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Well i'm not that interesting, unless you like cutters(who r trying to stop), a girl who loves to cook. oh also loves all animals, not a veggiterian, sucks at spelling, and likes to talk

One of the biggest problems in my life is gone, and yet i still have to deal with the effect.(a.k.a my foster mom)

BLEH....LIFE SUCKS, PEOPLE SUCK, I'M OVEREMOTIONAL...AND I DONT KNOW WHY!!!!!

i hate myself so much...i mess up everything and i feel like i really want to die...no one would care so maybe i just will...

LAST KISS Survey
Your Last Kiss: Who.

Who was your last kissed shared with? - Jaimy
Are you dating this person? - No
Which one of you started the kiss? - Both of us
Was the guy taller than the girl? - Yes
Are they a good kisser? - Yes!
Have you ever kissed this person before? - No

Your Last Kiss: Where.

Was it inside or outside of a building? -Inside
Did anyone see you? - No
Was it in secret? - Wasnt supposed to happen
Had you ever kissed there before? - Yes, not with him
Was this an appropriate place for kissing? - I guess...

Your Last Kiss: The Kiss Itself.

Did you enjoy it? - Yes, but i shouldnt have
How long did it last? -2min...i think
Was it French? - Not really. kinda
Was it on your lips? - Duh...i mean yes
Did it lead anywhere else? - Almost...

Your Last Kiss: Miscellaneous.

Where were your hands? - Around his neck
Where were their hands? - Around my back
Were you horizontal or vertical? - Semi horazontal
Was it anything like you were expecting? - I didnt expect it to happen...
Would you kiss like that in public? - If i was dating him...Hell yeah
Did you two do anything inappropriate during the kiss? - Uh....teehee, maybe...
How did it end? - Me looking confuse, him saying sorry, he didnt mean to lose himself

that survey comes with my own question about me...WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????
(do not put this one question about me on ur page lol)





Poems by Langston Hughes ====================================================================================
Langston Hughes
~Dream Deferred~

"What happens to a dream deferred?

Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?

Or fester like a sore--
and then run?

Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?

Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load

Or does it just explode?"

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Langston Hughes
~Dreams~

Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.

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Langston Hughes
~Cross~

My old man's a white old man
And my old mother's black.
If ever I cursed my white old man
I take my curses back.
If ever I cursed my black old mother
And wished she were in hell,
I'm sorry for that evil wish
And now I wish her well
My old man died in a fine big house.
My ma died in a shack.
I wonder were I'm going to die,
Being neither white nor black?

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Langston Hughes
~Suicide's Note~

The calm,
Cool face of the river
Asked me for a kiss.

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Langston Hughes
~The Dream Keeper~

Bring me all of your dreams,
You dreamer,
Bring me all your
Heart melodies
That I may wrap them
In a blue cloud-cloth
Away from the too-rough fingers
Of the world.

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Langston Hughes
~Still Here~

been scared and battered.
My hopes the wind done scattered.
Snow has friz me,
Sun has baked me,

Looks like between 'em they done
Tried to make me

Stop laughin', stop lovin', stop livin'--
But I don't care!
I'm still here!

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My Best Guy Friend Jake

Jake has always been there for me when i needed him, and when i didn't lol.
He's an amazing guy(not on AP)and everyone loves him
He has spectacular talents, a big one is the fact he can calm a room full of extremely pissed off people in a few minutes.
Jake and i never dated in the past, we dated recently...it got intense, and i ended it because...well you can ask me yourself if you care to know.
He has saved my life more times then i can remember...and he will always be in my heart.
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My father like figure Jason

He is awesome, he is just like my dad used to be. Jason always protects me and he is so much fun. He is married to a wonderful woman, her name is Marie. I like her a lot too.
Jason used to travel a lot, but know he is staying near me. Jason has saved my life a lot too...and he is always trying to protect me. He got me a puppy, i named her Akili(means intelligent in African) she is amazing and seems already trained. Jason was there for me my mom and my sister when my dad died and my brother was kidnapped. He was there for me and my mom when my sister killed herself. He was there for me when my mom died, and he is still here for me now. He promised he will never leave me no matter what.
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My Mother like figure Marie

She is great, she is my father like figure's wife. She cares about me so much, and i care about her. She promised never to leave me too. Even though we met such a short time ago, we are soooo close. I love her so much and will add more stuff about her when i learn about her juicy past lol.

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MY BIG SISTER GWEN

SHE IS THE BEST...but she will never agree with me truthfully about that though, i'll keep trying. She is soo cool, and talented and strong. She has been through more shit than i have, execpt for the foster homes and losing your mom, dad, and sister. She has saved my life so many times...and continues to keep me alive. We have never met, but now we can talk on the phone ...she says it is ok we probably will never meet, i hope she means that. I love my big sister soo much, she has helped me soo much, and i hope she never leaves me. Oh did i mention SHE IS THE BEST...? well she is =]