Lost-in-Lifeand-Lov• Show poetry

I haven't updated this since I was 16! Lol. Ok well um I'm pretty good at life and interacting with others. I have some bumps in the road but who doesn't? I haven't written a poem in months and I'm not sure I have enough pain in me right now to do so. I'm just working and being...ya know just being. Love me, hate me, I don't care! Well ok that's not true I do care cause I've found that I'm that type of person that needs to have everyone love me lol. That's all! -p00f- CHOWDER!
Tory!


Lol, this seems like a much easier way for you to get to know me than me going on and on.
01.) Name: Zakiyyah
02.) Middle Name: Who would want to know this?
03.) DOB: 5-5-89
04.) Age: 17
05.) Location: New Jersey
06.) Eye Color: Brown
07.) Hair Color: Dark brown
08.) Hair Length: Shoulder lenght
09.) Height: 5'
10.) Shoe Size: 9 1/2
11.) Glasses or Contacts: Neither
12.) Braces: No
13.) Single or Taken: Totally single!
14.) Bad Habits: Biting at the skin around my finger nails lol. Weird, I know.  
15.) Fears: Too many to name
16.) Screen Name: FlushedFire
17.) Where Do You Go to School: An adult high school in Jersey.
18.) Whats Your School Mascot: Um, I think it's a tiger.
19.) Whats Your School Colors: Maroon and black I think, I can't seem to remember.
20.) Whats Your Favorite Subject: English
21.) Whos Your Favorite Teacher: Mr. Raggi <3 (totally in lust with him)
22.) What Do They Teach: Math (hates it!)

:::: Love Life ::::
23.) Do You Have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend: No
24.) If So, Whats There Name: Erp
25.) If So, How Long Have You Been Together: Geez
26.) Do You Have a Crush: Yes, on my boss! He is so cute and smart and hott and just meow. I would like totally marry him! Cause like -sighs- I'm so into him, and I probably wouldn't marry him but he really is great. I can't take my eyes off of him lol.
27.) Do They Know: I think he might have thought so, cause I was kinda obvious before I found out he was married. But then I switched it off so suddenly I think he thinks he imagined it lol. I'm good with mind games, anyone want to play? I'm kidding!  
28.) Have You Ever Broken Someones Heart: Yea, sorry!
29.) Have You Ever Had Your Heart Broken: Why yes, yes I have.

:::: Favorites ::::
30.) Animal: Kitty!
31.) Color(s): Green, pink, and black.
32.) Person: Seirra and Jadeh.
33.) Subject: English.
34.) Season: Winter
35.) Holiday: Thanksgiving!
36.) Hobby: Reading
37.) Sport: Football!
38.) Feeling: Lust
39.) Saying: "Dude, what the hell?"
40.) Word(s): Like, Totally, Awesome, and Seriously
41.) Month: May!
42.) Clothing: This pair of striped slacks! They are totally comfy! and make my ass look great!
43.) Jewelry: These earrings they are like diamond shaped and silver with rhinestones. (I'm not allowed to have real jewelry cause I always break it)
44.) Food: Italian lol
45.) Snack: Granola bars.

:::: Have You Ever ::::
61.) Had a Wish Come True: Yes! I got my job! And I got into school! And I have real friends! Not that my online friends aren't real, just ya know flesh and bloodness lol.
62.) Had a Dream Come True: A dream? I don't know.
63.) Broken a Body Part: No.
64.) Fallen in Love: Yes.
65.) Done Something You Regret: Yes.
66.) Tripped and Fallen in Public: Yes.
67.) Sang in Public: Yes.
68.) Cryed in Public: No.
69.) Kissed Someone Besides Family: No.
70.) Been in a Car Accident: Yes.

:::: The Last ::::
71.) Thing You Did Before Getting on the Computer: Ate a fish sandwich.
72.) Person You Yelled at: My mother, like ten minutes before I got on.  
73.) Person You Hugged: DeShea.
74.) Person You IMed: Can't remember.
75.) Time You Cleaned Your Room: A couple weeks ago.  
76.) Song You were Listening to: Some random rock song by some random rock band on some random rock station.
77.) TV Show You Watched: I believe it was Passions.
78.) Movie You Watched: Closer! I loved it!
79.) Time You went to the Movies: Too long to remember.
80.) Time You Cryed: Um, I think like a few days ago.
81.) You Took a Shower: This morning.

:::: This OR That ::::
82.) Coke OR Pepsi: Pepsi (I stand by my choice!)
83.) Tall OR Short: TALL!
84.) Flowers OR Candy: Flowers, I'm no longer in a candy place.
85.) Math OR English: English
86.) Blink 182 OR Sugarcult: Ohh! tough one! I have to go with Blink 182!
87.) Mickey OR Minnie: Minnie! Girl Power!
88.) Middle School OR High School: High School
89.) Boyfriend OR Girlfriend: Girlfriends! Hoes over bros!!
90.) Pringles OR Lays: Lays! Pringles suck.
91.) Party or Study: Study
92.) Virgin or Lil Devil: How about a lil' virgin devil?

:::: Good or Bad ::::
93.) Smoker: REALLY BAD! But kinda sexxi -blushes-
94.) Drinker: Only in moderation!
95.) Drugs: SUPER BAD! TERRIBLE AND STUPID AS HELL!
96.) Tattoos: Ew.

Wow lol it's hard to believe that I wrote that down there. Oh how much I've changed! But I'm too tired right now from work so yea, I'ma go!

(I am currently obsessed with the words Broken and Angel lol, my current poetry will reflect that. I am protective of my friends. If you stab me in the back, don't be shocked when I strike back. I love words. I'm doing a little spring cleaning with my friends. It's time to weed out the plants that are killing the rest of my garden. I love music. Most music lol no metal please. I love school, I'm like a born student. I'm totally shy around guys I like. I've never been kissed. I'm in danger of falling into depression. I can't emote any feeling other than happiness. I believe that if you smile hard enough and long enough, everything will get better. I know that's not true. I always feel alone. I'm always alone. I don't believe people when they say I love you. I don't think I deserve love. I get sad often, but I don't show it. I think I'm ugly and stupid. Others agree. I believe that if I think about something really hard before I go to sleep, I will dream about it. This has yet to work. I'm pretty sure I'm a terrible poet...ress? I think people offline only talk to me to use me. The only time I feel safe is when I'm at school. The only time I feel happy is... never. I read novels to escape my life. I hate my parents. I hate my life. I hate myself. And that is all you need to know about me. My name is Tory, please give critical comments! I want to get better at this poetry thing! Thank you for your time! lol.)