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http://kevan.org/brain.cgi?Razelyn.

O.k, Hi! to all that actually reads the profiles.
My names Heather, call me whatever you want.
A lot of my work my be dedicated to an Ex simply because he drives me crazy.

My new goal in life is too pick out and expose the flaws in humanity.
Little to know that I just discovered (thanks to few friends) I hate people,but I like being around them...hmmm

I admit, I, at most times crave human interaction. But I cannot stand to be around people for too long, they agitate me. Just as much as I fear being alone the rest of my naturally fucked up existence.

Now don't get me wronge I like some people but odds are I probably wont like you.
But for some reason you might like me,everyone likes me even though I push everyone away.
Another intersting fact I like to change. I like change I think change is very healthy and as person I change all the time everyone (or most people) does whether you realise this or not.It's just fucking human.

And don't base your thoughts about my poetry on what I say about it 'cause I am my own worst critic, I'm most 'evil' towards my self and anything negative I may say about you is more than likely CONSTRUCTIVE critisism.


I am a walking contradiction
I am hypocritical and so the fuck are you
I hate liers-I am the biggest lier.
I hate people who talk too much-I like to hear my self talk.
I hate rich people-I want to be rich.
I hate pop and hip-hop music- It's addicting.
I hate self abusers-I used to Self-abuse.
I hate bad drivers- I am a bad driver.
'I hate poeple-I love People.'
I hate bleeding hearts-I am a heart that's bleeding.
I am honest.
I praise your criticism.
I know my spelling is shit. Yet I will probably tell you yours is too.
I am a grammer nazi-when its not my work.
I like History.
I like Anime.
I like Serial Killers.
I like ICP.
I like Christina Aguilera.
I like Cradle of Filth.
I like An Cafe.
I like Tchaikovsky.
I hate 'OMG! I aM gOnNa MaRrY sUcH aN sUcH fAmOuS pErSoN!' (an PLEASE don't type like that it is highly annoying and honestly it takes up more time than necessary)
I hate Picasso. (If my 2 year old brother can paint paint the same thing it's not art. The Mona Lisa is art.)
I hate Fascists.
I hate Fundies.(overtly religious people. I don't care what you preach just don't try to force people into your condescending ways)
I hate Religion.-although I see some reasoning in it.
I love to argue.
I like what you hate and secretly like what you like.
Yes, I guess that make me a hyprcrite though probably not as big as you or most people.
More than anything I loathe myself yet I praise my self.

I would descibe my poetry as what ever you want to interpret it as.
By the way I like using the words like fag and cunt and other words you may find offensive. not to offend any one in specific I it just helps with sentence modification.
I could give a fuckless about your sexual orientation or what you fuck.
Many of my friends are gay and are not the same skin tone as I.
I am pro gay marriage.
I am pro abortion.
I am pro be who ever or what ever the fuck you want just so long as you don't shove it down my throat unless you want it vomited back on you with razors and barbed wire.

I'm not great with advise by I try for someone that hates people I'm passionate about them.


*98% of teenagers have tried pot. If you are one of the 2% who hasn't, post this into your message*
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I live in Texas.
Yes, I hate it here.
I am going to TCC.
I just changed my major from Welding to Mortuary Science.
I am from Tennessee and will be moving back there as soon as possible.
I am going to be something your not.
I am going to be you in a different life.
I believe in reincarnation. Yes I know the flaws in that.

I think everyone is gay-or at the very least bisexual.
I don't think porn, video games,movies, music or any other form of entertainment turns people to kill. People turn people to kill and do ultraviolence-did the Romans have television or a fucking ipod I think not.
I like am 18 and still enjoy watching kid shows and reading children books.
I like most things by Joss Whedon and Russell T. Davies.
I like fan fiction. Yes, I am a fan girl.
I don't like guns but I love knives ( they're more personal)
I love classical music and opera's.


I can go from reading Richard Dawkins to Dr. Seuss. And True Blood to Foster's home for Imaginary Friends.
If that's not weird I don't know what is.

Goths:
*Don't always wear black
*Don't worship Satan
*Are NOT evil
*Do not want to kill people
*Do not hate everybody
*Are not always depressed
*Can be happy too
*Are usually nice people
*Are normal, just like you

[if you suport goths or are one add this to your page]
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IF YOU HAVE SPELLED YOUR NAME WRONG PASTE THIS IN YOUR PROFILE

If you've ever copied and pasted something onto your profile, copy and paste this onto your profile.

If you think that those stupid kids should just give that God-forsaken Trix rabbit some Trix, copy this into your profile.

If, during a quiet moment, you suddenly remember something funny and randomly bust out laughing, copy and paste this into your profile.

If there are times where you just wanna annoy someone for the heck of it copy this into your profile

If you've ever thought about something when you were talking about something else, copy and paste this into your profile.

If you've ever talked to yourself, copy and paste this into your profile

If you've ever asked a really stupid, obvious question, copy and paste this one your profile.

If you've ever walked into a doorway that you could've clearly dodged, you just weren't paying close enough attention, copy and paste this on your profile.
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I am a very passionate person.
I am shy.
I am outgoing.
I am a bitch.
I am the nicest person you might ever meet.
I am...depending on the hour of the day.
I am irony.
I am a parodox.
I am pessimistic.
I am optomistic.
I am what my mother should have aborted.
I am female.
I am short,slender,and caucasian and I am not blond natural or other wise.
I am not racist though I make a lot of racy comments.

I don't like violence but I like causing it.

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Also I like quotes:

'Nothing is a matter of life and death except life and death.'-Angela Carter

'Communists are people who fancied that they had an unhappy childhood.'-Gertrude Stein

'I can't help detesting my relations. I suppose it comes from the fact that none of us can stand other people having the same faults as ourselves.'-Oscar Wilde

'Politics is war without bloodshed while war is politics with bloodshed.'-Mao Zedong

“Nothing ever begins. There is no first moment; no single word or place from which this or any other story springs.”
Clive Barker

“"The man who has no sense of history, is like a man who has no ears or eyes"”
Adolf Hitler(Just because he was a evil dick-tator doesn't mean he didn't say interesting things)

“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.”-Anonymous

After three days without reading, talk becomes flavorless.
Chinese proverb

Beware of a man of one book.
English Proverb

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork.
English Proverb

'No matter what anybody tells you, words and ideas can change the world.'-Dead Poets Society

Ninety-five percent of the kids out there are concerned with being popular and fitting in. If you're part of the five percent who aren't, copy this, put it in your profile, and add your name to the list. AnimeKittyCafe,
Hyperactivley Bored, Gem W, Bara-Minamino, Yavie Aelinel, IwuvMyKenshyPoo,
Heidiplease, iNsOmNiAc BiLlIe JoE lOvEr, Black Panther Warrior,
Mina the Mischevious, SnowNeko, KylaMizuki, SkyeEyesSparkle7135,
Ms.Misery.SouthernSecrets15. ChristinaXCuriosity, SecretButterfly, XxxSuicidal-lovexxX, Believer.in.Christ. ,
nightmarexboulevard, MyChemicalRomanceFan,Deathchamber-of-sin, ImInnocent
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If you are bored and like to write stuff, copy and paste this onto your profile.

I like cheese. I have seen purple cows. If two gooses are geese, then why aren't two moose meese, or when two foots are feet, why aren't two footballs feetball? Milk tastes good. People call me crazy, but I'm just random! If you're random and proud of it, copy and paste this in your profile.

Weird is good. Strange is bad. Odd is what you call someone who you can't decide what to call them. Weird is the same as different, which is the same as unique, which means weird is good! If you are weird and proud of it, copy this onto your profile!
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I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch
I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.
I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I WEAR ALL BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I HAVE GOOD MARKS, so I MUST have no social life
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fuck them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.
I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a slut.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO
I'm a VIRGIN, so I MUST be a prude.
I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I don't FLIRT WITH GUYS AT SCHOOL so I MUST be gay.
I dont like the SUN so I MUST be albino.
I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
I wear BOY'S CLOTHES so I MUST be a lesbian or a dyke.
I'm POSTING THIS so I MUST be a groupie.

~*Post this in your profile if you think stereotyping is just plain wrong. Bold ones that relate to you, if you wish*~
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Lyrics and random poems

My Magic 8-ball tells me the truth
I tend to shake it in a telephone booth
I ask who to call, and it says not you
My Magic 8-ball tells me the truth

Thor Lange-My Magic 8-ball

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

Dorothy Parker-Résumé



Passion...
It lies in all of us.
Sleeping, waiting, and though unbidden,
it will stir, open its jaws, and howl.
It speaks to us, guides us... passion rules us all.
And we obey.
What other choice do we have?...
Passion is the source of our finest moments.
The joy of love, the clarity of hatred, and the ecstasy of grief...
it hurts sometimes more than we can bear.
If we could live without passion,
maybe we could know some kind of peace.
But we would be hollow.
Empty rooms, shuttered and dank... without passion,
we'd be truly dead.- Angelus

Give us our bread and bury our dead
And kneel to the cross on the wall
Whether burnt at the stake or drunk at the wake
Just kneel to the cross on the wall
We've original sin, but we might just get in
If we beg to the cross on the wall
It's rattle your sabre and love your neighbours
But kneel to that cross on the wall.

See the roof fall, hear the bells crash
As flesh and bone turn to ash
Tried to conquer the sun with a Christian frost
The corpses' stench beneath the cross

Give them gold and they'll save your soul
And kneel to the cross on the wall
Hail to the boss of the great unwashed
And kneel to the cross on the wall
They wail and weep, the march of the sheep
As they go to the cross on the wall
And it's ever so wrong to dare to be strong
So kneel to the cross on the wall-
Kneel To The Cross By,Agalloch

Lord Abortion

"Care for a little necrophilia? Hmm?"

I was born with a birthmark of cinders
Debris cast from the stars and Mother
A ring of bright slaughter, I spat in the waters
Of life that ran slick from the stabwounds in Her

Dub Me Lord Abortion, the living dead
The bonesaw on the backseat
On this bitter night of giving head
A sharp rear entry, an exit in red
Lump in the throat, on my come choke
The killing joke worn thin with breath

I grew up on the sluts bastard Father beat blue
Keepsake cunts cut full out easing puberty through

Aah! Nostalgia grows
Now times nine or ten
Within this vice den called a soul
Dying resurrection
I dig deep to come again
The spasm of orgasm on a roll...

I live the slow serrated rape
The bucks fizz of amyl nitrate
Victims force fed their own face
Tear stains upon the drape
I should compare them
To a warm Summer's day
But to the letter, it is better
To lichen their names to a grave

Counting My years on an abacus strung
With labial rings and heartstrings undone

Dub Me Lord Abortion, the living dead
The bonesaw on the backseat
On this bitter night of giving head
A sharp rear entry, an exit in red
Lump in the throat, on My cum choke
The killing joke worn thin with breath

Horrorscopes My diorama
A twelve part (so far) psychodrama
Another chained I mean to harm Her
Inside as well as out
A perverts gasp inside the mask
I'm hard, blow My house of cards
All turn up Death, Her bleeding starts
In brute vermilion parts...

Now I slither through the hairline cracks
In sanity, best watch your back

Possessed with levering Hell's gates wide
Liberating knives to cut Humanity slack

My ambition is to slay anon
A sinner in the hands of a dirty God
Who lets Me prey, a Gilles De Rais
Of light where faith leads truth astray

I slit guts guts and free the moistest faces
Corrupt the corpse and seize the choicest pieces
Her alabaster limbs that dim the lit carnal grin
Vaginal skin to later taste and masturbate within

"My heart was a wardrum beat
By jugular cults in eerie jungle vaults
When number thirteen fell in My lap
Lips and skin like sin, a Venus Mantrap
My appetite whetted, storm crows wheeled
At the blurred edges or reason 'til I was fulfilled
Whors d'oeuvres eaten, I tucked Her into
A grave coffin fit for the Queen of Spades
She went out like the light in My mind
Her face an avalanche of pearl, of ruby wine...
Much was a flux, but the mouth once good for fucks
Came from retirement to prove She had not lost Her touch
I kissed Her viciously, maliciously, religiously
But when has ONE been able TWO best separate the THREE?
I know I'm sick as Dahmer did, but this is what I do
Aah, aah, ahh, I'll let you sleep when I am through..."

"You Fucking Whore!"

The suspect shadow sher they least
Expect My burning grasp to reach

The stranglehold, the opened arms
Seeking sweet meat with no holes barred

Rainbows that My razors wrung
Midst Her screams and seams undone
Sung at the top of punctured lungs
I bite My spiteful tongue
Lest curses spat from primal lairs
Freeze romance where Angels, bare
Are lost to love, bloodloss, despair
I weep, they merely stare...
And stare, and stare, and stare, and stare.
By: Cradle Of Filth


21st Century Cure-Repo! The Genetic Opera

Industrialization has crippled the globe
(Enjoy GeneCo's day and nighttime formula of Zydrate)
Nature failed as technology spread
(Ask a gentern if Zydrate is right for you)
And in this wake, a market erected
(Buying Zydrate from an unlicensed source is illegal)
An entire city built on top of the dead
And you can finance your bones and your kidneys
For every market, a sub-market grows.
But best you be punctual with making your payments
Lest it be you on the concrete below.

It's quick. It's clean. It's pure.
It could change your life, rest assured.
It's the 21st century cure,
And it's my job to steal and rob GRAVES!

So why care for these petty obsessions?
Your designer heart still beats with common blood
And what if you could have genetic perfection?
Would you change who you are if you could?

'Cos it's quick, it's clean, and it's pure (all you really need is)
It could change your life, rest assured (all you've got to have is)
It's the 21st century cure (all you need is surgery!)
And it's my job to steal and rob GRAVES!
GRAVES!


I also like being alone,I have privacy issues.
BEING RANDOM!
Along w/ commitment issues an alot of others but thats alot I'm not getting into.
An I don't know I'm not good at describing my self very well so I'll just say later.
And if you want to read any of my stories you can read on my Live Journal, on it I am Saint_Filth; so far the only thing I am working on putting up is a script called The Human Abstract(and yes I did name it from William Blakes poem).

--------.+.I’m not a bitch . . . I just like being rude.+.
.+.I'm not a sinner . . .I just cant do anything right.+.
.+.I'm not depressed . . I'm just always sad.+.
.+.I'm not crying . . .My eyes are just full of tears.+.
.+.I’m not living . . .I just keep breathing.+.
.+.I'm not a thief . . .I just take what I need.+.
.+.I'm not a slut . . .I just embrace my sexuality.+.
.+.I'm not stupid . . .I just don’t get it.+.
.+.I’m not trying . . .I’ve already given up.+.
.+.I'm not weird . . . I'm just different.+.
.+.I'm not a rebel . . .I just don’t take orders.+.
.+.I'm not worthless . . .I just don’t know my value.+.
.+.I'm not a believer . . .I’ve already lost hope.+.
.+.I'm not a fuck up . . .I just make mistakes.+.
.+.I'm not beautiful . . .Its only skin deep.+.
.+.I'm not emotional . . .I just have a lot of feelings.+.
.+.I'm not a cutter . . .I just found a way to get rid of pain.+.
.+.I'm not immature . . .I'm just growing up.+.
.+.I'm not a quitter . . .I just stop and re-think.+.
.+.I'm not laughing . . .I need to smile first.+.
.+.I'm not impulsive . . .I just act before I think.+.
.+.I'm not obsessed . . .I'm just in love.+.
.+.I'm not perfect . . .I don’t want to be.+.
.+.I'm not ignoring . . .I just choose not to listen.+.
.+.I'm not a gossip . . .I have my own life.+.
.+.I'm not pessimistic . . .I just don’t get my hopes up.+.
.+.I'm not impatient . . .I just don’t like to wait.+.
.+.I'm not happy . . .I do have sparks of joy.+.
.+.I'm not tough . . .I just don’t take shit.+.
.+.I'm not clingy . . .I just wanna be held.+.
.+.I'm not opinionated . . .I just voice what I think.+.
.+.I'm not questioning . . .I just have my doubts.+.
.+.I'm not hiding . . .I just want to disappear.+.
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"92% of American teens today would die if Abercrombie & Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. If you're part of the 8% that would be laughing their butts off, put this in your profile."



Yeah I get bored and like to put random things in random places on my profiles.