly..." ~Vanilla Twilight, Owl City






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