Melissa Cavnar• Show poetry

Tyler JACKIE WATKINS< YOU GOOGLE MY NAME AGAIN AND I SHALL SLIT YOUR SOFT WHITE NECK!...JERK




wow, I feel like so many things are happening to those close around me. Yet this time nothing to me. I love all my family...or try to. My friends are the best. and I can honestly say that those I have let go of I will try not to be in contact with, but I don't hate them. I still care for them and I see them in my dreams.




I will go on in my life with all the faith i can grasp and with every wish and hope I see.I have made mistakes because of myself and others, but I will strive to better myself and the world.I am going to become a creative and polictical writer and also a mentel health counselor. What school? I don’t know just yet but I want to get my bachelor’s in creative and political writing. then I can get a job getting paid to do what I love while I go to school and become a counselor. The rest of my plans are not set in stone, for that is where even more adventures begin! Well I love writing about subjects that most would consider controversial. But I try to present my information without being biased or sounding ignorant, subjects like abortion or statistics on drug abuse. that's the best part about my plans, both jobs will complement each other. for example I will help someone with divorce issues and what went wrong, then I will make books on helpful tips to prevent or stop that situation from happening. I realize that if I write about my beliefs I know for a fact that I won't please everyone, I will have those that hate me or think I am stupid. But if I can explain why I believe what I do and help them understand, maybe they won't hate or hurt so many that believe the same thing. I know that they will anyway but I am only a messenger, my job is not to make them believe. A hard lesson but a valuable one .I am born-again christian.yes I believe jesus was God, I believe in miracles I believe that everyone can be helped or saved, I also believe that I should love others and try to tolerate them even if they don't do the same for me. But having told you this I ask you to do one thing. Don't believe that I think everyone is below me, because I don't. Don't think that I think I'm better then you, cause I'm not. Please don't look at me with eyes filled with the same stereotypes or assumptions of other people you have met claiming to proclaim what I do here. I love people and helping them,I can befriend everyone even if you do something I don't agree with, of course I may not approve. Some of the previous writings on here may not reflect my beliefs but that's because they may or may not have been in my point of view, but I won’t write anything inappropriate again. I will look like a fool to you even when I am trying not to act like one, but I am not here to please everyone or anyone for that matter, I will say what I believe if you ask, I am tactful though but I can be blunt. I accept people for what they believe or choose, even if I don't like it, because I know if you really want help you'll listen and if you are really looking for answers in this life, you’ll find them. If you already have the answer you want and are just looking for someone to back it up, I probably won't change your mind, and I know I can't save someone or help them if they don't want to be saved or helped. If you don't want to be my friend then I am sorry. I am weird and kind of perverted. I am a human who falls more often then a three legged dog. You know what? people screw up. If you are going to point out how hypocritical I was at one point or how something I said in anger was mean or ungodly, I pray that you tell me so I can correct it not so you can say how stupid or foolish I am and I am no better off or different from you or the bum down the street. When I say better I mean with choosing the right choices or saying the right things that follow my beliefs .I do want to fix any problem that you noticed I am struggling with but don't point it out to simply judge and prove me wrong, because that helps no one. I am infatuated with the colors purple, black and blue. My favorite flower is the lilac because it is the smell of purple, and strawberries are what purple would taste like (it's funny because they are red). I am random and have plenty of dancing outbursts,(also I can't dance very well). I am not Goth or emo. I am just me, and that's all I ever want to be. I talk too much and my sense of humor is cruel sometimes but aside from that I am a fairly decent person .My best friends have a new one added every year.